Daily Synopses: January - June / July - December

JANUARY 1, 1965: Pre-empted for the Rose Bowl.

JANUARY 4, 1965 (EP. #166)
Dru told Jim and Mary that John had the sense of a good criminal lawyer and insatiable curiosity to carefully consider Phil's notion that a baby may have been involved in Tom's shooting. Jim and Mary promised Dru that they would not hide the existence of a grandchild from him or John, despite that Jim and Mary would not be happy over such a circumstance. Dru informed Jim and Mary that Pat's murder trial resumes today. John conceded to Dru that he had become accustomed to the uncertainty of the case and may have to be an opportunist to take advantage of new developments that arise to build a defense for Pat. Dru assured John that he had done everything possible for Pat as his client. Phil told Sgt. Adams that a baby was involved in Tom's shooting despite the lack of a medical report on the treatment that Pat had received in the hospital and Ernest's lack of cooperation. Sgt. Adams considered Phil's theory that Pat had killed Tom because he falsely claimed that he would marry her once she gave birth to their child to be melodramatic, but Phil anticipated that John would take such an approach since it would garner the jury's sympathy for Pat. Phil vowed to Sgt. Adams that he would deny Tom fathered Pat's child since a paternity test could not be performed and Tom's dubious reputation was inadmissible to the case. Larry recommended that Tony get a psychiatrist to examine Pat and was willing to bet Tony five dollars that a psychiatrist would be summoned as an expert witness during Pat's trial. Pat mused to herself that she was prone to forgetting about the trial during her time in the infirmary. Pat was led into the courtroom as she contemplated the jury's thought process.

JANUARY 5, 1965 (EP. #167)
There was a loud murmur as Pat was brought into the courtroom. John confirmed for Judge Sutherland that Pat was ready for the trial. Judge Sutherland gave instructions to the jury and asked John to present his opening remarks. John instructed the jury that the picture puzzle of the trial would not be complete until the last piece was fitted into its proper place and asked that judgment of Pat be reserved until the jury knows all of the circumstances of the case. Judge Sutherland sustained John 's objections when Phil attempted to arouse the jury's sympathies for Ken by establishing that Tom was Ken's only son and was close to turning twenty-four at the time of his death. Ken told Phil that he had to see Tom's dead body at the County Morgue on November 7th. Judge Sutherland sustained Phil's objection to John's characterization of Tom being a ladies' man and John harping on the fact that Ken and Laura had been separated for some time. Laura questioned whether Ken's wish for the two of them to continue their lives together without Tom was simply out of pity for her. Phil opined to Sgt. Adams that John intended to smear Tom's name and deliver a baby to the jury. A coroner named Dr. Robert Wolf confirmed for Phil that he had performed an autopsy on Tom and determined that he had suffered a massive hemorrhage of the abdominal cavity, meaning that Tom had bled to death from a gunshot wound beneath the sternum. Dr. Wolf identified the bullet (State's Exhibit No. 1) and estimated that the time of death occurred between 6:30 and 8:30 p.m. John tried to dismiss Pat's angry remarks that she would not allow him to attack Tom as Pat was escorted out of the courtroom.

JANUARY 6, 1965 (EP. #168)
A furious Pat rebuked John for smearing Tom's name and insisted that he was a gentleman. John stressed to Pat that he had recruited students who were willing to describe Tom as a person in a courtroom and angrily warned Pat not to testify that Tom was a paragon of virtue. John told Dru that he suspects that Ken knew a great deal about Tom's reputation than he would never admit in court. Dru could not fathom John's incentive for arguing with Pat since it caused him to have an antagonistic client and uncooperative defendant. Dru advised John to indulge Pat's notion of Tom being "a knight in shining armor" until John uncovers facts in the case that would change Pat's assessment of Tom. Dru urged John to share his optimism that Pat's defense case would be successful. John begged Pat to have the same faith in him that Pat showed Dr. Tony Warren. Judge Sutherland berated John and Phil for playing on the jury's emotions yesterday while Ken was on the witness stand. Phil arrogantly predicted to Sgt. Adams that Judge Sutherland would reprimand John for trying to bring a baby into the proceedings. A crime lab technician named Peter Jordan testified for Phil that Pat's fingerprints were found on Exhibit No. 2, the 32-caliber pistol, that gun powder residue was discovered on Pat's hand, and confirmed that the bullet that was removed from Tom's body was fired from the pistol. Sgt. Adams recounted the events that occurred when he came to Tom and Frank's apartment on the night of Tom's shooting. John objected to Sgt. Adams' remarks about Pat being at the scene of the crime as hearsay, prompting Pat to stand up and loudly proclaim that she was not at Tom and Frank's apartment that night.

JANUARY 7, 1965 (EP. #169)
John admonished Pat for her outbursts in denying that she killed Tom and was present at the apartment since the prosecution can easily prove otherwise. Laura told Ken that Pat's clever, emotional performance helped John postpone further questioning of Sgt. Adams and scoffed over Janet attending the trial. Ken disagreed with Laura's reasoning that they owe it to Tom to see Pat face justice. Laura was baffled by Ken musing about other guilty parties such as excusing Tom's behavior towards women and suspected that Tom and Pat's relationship was more complicated than they thought. Laura bitterly told Ken that she won't forget his request for a divorce, the night Tom was killed, or his affair with Janet. Jim acknowledged the family's concerted efforts to maintain their composure to Janet, who was surprised when Jim inquired into her association with Ken. Jim was convinced by Janet's claims that she barely knows Ken and hadn't realized that Pat was dating his son. Janet said that she is fond of Pat and feels responsible for her when Jim probed into the reason Janet has attended every court session. Janet recalled Ken's testimony of identifying Tom's body in the morgue. Ken deflected Laura's suspicions that he had intimate knowledge of Tom and Pat through Janet. Ken pondered telling Laura that he knew Tom persuaded Pat to have an abortion. John told Dru that Mr. O'Neill, an investigator he hired found evidence of a possible affair between Ken and Janet. Dru told John that he may have a case by uncovering secrets that Ken, Janet, and Pat are concealing. John convinced Janet to see him to discuss Pat.

Janet: "I certainly wasn't aware of Mr. Baxter looking my way or my looking his way."
Jim: "If your paths cross in an office, as you say they do, haven't either of you discussed his son's death, Patricia's indictment for murder?"
Janet: "Not really"
Jim: "I can't believe that. His son, your niece..."
Janet: "I didn't know his son. Please remember, Jim, that I didn't know Patricia was dating, had been dating Mr. Baxter's son. I knew so little about any of you. Oh I know it's my fault, I kept away from the family, your family, Will's family -- my own mother. I hope you're keeping in touch with Ma."
Jim: "I hope you are too."
Janet: "Yes, yes I am. Perhaps sometime in the future I'll ask Ma to come and live with me."
Jim: "I am surprised."
Janet: "You know something? So am I. But I think of her staying with a niece, I think of her having stayed with you and Mary since Pa died -- maybe I feel a little guilty. Maybe I feel I'd like to know my mother better. Maybe I feel like I'd like her to know me better.

Production Notes: Act II (Janet) and Act III (Ken and Laura) from Tuesday, January 5, 1965 (EP. #167) were used as flashbacks in this episode.

JANUARY 8, 1965 (EP. #170)
Jim fretted over Pat damaging her defense by making outbursts in court. Mary was discouraged when Jim suggested that they all face reality and accept the fact that Pat will be convicted of killing Tom. Jim told Mary that Pat is keeping a secret that she doesn't want them to know. John questioned Janet on knowing Pat and calling Ernest when Pat became ill, then said it was a matter of opinion when Janet insisted that Ken was a coworker whom she didn't see socially. Janet felt that she was being cross-examined by John, who revealed knowledge of Ken having a key to her apartment and doubted Janet's claim that she was unaware that Pat was dating Ken's son. John implored Janet to level with him about everything so that he is able to build a defense case for Pat. Dru joked that Lee should be an actress after she interrogated him on John's whereabouts and Pat's defense like a lawyer during a trial. Lee tried to get Dru to admit that the cards are stacked against Pat and her case is hopeless. John resisted Lee's request to reveal the new information he obtained from Mr. O'Neill. Dru accused John of being naive for foolishly confronting Janet about an affair with Ken and causing her to become uncooperative. John told Dru that he impressed upon Janet the importance of everyone helping Pat walk out of the courtroom a free woman. Dru reminded John to forget the prospect of a baby being involved, despite John's contention that it would help Pat's defense immeasurably. John and Dru grew pensive while agreeing that people are hiding something important that is relevant to the case.

JANUARY 11, 1965 (EP. #171)
Laura complained to Ken about the lack of communication between them and wasn't placated by Ken's claim that he is no longer seeing Janet. Ken warned Laura that wishing and dreaming about Pat's conviction won't bring Tom back, but was shocked by Laura's knowledge of the prosecution's case from talking to Phil. Laura informed Ken that Phil mentioned the possibility of Pat once being pregnant, but doubted Tom was the father. Laura contemplated Tom and Pat having a baby while sitting alone in the empty courtroom. Ken and Janet marveled at the state considering a child being involved in Tom's homicide. Janet told Ken that John remembered Jim permitting her to be present while they spoke freely because of her closeness to Pat. Ken hypothesized that Janet may be forced to betray Pat's confidence after Janet admitted that John's suspicions that they have information that could help Pat are correct. Janet told Ken that John is compassionate, fond of Pat, and dedicated to defending her, despite the dire chances of an acquittal. Janet confessed to Ken that she is considering telling John about Pat's abortion and sterility, but has conflicted feelings because of the relevations' impact on the family. Larry was impressed by Tony staying abreast of Pat's trial. Tony probed Larry on the medical treatment Ernest provided to Pat and decided to attend the murder trial. Pat told John not to pressure her into taking the sodium pentothal test. John noticed Pat becoming bothered while swearing that Janet didn't know she was dating Tom and downplayed the closeness between her and Janet.

John: "... I hope I haven't upset you. I wouldn't want to upset you before going into court."
Pat: "What makes you think you've upset me?"
John: "You look upset."
Pat: "Well I'm not. I'm ready for that courtroom any time it's ready for me."

JANUARY 12, 1965 (EP. #172)
John informed Pat that he will be cross-examining Sgt. Adams in court and had Pat verify that she has told him everything that happened on the night of her arrest. Pat reflected on the staff at the jail living separate lives from their work and forgetting the world she had as a free woman. John had Sgt. Adams confirm that Frank placed Pat at the crime scene and they obtained Pat's address by calling the university. Sgt. Adams testified that Mary retrieved Pat from her bedroom, that Pat didn't fight getting arrested, and admitted to telling Pat that Tom was dead. John got Sgt. Adams to admit that Pat thought Tom had been in an accident, assumed that she knew Tom had been shot, and fainted upon learning of his death. Dru complimented John on getting the jury to question Pat's motivation for firing the gun, her reaction to learning that Tom died, and Tom's clean image. Dru suggested John consider Ken's state of mind while being on the stand and his lack of displaying any anger towards Pat. Phil thought little of Pat fainting and was confident in getting a conviction. Sgt. Adams was concerned and puzzled while telling Phil that Pat was upset over John's attempt to tarnish Tom's good name. John advised Pat that Frank, Jim, and Mary will be called to testify next to establish that Pat had enough time to commit the crime and get home after stopping at the Kopper Kettle. Pat went into a fury over being accused of murder. John angrily told Pat to accept that she killed Tom and cooperate with him or risk being sent to prison.

Pat: "I never thought of Mrs. Rogers having a home other than in the County Jail. I never thought of her having a sister, a family. It's difficult to imagine any of you in a home with people you love who love you."
Matron: "You don't really know us Miss Matthews."
Pat: "No, I guess not, but you're so much a part of everything that goes on here or in the jail. You live in two different worlds, don't you?"
Matron: "I suppose you could say that."
Pat: "I -- I've even forgotten my other world. My home, my room and sometimes I even forget my family. I seem to have become a part of all this too. I suppose I'll be a part of it for a long time."

Production Notes: Tape of November 11, 1964 (EP. #131) was used as Sgt. Adams' flashback of Pat's arrest during John's cross-examination.

JANUARY 13, 1965 (EP. #173)
Bill told Liz that he can provide the most truthful picture of Tom and potentially convince the jury that Pat shot Tom in self-defense. Missy fretted over knowing nothing of value that could help Pat aside from being her best friend. John was intrigued over the differences between Pat and Missy upon being introduced to her by Bill and wondered about the nature of their friendship. Missy told John that she first saw Pat while working at the Kopper Kettle, met through Bill and became friends, and disliked Tom because of his dubious reputation with women. Missy told John that Tom and Pat dated, but stated that she will not reveal any information that Pat confided to her. Bill informed Missy that swearing under oath that Pat had told her that she and Tom were going to be married may help John's defense case, though Missy would be breaking her promise to keep it secret. Missy grew petrified over the prospect of her illegitimacy being revealed when she testifies. Dru realized Lee had trapped him into discussing the purpose of witness testimony in trials with her. Lee boasted to Dru over following every case John has tried, but couldn't get Dru to concede that a guilty verdict for Pat is a foregone conclusion. Lee told Dru that she dislikes girls like Pat who cause trouble and often hurt other people. Dru told Lee that she was too bright to carry prejudices and to reserve judgment of Pat until she knows the full story behind the facts. Lee recalled forgetting Dru's birthday nearly four years ago and told John that he was right to lecture her about it. John did not fault Lee for believing in Pat's guilt, but spoke with much conviction of proving her innocence.

Dru: "...When you judge, Lee, judge by the facts and sometimes you have to judge by the story behind the facts."
Lee: "One of your 'Penny Pennies' Uncle Dru?"
Dru: "Yes, child, one of my 'Penny Pennies.'" That's what you used to call my 'Penny Lectures.' I want you to grow up to be a fair -- a fair woman."
Lee: "You don't think I am?"
Dru: "Not when it concerns Patricia Matthews."
Lee: "All right, Uncle Dru. Maybe I've been a little unfair. I'll try awfully hard to reserve my judgment."

Notes: Lee mentions that Dru's birthday is on March 17th.

JANUARY 14, 1965 (EP. #174)
Pat wished John could understand her perspective after he apologized for being harsh yesterday. Phil presented two photographs that Ralph Jenkins took of the crime to be entered as evidence. John argued that the intention of the photographs was to shock and inspire prejudice, but Phil contended that they depict the gun's location in relation to the body and depict time required for a witness to relate. John and Phil's voices faded into barely audible murmurs as Pat heard "The Sweetheart of Sigma Chi" and struggled to grasp that the dead body in the photographs was Tom. Jim and Mary felt helpless watching Pat in a shocked state at the defense table. Laura accused Ken of falling victim to John orchestrating a dramatic act to gain sympathy for Pat. Judge Sutherland overruled John's objections and admitted the photographs as Phil requested. Phil had Frank provide his background and association to Tom while on the witness stand. Frank confirmed that Tom and Pat had dated, that Pat had been over to the apartment occasionally, but they hadn't talked in some time. Frank recounted discovering Pat standing over Tom's dead body and the gun lying near her feet. Phil had Frank testify that Pat fled while he was on the phone with the police and he was escorted to the Matthews' house by Sgt. Adams to identify Pat being at the crime scene. Judge Sutherland sustained John's objection to Phil asking whether Pat knew that Frank owned a gun. Phil dismissed Frank once he revealed that his gun was laying on top of some clothes because he was in the process of moving out, but not in plain sight.

Production Notes: Tapes of November 9, 1964 (EP. #129), featuring Frank and Pat, and November 11, 1964 (EP. #131), of Frank identifying Pat at the Matthews house, were used in flashbacks for this episode. This episode takes place entirely in the courtroom.

JANUARY 15, 1965 (EP. #175)
Frank testified that Pat didn't acknowledge his presence in the apartment on the night of the shooting. Frank told John that Pat seemed to be in a state of shock and that he apologized after confirming for her that Tom was dead. Pat stood up and desperately pleaded for Frank to state that Tom loved her and they were going to get married. Dru firmly warned John that he was on dangerous ground because Frank could make Pat appear jealous by stating that she was one of Tom's many dates. Dru withdrew from arguing with John, who stressed that Pat may cooperate with him once she is forced to face the truth about Tom. Frank informed John that Tom simply described his relationship as Pat being fond of him. Phil declined Sgt. Adams' offer to speak with a man who could place Pat at the University. John tried to soothe Pat's anguish over Mary taking the stand, but was perplexed when Pat implied that Mary doesn't know everything that happened. Judge Sutherland demanded a conference with counsel after Pat loudly admonished Phil for calling Mary as a witness. John tried unsuccessfully to get Pat to explain her veiled comment about Jim and Mary not knowing the complete story. Pat had a flippant, defeated attitude towards John's lectures over her being uncooperative and giving Phil ammunition to strengthen his case. John angrily lambasted Pat for making his defense difficult and ordered her silence during court proceedings going forward. Mary testified that Pat was out for roughly an hour and went to bed shortly after arriving home. Phil rested his case once John decided not to cross-examine Mary.

Frank: (Exit Line) "Pat was fond of Tom, yes -- he told me that."
John: "All right, Mr. Andrews, that's all -- that's all for now."

John: "Once I know the facts surrounding the death of Tom Baxter, I'll be able to provide a real defense for you, Patricia. But in the meantime don't give the State the kind of ammunition that you've been giving Mr. Martin."
Pat: "Words, just words."
John: "Words? You want to know what this man is going to do when he sums up his case for the jury?"
Pat: "I don't really care."
John: "You've got to care. I've heard 'I don't care' from you too often."
Pat: "And you'll hear it again."
John: "I better not. I'd just better not. And I don't want to hear any more outbursts in that courtroom. I don't want to hear Mr. Martin sum up his case and tell that jury that every outburst was an act, was premeditated, just as the killing of Tom Baxter was premeditated."
Pat: "Stop it!"
John: "No I won't stop it. Because that's what Martin's going to say. Every time court was recessed because of you -- Martin will say it was an act and the jury will believe him. I want you to believe me. It's going to take will power for you to go back in that courtroom and hear Martin question your mother. But, no matter what he says or how he says it, no matter what, Patricia, don't say a word...."

Notes: Last appearance of Peter Brandon as Frank Andrews. Tapes of relevant scenes from November 9, 10, and 11, 1964 were used as flashbacks during each witness's testimony in court.

JANUARY 18, 1965 (EP. #176)
Dru gave John sage advice on handling criminal defense cases and separating oneself from the client. The jail matron came to calm Pat, who was tortured by nightmares of babies crying. Dru was sympathetic as John brooded over defending Pat without her help and taking drastic action to build a proper defense case. John informed Dru that he refrained from cross-examining Mary because she is best suited to be a defense witness. Dru and John conceded that Phil met their expectations on presenting a strong case against Pat. John hypothesized to Dru that claiming self-defense would backfire because Pat would describe Tom as a paragon of virtue and would deny killing Tom and being at the apartment. Dru proposed that Pat's adamant testimony could persuade a jury that she shot Tom during an episode of temporary insanity. John told Dru that psychiatrist Dr. Ralph Hubert will reveal that Pat declined to have a sodium pentothal test to help recall the night of the shooting and Pat's refusal will be like a sleight of hand brushing away murder charges regardless of the testimony of other witnesses. Alice was incredulous towards Janet's statements that John has a case to present since the prosecution and the papers believe Pat's conviction is an inevitability. Jim encouraged Mary to get some much-needed rest. Jim and Mary discussed their admiration for John and astonishment over Pat's total lack of cooperation. Janet was moved by Mary's gratitude over her cooking dinner and providing moral support. Pat was discomfited when John hinted that she should be ready to hear perspectives of Tom that contradict hers.

Pat: "You're not going to -- to attack Tom?"
John: "Patricia, who knows what anyone is -- you, me, or Tom -- except through another's eyes -- and different eyes -- may see different things -- and even though they're different they may all be true."
Pat: "I don't understand you, Mr. Randolph, I don't understand what you're talking about."
John: "I want the jury to know you, to know Tom. I think I know you, Patricia, but I may learn something about Tom -- so may you, Patricia -- so may you."

JANUARY 19, 1965 (EP. #177)
Phil mocked Pat being portrayed as a sweet girl and Tom a louse to women in anticipation of John presenting his defense case. Dru told Mary that she will be called to testify on things that Phil didn't address, but was dismayed when John summoned Laura to the stand instead. Phil relished in telling Sgt. Adams that John is arranging Pat's suicide by calling Laura as a witness. Laura was cold and calculated while telling John that she never met Pat and wouldn't allow a tramp like Pat to be a guest in her home. John acted unaffected as Laura described Tom as popular among girls and well liked, then gave a scathing assessment of Pat as an envious, overly possessive woman and scoffed at her being called a lady. John knew he inadvertently struck a hornet's nest once Laura testified that Tom was seriously interested in Carol Pearson. John told Dru that Laura's testimony had the intended impact on Pat, but conceded that it was likely disastrous to his overall case and the name Carol Pearson came out of left field. Laura got defensive with Ken over grilling her about Carol. Ken browbeat Laura for slandering Pat and telling lies on Tom's behalf that cannot be questioned because he is dead. Laura venomously ridiculed Ken for only being embarrassed for Janet's sake and unapologetically referred to both Pat and Janet as tramps. Ken wasn't sympathetic to Laura, who wailed about hearing Tom's voice and never seeing her son again. Ken stormed out of the house in disgust rather than abide by Laura's request not to be left alone. Pat felt she had nothing to hold onto if Tom truly didn't love her and was pursuing Carol.

JANUARY 20, 1965: Pre-empted for the Inauguration of President Lyndon B. Johnson.

JANUARY 21, 1965 (EP. #178)
John shrugged off Dru's concerns over his tired appearance and was evasive about his whereabouts after their evening conference. Jack flirted with a fellow student outside of the courtroom while she griped about the two of them receiving subpoenas to appear as witnesses. Pat thought of Laura's testimony as the matron accompanied her to the defendant's table. Sgt. Adams smugly told an edgy Phil that the tearjerker he said John was going to perform didn't make him or any of the jury cry. Laura noticed Ken being distant and quiet as court reconvened. Phil predicted to Sgt. Adams that John likely regrets Laura mentioning Carol Pearson during testimony. Carol stated to John that she met Tom a year ago, but only had coffee with him and consented to one date after he made an earnest pursuit. Judge Sutherland sustained Phil's objections to strike Carol's impressions of Tom and Pat going steady and dating many girls from the record. John successfully got Carol to contradict Laura's claim that Tom was seriously interested in her. Carol testified that she would never consider being intimate with or accept a marriage proposal from Tom during Phil's cross-examination. Four female university students gave varied accounts on Tom's reputation and having casual dates that led to nothing serious. Three male students testified about Tom throwing unchaperoned parties for couples and dating several girls. Mrs. Marjin, housemother of the Sigma Chi fraternity, informed John that Tom charmed his way out of trouble and seemed to prefer college life without responsibilities to hinder him.

Pat: (PRE-RECORDED, TO HERSELF) "They didn't know Tom. I did. They didn't love him. He didn't love anyone of them. He loved me."

JANUARY 22, 1965 (EP. #179)
Dru took John to task for gambling on Carol's testimony, despite John's argument that Carol unwittingly called Laura a liar which discredits Tom. Pat ruminated over everything she heard about Tom pursuing other girls and his reputation. John was perplexed when Phil offered to lend him a bassinet when the right moment comes. Dru was glum after hearing from Mary that the initial impressions she and Jim had towards Tom were correct, even though they trusted Pat. Missy confirmed living with the Sawyers and attending the University high school, then established that she met and befriended Pat while she was working at the Kopper Kettle. Missy panicked when John posed questions about Tom and Pat's relationship that would force Missy to break her promise and reveal Pat's certainty that Tom would marry her. Judge Sutherland agreed to a bench conference after Phil objected to Missy's comments about Tom and Pat's relationship being hearsay. John proclaimed that Phil was using innuendo and uncertainty over Pat testifying to improperly influence the jury, but couldn't get the Judge to declare a mistrial. Missy stated that she visited Tom while Pat was very sick and that Tom didn't react after Missy revealed that Pat loved him and expected them to marry. Judge Sutherland sustained John's objections to Phil's questions about Tom's concern over Pat being in the hospital. John brought an end to the cross-examination when Phil implied that Missy was biased since she's Pat's best friend and is dating her cousin, Bill. Liz seethed over Bill dating a girl with Missy's occupation and Pat tarnishing the family name.

Dru: "The point is - if you're going to try this case the same way that a roulette player puts his money on the red or the black and hopes the spin of the wheeler will bring up the right color..."
John: "I think that's a bad example."
Dru: "You do, huh?"
John: "Yes. I think I'm more like the blackjack player who looks at his cards and decides whether to ask for another one or whether he's going to stand pat. Sure he's gambling - but he's also using his judgment."

Liz: (PRE-RECORDED, TO HERSELF) "A waitress - nothing but a waitress. my son and a waitress. Everyone knows now my son is going with a waitress. The best friend of a possible murderess. Patricia has ruined the name of Matthews - not only her family's name -- and now she's doing the same to my son.... Bill Matthews -- Melissa Palmer."

JANUARY 25, 1965 (EP. #180)
Sgt. Adams cautioned Phil against thinking Pat's conviction is a guarantee because of John's track record on winning cases. A female trial spectator was perturbed over a boy asking her about once dating Tom. Bill offered to appear as a witness for John in hopes of supporting Missy's testimony and helping Pat. Phil told Sgt. Adams that a prosecutor can never be certain over the testimony that defense witnesses provide. Sgt. Adams acknowledged that Tom asked Missy about Pat's condition while she was hospitalized to Phil, who alluded to Tom being unaware that Pat was pregnant with another man's child. Missy apologized to Bill for bringing up his name while on the stand. Ken accused Laura of trying to comfort herself by spreading lies. Bill testified that he had known Tom for three years, that they were fraternity brothers at Sigma Chi, and emphatically stated that Tom dated often. Judge Sutherland sustained Phil's objections to John questioning Bill about Tom's reputation on the basis that Tom's motives and conduct with women are irrelevant to trial proceedings. Bill informed John that Pat angrily dismissed his warnings against dating Tom because of his reputation with women. Phil insinuated that Bill's opinion of Tom was speculation during cross-examination. Bill bristled when Phil had him confirm that Missy is his girlfriend and that Tom never asked her on a date. John tried to ease Bill's embarrassment over his performance on the witness stand. Bill told an astonished Missy that he wanted her to know their relationship status.

Phil: (to Sgt. Adams) "Don't feel bad. I'm sure I'd miss a lot if I were investigating the scene of a murder or robbery. That's where you live. But this is where I live, in this room, and I don't miss much that goes on here." (GESTURING WITH HIS ARM) "There's not much I miss that comes from that stand."

Notes: Bill gives his and Liz's address as 601 Somerset Drive while being sworn in as a witness.

JANUARY 26, 1965 (EP. #181)
Dru apologized to John for potentially damaging their friendship by being tough on him over Pat's case. John confessed to Dru that Pat's defense has personally affected him, wants to uncover the entire truth, and feels like he knows Tom like a fraternity brother. Dru was interested when John mused that he has more to learn about Pat and doubts that she truly knows Tom as much as she wishes to believe. Pat told John that she still loves Tom, regardless of whether other people's opinions of Tom are truthful or not. John advised Pat to accept his decisions on witnesses he may call to the stand. Phil boasted to Sgt. Adams that John's strategy to paint Tom as a scoundrel backfired and John has lost his chances of getting an acquittal. Mary stated that she first met Tom on the night of the Senior Prom, that he and Pat had dated since last Spring, Tom didn't spend holidays with the Matthews, and that they never met his parents. Mary testified on Tom and Pat's weekend alone on Memorial Day and Pat staying home while the family vacationed at Canyon Lodge because she claimed that she had a date with Tom. John had Mary admit that she and Jim had misgivings about Tom, but never discussed the situation with him. Mary recounted Pat running down the stairs after hearing that Tom was in an accident without knowing that Tom was dead. John had Mary elaborate on her reservations about Tom when Phil tried to use them to discredit her. Mary told John that she felt that they had misjudged Tom once he finally had dinner with Pat and the family, but never saw Tom again after that evening.

Production Notes: Tapes of Act IV from October 12, 1964 and November 10, 1964 were used in this episode.

JANUARY 27, 1965 (EP. #182)
John angered Dru by being indecisive about calling Dr. Ralph Hubert to the stand after Pat testifies. Dru warned that he will request John's resignation as Pat's defense attorney if he continues to have a lackadaisical attitude towards the case. John professed his dedication to Pat's case and belief in her innocence as lawyer and a man, which spoke volumes to Dru and eased his frustrations. Dru gave John sage advice about likening a trial to a play where the lawyer prepares witnesses to testify and be cross-examined through rehearsals. John attempted to have Pat glance at the crime scene photographs of Tom while providing her particulars on the witness stand. Pat testified on spending nearly every day and evening with Tom during the school year, once a week during the summer, and that they had many personal conversations about themselves and the future. John gently prompted Pat to profess loving Tom and admit her implicit understanding that their relationship was exclusive and that they were going to get married. Pat testified that she and Tom had talked about children, then emphatically denied killing Tom when John posed the question. John questioned Pat on her whereabouts prior to the shooting on the night of Tom's death. Judge Sutherland overruled Phil's objection to John's line of questioning about Pat's mindset since it was an exception to hearsay. John had Pat reiterate trusting Tom and their plans to get married despite Tom never explicitly proposing or settling on a wedding date. Pat testified that she knew everything about Tom and that she couldn't possibly have been at the apartment on the night Tom was killed.

John: "Do I have to be an enthusiastic college boy every time we talk about this case?"
Dru: (FIRMLY, NOT ANGRILY, BUT HE MEANS IT) "My offer stands, John - and if you wish you can consider it a request, not an offer."
John: "Well you can consider your request turned down. This is my case, my friend, and -- Patricia is my client. Sometimes it's easier to try a case yourself than watch someone else do it. It's hard for an old gladiator to become a spectator, isn't it, Dru?"

JANUARY 28, 1965 (EP. #183)
Pat maintained denials despite John's dogged questioning on whether she was at the apartment, killed Tom, or remembered events that specifically involved the shooting. Pat became unaware of John's presence as she broke down in sobs and kept stating that Tom wasn't dead. Phil decided against cross-examining Pat. Sgt. Adams and Phil were shocked when John rested his case despite Dr. Ralph Hubert being present in the courtroom. Phil decided to present a rebuttal and called Dr. Ralph Hubert as a witness. Dr. Hubert confirmed for Phil that he is a psychiatrist and that Pat was a patient of his. Phil asked Dr. Hubert to obtain permission from Pat to speak openly in court. John aggressively informed Pat to give the psychiatrist consent to testify for Phil or change her plea to guilty. Dr. Hubert testified that he extensively interviewed Pat but did not perform any tests, then blindsided Phil by concluding that Pat was experiencing hysteria which has blocked her ability to recall the events of the shooting. John had Dr. Hubert explain mental blocks and confirm that it cannot be voluntarily produced. Dr. Hubert explained that his conclusions are based on Pat's statements and impressions derived from them and Pat declined a sodium pentothal test to remove impediments to recollection. Judge Sutherland instructed Phil and John to prepare summations and review jury instructions. John compassionately told Pat that he completely believes her testimony and will appeal a conviction. Ken decided to spend the night away from Laura rather than endure her insinuations about Janet and "eye for an eye" mentality against Pat.

JANUARY 29, 1965 (EP. #184)
The jail matron refused to ask the infirmary to give Pat a sedative to help her sleep. Pat brooded over the jury handing down a guilty verdict and became deeply disturbed over her inability to remember being at the apartment, picking up the gun, and killing Tom. Janet ruminated over Pat's defense case being hopeless unless she reveals the full story and considered betraying Pat's trust by telling John everything she knows. Jim and Mary discussed the evidence against Pat and agreed that Pat truly doesn't recall the events surrounding the shooting. Alice tried to make sense of Pat's refusal to take the sodium pentothal test. John informed Alice that calling family members of the defendant is tricky because the testimony can be discounted as prejudicial by the prosecution. John told Jim, Mary, and Alice that he appreciates their honesty and cooperation, but admitted to being troubled by Janet's knowledge of the circumstances involving Tom and Pat. John felt defeated while telling Jim, Mary, and Alice that he begged Pat to take the sodium pentothal to no avail and will appeal Pat's conviction. Ken recalled being at the apartment on the night of the shooting and Tom confessing his role in Pat getting an abortion and being hospitalized as a result of the operation. John was stunned when Ken came to his office asking to speak with him. Phil's offer to dispose of Pat's case and discuss a recommendation were soundly rejected by John. Phil tried to convince Judge Sutherland to decline John's request to present evidence based on previously unknown testimony in surrebuttal.

Janet: (PRE-RECORDED, TO HERSELF) "...You look at the jury -- their faces look like masks. And yet I know -- I know that when the case goes to the jury tomorrow morning there can be only one verdict -- guilty. Dear God, what should I do? What should I do? If the girl herself won't tell her story, do I have the right to betray her? Do I have the right? I don't know. I don't know."

FEBRUARY 1, 1965 (EP. #185)
Pat worried about the conclusion of the trial and the impending verdict. Laura was absolutely floored when John called Ken to take the stand. Judge Sutherland overruled Phil's contention that any conversation Ken had with Tom was irrelevant to the case. Pat became frantic and, as if by telepathy, accused Ken of lying and begged John to cease questioning him as the testimony progressed. Ken confirmed that Tom and Pat had an intimate relationship, she became pregnant by him, and he balked at getting married. Pat stood up and pleaded for Ken's silence once he stated that Tom convinced Pat to have an abortion, which caused her sterility. Ken stated that Tom refused to marry Pat because he didn't love her. Jim told Mary that Pat was courageous for declining the sodium pentothal test because she didn't want anyone to know about her abortion. Jim defended Janet's decision not to betray Pat's confidence and insisted to Mary that they do everything humanly possible to assure Pat that they aren't ashamed. John suggested that Jim and Mary allow Pat time to deal with her secrets going public and not take for granted that Ken destroyed the memory of Tom for the defense case. Laura accused Ken of telling a fabricated story he received from Janet while under oath. Ken declared his love and shame for Tom and admitted to Laura that he was mindful of the impact his testimony would have. Laura professed hatred towards Ken over tarnishing Tom's image. John tried to convince Pat that Ken did the right thing by testifying. Pat tearfully agreed to have Dr. Hubert administer the sodium pentothal test.

Notes: Appearance by Joey Trent as Russ Matthews. Russ appears with Bill, Alice, and Missy merely as trial spectators without lines. Likely this is due to the significance of Ken appearing as a defense witness and his testimony.

FEBRUARY 2, 1965 (EP. #186)
Ann told Missy that she was weary of John's case because Pat killed Tom. Missy was shocked when Ann revealed that she had a private discussion with Pat about the advice she gives to young, unwed mothers. Ann spoke regretfully to Missy about whether she could have stopped Pat from having an abortion and being jailed by having follow-up conversations with her. Phil was stunned when John stated that Ken testified willingly and that Jim and Mary were unaware of all the facts. Phil praised John's dedicated and passionate efforts to defend Pat and asked to be present when Dr. Hubert administers the sodium pentothal test. Dru informed Lee that he and John believe that Pat cannot recall the events involving the shooting. Lee disliked Dru hypothesizing about her actions if she were in the same predicament as Pat. Dru confirmed for Lee that Jim and Mary had no knowledge of Ken's testimony and were unprepared in court. Dru was taken aback when John said that the sodium pentothal will uncover details of the shooting and reveal the man who "murdered Pat." Dru affectionately lauded John's excellent job of raising Lee as a single father. John thought of Pat's lost dreams while discussing with Dru the two different worlds that adults and the young inhabit. Dru protested John's admission of falling in love with Pat. Pat talked to Dr. Tony Warren while trying to avoid making eye contact. John was completely forgiving towards Pat, who apologized for being uncooperative and impeding his ability to present a proper defense case. John told Pat that she has another chance to be acquitted.

Dru: "...In many ways you've taken her mother's place."
John: "That's nice to hear. Lee's been -- well she's assumed quite a bit of responsibility. But in many ways - in many ways she knows so little, so little of reality."
Dru: "Do the young recognize reality? The young live in another world. A world different from ours. I think for the most part, John, you and I live in a world of reality. Our dreams have been realized. The young still dream."
John: "What happened to Patricia Matthews' dream? A girl twenty-one years old and every newspaper in the city is carrying the story. She's being judged by millions who don't know her."
Dru: "Do you know her, John?"
John: "Yes, Dru, I know her. I think I know her well."

John: "This is a new day. A new day, Patricia."
Pat: "No."
John: "Yes, Pat. It's a new day....And you're going to have another chance -- another chance to live."

FEBRUARY 3, 1965 (EP. #187)
Liz complained that Ken's testimony damaged the Matthews' name, but Bill insisted that Ken destroyed Tom's memory and exposed him for the person he was. Bill pointed out the double standard when Liz underscored Pat putting the family through a terrible ordeal but didn't acknowledge Bill's opinion that Tom's actions were wrong. Liz griped to Bill that the situation could have been avoided because Janet knew the complete story about Tom and Pat. Janet told Ken that his courageous actions helped convince Pat to take the sodium pentothal test, which may explain Pat's actions in Tom's apartment. Ken tried to dissuade Janet's guilt over concealing the truth from Jim and Mary and hinted about moving forward together. Eric gave Laura an examination per her request. Laura informed Eric that Ken perpetuated Janet's lies about Tom and that she has lost faith in her marriage surviving. Eric revealed to Laura that Ken was truthful because he heard the story directly from Ken on the night of Tom's death. Pat recalled calling Tom and confronting him about her sterility during the sodium pentothal test. John and Phil were shocked as Pat reenacted Tom denying he loved Pat and refusal to marry her. Pat tearfully revealed that Mr. Alberts was her abortionist, she heard baby cries, and picked up Frank's gun and pointed it at herself. Dr. Hubert stopped the session once Pat experienced a block between holding the gun and having coffee at the Kopper Kettle. John mused about Phil swiftly arresting Mr. Alberts. Dr. Hubert advised John that Pat must consciously reconstruct the events of the shooting before she can testify again.

FEBRUARY 4, 1965 (EP. #188)
Dru was pleased to learn from John that Pat recalled crucial moments from the night of the shooting after taking the sodium pentothal, but deeply saddened about Pat's sterility. Dru guessed rightly that Dr. Hubert will need to interview Pat to fill gaps in her memory. John confidently told Dru that he will get an acquittal based on temporary insanity. Pat was steadfast against John's suggestion that she let Jim and Mary visit because Pat believed they are ashamed of her. John told Pat that Jim and Mary are good parents when Pat chastised herself for ignoring the values and lessons she was taught. John apologized to Lee for forgetting that she arranged to live on campus when she attends college in the fall. Lee was puzzled over John being indecisive towards hiring a housekeeper and planning a summer vacation. Dr. Hubert asked Pat about Jim and Mary's misgivings towards her relationship with Tom. Pat confessed to Dr. Hubert that she became pregnant after being intimate with Tom once. Dr. Hubert asked open-ended questions to Pat, who explained Tom's stances against marriage and abortion as a solution to an obstacle in the way of their future. Pat recounted avoiding Tom out of fear for being rejected because of her sterility. Dr. Hubert was disappointed when Pat couldn't consciously recount being at Tom's apartment on the night he was killed. John was impressed by Dr. Hubert's detailed description of Tom and intrigued by the theory that Tom was indulgent in flattering vulnerable girls with his attentions. Dr. Hubert informed John that Pat was very communicative and expressed certainty that she will recall everything that happened soon.

Lee: "What are they worth, Dad?"
John: "What are - what worth?"
Lee: "All the things that are going on in your head right now."

Notes: Enclosed cast list for February 4 and 5, 1965 includes: John Boruff as Dr. Ralph Hubert, Alice Yourman as Jail Matron, Kermit Murdock as Judge Sutherland, and George Hall as Court Clerk.

FEBRUARY 5, 1965 (EP. #189)
Mary told Alice that Jim is meeting John to discuss Pat testifying once more and urged her not to think differently of Pat. John informed Jim that Dr. Hubert is trying to reconstruct the events involved in Tom's death. Jim was deeply saddened when John decided to tell him that Pat revealed being sterile during the sodium pentothal test. Pat was reaching the breaking point as she strained to continue being interviewed by Dr. Hubert. Pat recalled being at the apartment and Tom stating that they were never going to get married and he didn't love her. John rephrased his questions to Dr. Albert when Phil stated that Dr. Hubert is restricted in providing Pat's statements while under the sodium pentothal unless Pat is still unable to recall the night of the shooting. John caused an uproar in the courtroom when he openly admitted that Pat shot Tom while Dr. Hubert reiterated his conclusion that she was suffering from a mental block. Pat testified that she became pregnant after being intimate with Tom on Memorial Day and Tom got her to have an abortion under the pretense that they would get married. Pat recounted becoming ill from the abortion, finding out she was sterile, and calling Tom requesting to speak with him on the night in question. John adopted a steady pace during questioning to build momentum while keeping Pat focused and stirring her memory. Pat recalled Tom rejecting her once she revealed that she was sterile, picking up Frank's gun, and pulling the trigger. John had Pat clearly state that she didn't intend to kill Tom and felt as though she couldn't control her finger when the gun was fired. Phil decided not to cross-examine Pat.

FEBRUARY 8, 1965 (EP. #190)
Mr. Alberts testified that Tom had arranged the abortion, but Pat was hesitant to have the operation and kept telling herself that she was fulfilling Tom's wishes. Phil sent Mr. Alberts back to jail after being dismissed by the judge. John rested his case and Phil chose not to present a rebuttal. Judge Sutherland advised John and Phil to be ready to make closing arguments. Phil advised the jury to consider the events of the shooting, determine the facts of the case, and reach a verdict by abiding by applicable laws. Pat was nearly overwhelmed with anxiety as Phil claimed that Tom's death was intentional. Phil contended that Tom didn't force Pat into intimacy, having the abortion, and wasn't abusive upon learning of her sterility. Phil concluded that Pat's motive was to punish Tom since he didn't acquiesce to her demands, the reasons for killing Tom were unlawful, and urged the jury to render a first degree murder verdict. John began his closing statements by directly addressing Phil's remarks about lawful reasons and the emotions that led Pat to kill Tom. John informed the court that Pat consented to Tom's wishes because she wanted to please him and emphasized that Pat was the only person who defended Tom and his memory among all the witnesses who testified. John concluded that Pat had shot Tom during a bout of temporary insanity that produced amnesia because of Tom's sound rejection. Judge Sutherland advised the jury of the three possible verdicts to consider: murder in the first-degree, not guilty, or not guilty by reason of suffering from a mental or emotional disease.

Production Notes: This episode began with a newspaper headline, "Abortionist to Testify in Murder Trial," then cut to Mr. Robert Alberts on the witness stand.

FEBRUARY 9, 1965 (EP. #191)
John and Dru disagreed about the two of them working together as a team on Pat's defense. Dru noted John's earnest efforts to win Pat's case and questioned whether John was truly in love with Pat. John was too pre-occupied with the jury to discuss loving Pat and Lee's potential reaction with Dru. Dru talked about being unable to predict a jury's verdict and wasn't surprised that John intended to appeal a conviction. Ernest told Janet that he was on the verge of breaking patient confidentiality so he could testify on Pat's behalf. Ernest and Janet agreed that John gave an eloquent, thought provoking summation. Ernest tried to explain separating men from their professions to Janet while discussing the impact of the closing remarks on the jury. Jim and Mary were restless and impatient while waiting to see Pat at the county jail. Pat gave her impressions of the jury to the matron. John tried to muster optimism in Pat over the length of time the jury has been in deliberations. Mary lamented to Jim that Pat won't give them a chance to help and assure her of their unconditional love. Jim reasoned that it may take a long time for Pat to reconcile with everything that happened and urged Mary to be patient. Dru was surprised to find Lee sitting outside in a small corridor of the courtroom waiting for John. Lee told Dru that Pat is very pretty and that she feels genuine pity towards her. Dru confidently told Lee that Pat will be acquitted based on John's summation and the destruction of a woman who made the mistake of loving the wrong man. Pat reflected on life after the trial and was riddled with guilt for betraying herself and her upbringing.

Ernest: "Somehow, I felt that John Randolph, the man, was pleading for Patricia's life."
Janet: "How do you separate the attorney from the man? I don't understand."
Ernest: "Just as you separate the doctor from the man."
Janet: "Aren't the two the same?"
Ernest: "Do you think Mr. Baxter as an advertising executive is the same as Mr. Baxter the father, the husband? The - friend, your friend?"

FEBRUARY 10, 1965 (EP. #192)
Dru asked Lee about starting college in the fall. Lee told Dru she dislikes the pledging process of sororities and prefers to make her own choices, despite Mike Quinn claiming to know the group that is the most suited for her. Dru advised Lee not to assume that John thinks Pat will be convicted because he is preparing an appeal. Lee told John that she was proud of his performance in court. Dru told John about his lengthy conversation with Pat and was pessimistic over appealing a potential conviction. John and Dru discussed trial performances, uncertainty about doing their best, and being consummate actors to exude confidence. John was moved when Dru spoke profoundly about juries weighing the facts on the scales of justice. Laura told Ken that she could justify killing Pat because of Tom's death and Ken wanting a divorce and testifying for the defense. Ken refused to let Laura blame Pat for his decision to testify or place the blame on Janet for their marital problems. Laura told Ken that they should separate due to irreconcilable differences. The sequestered jury took a preliminary ballot, resulting in seven votes not guilty and five guilty, then continued deliberations. Sylvia Dowling and a male juror related to Pat's dilemmas since Sylvia had been an unwed, expectant mother who hid her pregnancy while he married his wife for the sake of their child. The other jury members grew thoughtful as a female juror pointed to society's expectations of women taking the role of mothers and the terrible guilt of making a mistake that leaves a woman barren. Another female juror questioned the reaction of other girls in similar predicaments to Pat's circumstances.

John: "Are you still here, Dru?"
Dru: "I don't believe it's my ghost, John."
John: "Lee, it's late, you should be in bed."
Lee: "And you should have been home an hour ago...."

Production Notes: "Network news cut-in top of show."

FEBRUARY 11, 1965 (EP. #193)
Janet refused to accompany Alice to the courtroom because she didn't want to be subjected to Jim and Mary's disapproval. Alice spoke dejectedly to Janet about the potential verdict and other people's views on the events surrounding Tom's death. Janet sternly advised Alice to be empathetic and not judgmental towards Pat should she be found not guilty. Phil and Sgt. Adams were surprised that jury deliberations have lasted longer than expected, reflected on John's passionate summation, and agreed that the verdict could go either way. Dru leveled with Jim and Mary about John becoming obsessive over Pat's case, that he lost a sense of objectivity, but believed that John's conviction and brilliant closing arguments redeemed him. Jim was unsuccessful in his attempts to get Dru to make a firm prediction on the verdict. Dru encouraged Jim and Mary to have patience with Pat, who may become reclusive, antisocial, and difficult in adjusting to life upon acquittal. Jim and Mary vowed to show Pat unconditional love and refrain from judging her because of the mistakes she made. Pat was not interested in talking to another female prisoner, who bemoaned that she was left by her husband, is struggling financially to support two children, and was arrested for stealing. Pat admonished herself for being insensitive towards the woman and wished she had committed suicide while portions of Ken and Laura's testimony went through her mind. John emphatically told Pat that he will always fight for her freedom. Pat's family rushed to the defense table once the jury foreman announced the verdict as not guilty due to temporary insanity.

Phil: "Adams, If you were in that jury room right now, how would you vote?"
Sgt. Adams: "To be honest with you, Mr. Martin, I don't know."
Phil: (Exit Line) "In that case, Adams, the jury might be out longer than we expect."

Alice: "Who is my sister? A girl I - I loved, who me, who shared a room with me...Or the girl who became pregnant..."
Janet: "You can stop right there. You don't know how you feel about Patricia, do you?"
Alice: "I won't know unless she comes home again. I won't know until we can talk. Until we're - really sisters again."
Janet: "What a ridiculous thing to say - until you're really sisters again."
Alice: "I loved Patricia, the Patricia I knew. I don't know the Patricia Tom Baxter knew."
Janet: "Oh yes you do. Just remember Patricia loved this man, perhaps still does. Just remember what she's been through. Oh I realize you've been through a great deal yourself, Alice. But if the jury finds her not guilty, don't you Alice Matthews, sit in judgment and find your sister guilty."

Pat: (PRE-RECORDED, TO HERSELF) "Temporary insanity. Was I - was I insane?!"

Notes: Last appearance of Paul Sparer as D.A. Phil Martin.

FEBRUARY 12, 1965 (EP. #194)
Dru gently chided John over moments in the trial when he floundered and hesitated, but now understood that his conduct was affected by his romantic feelings for Pat. John mused over fighting for Pat's freedom, prompting Dru to suggest that John proceed with caution for the sake of Lee, Pat, and himself. Laura accused Ken of getting Pat acquitted by providing a defense for John to present. Laura wasn't placated by Ken's arguments that Pat will have to carry the burden of killing Tom and being sterile for the rest of her life. Ken was appalled when Laura theorized that Pat will exploit her experiences for personal gain through appearances in the newspapers, television, and radio. Ken informed Laura that he will be staying at the University Club and to contact him once she is willing to discuss a divorce. Janet balked at Ken's suggestion to contact the family because Jim and Mary are angry with her for withholding information about Pat. Ken ruefully told Janet that Tom was the last thing keeping his marriage together and that nothing can salvage it. Janet warned Ken that she can only offer him respect and fond feelings. John and Lee realized that Pat's dreams of becoming a teacher have been ruined. Lee was puzzled over John's resolve to help Pat adjust to life without Tom as a free woman. John reiterated his wish for Lee to meet Pat. Alice felt hopeless in consoling Pat, who chastised herself for lecturing Alice while she was unmarried and pregnant. Pat grew despondent as Mary urged her to believe in the family's love. Pat smashed her record of "The Sweetheart of Sigma Chi" then flung herself onto the bed and sobbed.

FEBRUARY 15, 1965 (EP. #195)
Missy raved about Bill gifting her a candy box, flowers, and corsage and receiving a scarf from Ann on her birthday. Ann questioned Missy's reluctance in visiting Pat since she's been released from jail. Missy told Ann that she feels awkward because Pat's baby would have been illegitimate like her. Missy told Ann that she could fall in love with Bill, but is scared to reveal her background. Ann agreed to let Missy review her case file. Missy changed her mind about seeing Pat when Ann expressed disappointment in her judgmental attitude. Jim pleaded with Pat to allow herself to live and not hide in her bedroom. Pat told a distressed Jim that she is undeserving of love, forgiveness, and understanding. Mary was impressed with Missy's personal growth as she talked about taking college courses next fall. Mary reminded a frustrated Alice that she just started attending the Institute and encouraged Alice to believe in her artistic talent. Pat sadly reflected on shattering Missy's perceptions of her being a lady. Pat confessed to Missy that she sacrificed her own wishes of motherhood to please Tom. Missy confided in Pat that she questions whether she should have been born rather than live as an illegitimate girl. Pat told Missy to be receptive of Bill's feelings. Bill and Missy stood at the campus bridge and likened the ice sheet over the water to human behavior and things that are hidden underneath the surface. Missy grew contemplative as Bill reasoned that Pat faced the unfortunate choice of abortion or adoption because Tom wouldn't marry her. Bill told Missy that it must be difficult for a child because society frowns upon such things as illegitimacy.

Pat: "....But you, Missy -- there's Bill. You know he cares for you. I'm sure you care for him."
Missy: "I don't know how he'd feel if he knew the truth about me."
Pat: "Forget about a mother or a father. Let me tell you something about yourself, Melissa Palmer. You're a lady. You're a real lady."

Notes: Ann mentions that Missy was left at the orphanage at two months old. According to the script notes, Bill and Missy's conversations about Pat's choices for her unborn child and social commentary about illegitimacy were revisions to the original draft.

FEBRUARY 16, 1965 (EP. #196)
Russ asked for help in Latin and mathematics, prompting Pat to call herself a poor example and state that she has abandoned finishing school. Russ tried to ease Pat's self-loathing by emphasizing that the full story was revealed in court and she was acquitted. Pat continued to dwell on other people's opinions and told Russ that she is nothing but a failure. Dru declined taking a case that John was considering due to lack of interest. John was nonplussed when Dru was evasive towards using his office to meet with Jim. Dru postponed talking to John about falling in love with Pat. John chose not to protest Dru's request to leave so that he could speak with Jim alone. Dru told Jim that he was remiss for not urging Pat to see Dr. Hubert when Jim stated that Pat has practically convicted herself of murder. Jim was puzzled when Dru disagreed that John should talk to Pat about seeking therapy because he has been the most objective person in Pat's life since she was arrested. Dru persuaded Jim to let him help Pat without elaborating on his doubts about John's objectivity. John consented to Lee's plans of having a simple birthday celebration with him and Dru and throwing an unchaperoned dinner party with friends. Lee joked with John about being unaware of his handsome looks, manner of dress, and refusal to bend on her curfew. John was bothered when Lee admitted that she was worried about his involvement with Pat, but is relieved that everything was right again. John contemplated Lee's potential reaction to him being in love with Pat. Dru adamantly made John promise to stay out of Pat's life and refused to keep him informed on her welfare.

Russ: "...I hope you know that I've been thinking of you."
Pat: "I knew that."
Russ: "I guess you did. I was sure you did. Because you know me, Pat. You know me better than anyone in this family. You always have. You never expected too much from me."
Pat: "Russ? Maybe it isn't so important what other people expect of you. It's more important what you expect of yourself."
Russ: "I couldn't ever expect too much of myself. I'm not very bright Pat."
Pat: "You're not stupid, you never were. I told you a long time ago, Russ, it isn't easy. I mean standards at school are so high."
Russ: "You're telling me? If I get through high school..."
Pat: "You will, Russ."

John: "You're growing up and I'm getting old."
Lee: "Oh Dad, you're not old."
John: "You make me feel old, Lee. Eighteen whole years -- that's growing up..."
Lee: "Oh stop it, Dad. You make it sound as though you're ancient."
John: "Well I'm not ancient."
Lee: "Oh course you're not. Besides you're -- handsome."
John: "You think so?"
Lee: "So do you, don't you?"
John: "Lee Randolph."
Lee: "I was just poking fun. You never think of how you look, or what you're wearing."
John: "You think I need to spruce up a bit, do you?"
Lee: "No. Do you think I want some widow to find you too attractive? No."

Notes: Appearance by Joey Trent as Russ Matthews. John reveals that he will turn 39 years old in May.

FEBRUARY 17, 1965 (EP. #197)
Jim told Mary that Dru isn't keen on having John speak with Pat about starting therapy sessions with Dr. Hubert. Mary confided to Jim that she is conflicted about being patient with Pat and is frightened over the ramifications of Pat enduring so much during the past several months. Alice doubted Pat would come downstairs to join the family due to Liz's presence. Jim and Mary were shocked when Alice discovered that Pat wasn't in their room or helping Russ with his Latin homework. Pat received a ticket for speeding while taking her car for a drive. Jim and Mary fumed about Pat leaving without telling anyone and were concerned over her whereabouts. Liz noted that Will passed away nearly a year ago and groused about rarely hearing from Susan. Jim, Mary, and Alice didn't appreciate Liz's remark about girls like Susan who go to great lengths to maintain a relationship with a man. Mary felt awkward when Liz assumed that she feels encouraged over Pat going out while Jim maintained that Pat hasn't made any commitments about resuming college. Pat came to the kitchen just in time to interrupt Liz state that she was fortunate to be acquitted by the jury. Pat claimed she went to Missy's apartment, then shocked Mary by rudely implying that Liz is wrong to dislike Missy. Mary relented in allowing Pat to eat dinner upstairs alone. Bill was floored when Missy expressed regret over accepting his loan. Missy admitted to Bill that she was bothered by Pat's ordeals and his comments about society and the opinion of others being important. Bill asked Missy not to retreat into the fantasy world she had prior to the two of them meeting.

Alice: "I'm sorry I'm late, Mom."
Mary: "What time is it?"
Alice: "I'm late. Hello, Dad." (SHE GOES OVER AND KISSES HER FATHER)
Mary: "Am I an orphan, Alice?"
Alice: "I'm saving the best for last." (SHE KISSES HER MOTHER)

Liz: "You're very fond of Melissa, aren't you."
Pat: (ON THE DEFENSIVE) "Yes, Aunt Liz, I am. I know you're not, but I am."
Liz: "I never said I didn't like Melissa."
Pat: "Perhaps not, but that's what she thinks. I want you to know, Aunt Liz, that she's a fine girl. Bill couldn't hope to meet a finer girl."

FEBRUARY 18, 1965 (EP. #198)
Jim and Mary realized that they were upset over Pat taking a drive because it was reminiscent of Pat leaving the house on the night Tom was killed. Jim reasoned that Dru wants to get insight from a psychiatrist like Dr. Hubert rather than have John talk to Pat about starting therapy. Mary admitted to Jim that she resents Janet's involvement in their efforts to help Pat because she didn't tell them about her pregnancy, abortion, and hospitalization. Janet told Ken that she doesn't fault Jim and Mary for not keeping in touch with her. Janet reflected to Ken that Pat would've preferred being convicted of murder rather than the family knowing about the mistakes she made with Tom. Ken predicted that Pat will struggle with gaining confidence and trust in a man to allow herself to fall in love when Janet worried about Pat's prospects of marriage. Janet agreed to consider Ken's suggestion of visiting Pat, but confessed her concerns that Pat may be experiencing suicidal tendencies. Mary and Alice thought it a good sign that Pat has taken an interest in tutoring Russ and hoped Dr. Hubert could treat Pat. Dr. Hubert informed Dru that Pat must find life worth living and seek therapy on her own volition. Dru complimented Dr. Hubert on being perceptive enough to know that John has fallen in love with Pat. Mary convinced a hesitant Pat to speak with Dru, but warned him not to expect much from the conversation. Pat was perplexed when Dru guessed rightly that she believes it's the end of the world and wishes she were dead. Dru encouraged Pat to think about seeing Dr. Hubert to help her cope with depression.

Janet: "I can't really blame my brother or my sister-in-law for not getting in touch with me."
Ken: "Is there anything to stop you from contacting them?"
Janet: "Oh yes, yes there is. When you get right down to it, Ken, you and I have been a part of the conspiracy."
Ken: "Isn't that a rather melodramatic way of saying it?"
Janet: "I don't believe so."

Dru: "Do you think for one minute that this world you're talking about, Tom, children -- you think that's the only world? Listen to me and hear me. There're a thousand other worlds waiting for you."
Pat: "Are there?"
Dru: "Yes. Yes. And I know the man who -- who can convince you of this even if I can't. I'm only an old retired attorney. I've touched many worlds during my lifetime. And so will you before you're through, so will you. Oh I know you don't believe a word I'm saying. You think you've come to the end of everything."
Pat: "I know I have."
Dru: "No, Patricia. There is another beginning, there is another world for you -- if you'll accept a little help...."

FEBRUARY 19, 1965 (EP. #199)
Mary was puzzled by Pat's impulsive decision to leave the house. Pat told Laura that she has become reclusive and guilt-ridden because of her actions, then winced when Laura cruelly remarked that she took a long time to remember killing Tom. Laura degraded Pat's relationship with Tom and belittled her sentiments about Tom having many fine qualities. Pat was shocked when Laura called her and Janet tramps. Janet deflected Jim's inquiry into whether Ken influenced her into wanting to take a vacation and change jobs. Jim assured Janet that he isn't angry with her, but didn't contradict Janet's intuition that Mary resents that she kept the truth about Pat's illness from them. Janet was unconvinced when Jim noted that she maintained Pat's confidence and thought she would be the first person that Pat would confide in. Jim and Janet felt conflicted towards Pat benefiting from therapy sessions. Janet suggested to Jim that Pat's depression might be remedied through the unconditional love of a kind, decent man. Missy told Pat that she is slated to graduate from high school by June. Pat spoke ruefully to Missy about knowing Tom's reputation, but incorrectly blaming the girls he dated. Missy reasoned that Pat saw good qualities in Tom that others didn't rather than reiterate that she never liked him. Pat assured Missy that Bill loves her, then suggested she fabricate a story rather than reveal her true background. Dru informed John that he is optimistic that Pat will willingly seek help after speaking with her. John confessed to Dru that he cannot separate being Pat's confidante from wanting her to be his future bride.

John: "You know, Dru, sometimes I think you believe the whole world is populated by children who don't know what's good for them and who need Father Dru's advice."
Dru: "Or -- Father Randolph's advice possibly?"

Notes: Dru mentions that he never married, but raised a ward and has past experience helping women with legal trouble.

FEBRUARY 22, 1965 (EP. #200)
Janet told Jim that the unconditional love of a man could transform Pat into a different woman, but conceded that Pat won't forget her ordeals because every experience in life leaves an indelible imprint on the psyche. Jim surmised that Janet never recovered from being hurt by a man as she stated that failed romances were part of the human condition. Janet marveled to Jim about Pat's inner strength in enduring the trial, maintaining silence about the full story, and facing the guilt of killing the man she loved. Ken told Jim that he came to see Janet because she rarely misses work due to an illness. Jim convinced Janet to keep in touch with him after admitting that Pat has been difficult to handle lately. Janet told Ken that she suspects that Jim thinks the two of them are living together. Ken tried to reassure Janet that her family sincerely wishes for her to find happiness. Janet chastised Ken for emphasizing financial security and materialism in his efforts to talk her out of looking for a new job. Pat paid an unexpected visit to Janet, then obstinately refused to call Mary to give her whereabouts and insinuated that she was lying about Ken checking on her. Janet browbeat Pat for wallowing in self-pity and being ungrateful that she maintained her confidence and Ken testified for the defense. Pat was disillusioned by Janet once she confessed her affair with Ken. Janet urged Pat to realize that Tom was unworthy of her love. John explained to Lee that Pat is suffering from depression, but she must seek help from a psychiatrist willingly. Lee was disturbed by John's interest in the ways in which Pat will adjust since the verdict and move forward with her life.

Janet: (to Jim) "...Make no mistake about Patricia, she's a Matthews. She's just like Ma in some respects. All feminine, all woman, but with a will of steel that not even Tom Baxter could take away from her..."

FEBRUARY 23, 1965 (EP. #201)
Janet told Ken that she regrets interfering in Pat's life. Ken felt pity for Pat when Janet mentioned that she visited Laura in hopes of convincing her that she loved Tom and wasn't a tramp. Janet informed Ken that she was forthright with Pat about their past affair. Janet told Ken that Pat must learn that not all actions done out of love are justified and that love between two people should include a wedding ring. Ken confessed his affair with Janet to Eric, but insisted that they never lived together. Eric gave Ken a stern warning to abandon hopes of being with Janet since Laura will not consent to a divorce decree. Ken countered that Laura has an active social life in the suburbs and that they both lost two children when Eric pleaded with Ken to forgive Laura's vindictive behavior and resume his marriage. Eric imparted the importance of balancing a career with spending quality time with his wife to Ken, who complained that he and Laura have nothing in common and dislikes the suburbs. Eric accused Ken of trying to recapture his youth. Dru encouraged Lee to enjoy the upcoming summer break so that she is prepared for starting college in the fall. Lee made astute observations to Dru about attorneys being like salesmen when they address juries and asked for a definition of temporary insanity. Pat told John about speaking with Laura and that she worries that some people believe she was wrongfully acquitted. Pat was angry towards John for insisting that she attend traffic court due to receiving speeding tickets and being in danger of losing her license. John agreed to represent Pat, but refused to keep the information from Jim and Mary.

FEBRUARY 24, 1965 (EP. #202)
John advised Dru that Pat asked him to handle her tickets and he is profoundly troubled by her desperate behavior. Dru protested John's involvement in Pat's life, prompting John to stress that he won't stand idly by and allow Pat to succumb to destructive impulses. Tim Bradley, a psychology major, talked to Pat about pursuing his doctorate in Psychology and once being a member of the Sigma Chi fraternity. Pat triggered Tim's memory by mentioning Tom, whom he recalled attended one of his quiz sections. Tim spoke philosophically about constructing good bridges to move from one place to another when Pat downplayed being on the campus bridge alone. Pat politely declined Tim's invitation to go to the Kopper Kettle with him. Alice grumbled about Freddie's habit of taking her on movie dates. Pat brusquely told Alice that she dislikes John and regrets that he plead her case so eloquently. Alice lambasted Pat for acting like an ungrateful, spoiled child and taking her anger out on the family. Pat promised Alice she would make a concerted effort to change her attitude. Mary imparted to Pat that learning by trial and error is an essential aspect of life when Pat confessed to feeling like a failure. Mary lovingly embraced Pat and felt relieved once she asked for help in living life again. Lee was offended when John laid into her over getting home late and questioned her honesty about Mike's car having a flat tire. John masked his feelings from Lee when Pat called to apologize for being rude to him and took accountability for driving recklessly. Lee declined John's request to accompany him to see Pat to discuss her speeding tickets.

John: "I know you don't lie to me. I shouldn't have even questioned you."
Lee: "And I know you don't lie to me."
John: "I try not to lie. I don't know quite how to say this."
Lee: "My father, a very important attorney is at a loss for words. I can't believe it."
John: "Sometimes you sound exactly like your mother..."

FEBRUARY 25, 1965 (EP. #203)
Jim thought Liz was reading too much into the situation when Liz groused about Bill's loan to Missy and knowing nothing about her background. Bill raved about Missy's grades and emerging from her cocoon, prompting a pessimistic Missy to warn that she might disappoint him one day. Missy tried to discourage Bill from wanting anything more than friendship between them. Alice noted to Mary that Pat tutoring Russ has been mutually beneficial and wished to be closer to him. Mary was grateful when an introspective Alice talked openly about finding her own place in the world. Jim assured Mary that he didn't visit Liz and take Russ bowling to avoid talking to her about Pat. Jim hypothesized to Mary that Pat purposely drove recklessly to risk her own life while discussing Pat's traffic tickets. Jim reasoned that Pat will ultimately need more than the support of her family. Bill spoke frankly to Liz about financing Missy's education and having strong feelings for her. Liz made a fleeting remark that she hopes that nothing develops between Bill and Missy, leading Bill to assert his independence as an adult. Bill didn't believe Liz was truly surprised that he is serious about Missy and wants to plan for the future. Liz warned Bill against expecting financial help from her or be permitted to use his inheritance to support himself and a wife. Bill pointedly informed Liz that she is wrong to dislike Missy and proclaimed that he will marry the woman of his choice and not hers. Pat told Alice that self-worth matters more than the opinions of others after they discussed Bill and Missy's courtship. Alice urged Pat to be open with her so that they can restore their close, sisterly relationship.

Notes: According to script notes, Alice had coffee ice cream in Act II, as chosen by the actress, Jacqueline Courtney.

FEBRUARY 26, 1965 (EP. #204)
Lee ribbed John over growing sensitive about his age and getting dressed up to stop by the Matthews' house. John recognized Lee having the same determination as her mother when Lee maintained that she didn't see the point in meeting Pat or her family. Lee mused about John's continued interest in Pat and always finding someone to pity. Pat explained to Alice that she can do without seeing Dru and John because they were part of her life when it was a nightmare. Alice protested Pat's request that she make excuses to Dru so she wouldn't have to speak with him. Dru tried to backtrack letting slip his knowledge of Pat's traffic violations to Jim and Mary. Dru advised Jim and Mary that Pat wants everyone to punish her, and considers herself a failure. Jim told Dru that Pat is helping Russ with school and is determined to see him graduate. Alice was surprised when Dru was understanding towards Pat refusing to see him or John because of their roles in her life. Dru was annoyed when John came to talk to Pat. Pat was irritated when Alice wouldn't let her out of seeing John and refused to feel sympathy for her. Jim, Mary, and Dru were baffled when John insisted on taking Pat out for coffee to discuss the traffic case. Pat spoke wistfully to John as she reminisced about spending time with Tom at the Kopper Kettle and life being exciting and fun back then. John reinforced Pat's promise not to drive for a year in exchange for getting her out of traffic court and not telling Jim and Mary. Pat rebuffed John's compliments and tried to ignore his statement that she will be a free woman once she faces the fact that she loved the wrong man.

Dru: "You weren't successful, I know, I know. What did your sister say?"
Alice: "She doesn't want to see you. She doesn't want to see you or Mr. Randolph."
Dru: "That's good, that's very good."
Alice: "Why?"
Dru: "Well -- did she give you a reason?"
Alice: "Yes. She said the two of you had been too much a part of -- well as she called it -- a nightmare."
Dru: "We were. But we don't want anymore nightmares...." (ALICE ANSWERS DOOR TO JOHN)
Alice: "Why Mr. Randolph?"
John: "Hello Alice. Is Patricia at home?"
Alice: "Yes. Come in, won't you?"
Dru: "Well. The other part of the nightmare I see has arrived."

Alice: (to Pat) "Sorry. But I'm me and you're going to have to take me or leave me. And I'm not going into mourning for what happened to you, Patricia. Whether you want to come downstairs or not is your business. But Mr. Randolph wants to see you."

Production Notes: The song "If I Love You" was played on the jukebox at the Kopper Kettle during the John/Pat scene, "which will be the theme of record for the John-Patricia development."

MARCH 1, 1965 (EP. #205)
John confessed to Jim that he settled Pat's traffic tickets under the condition that she not be permitted to drive for a year. Jim and John reflected on each having a daughter and Pat going through a lifetime of turmoil at a young age. John told Jim that he and Pat shared their first authentic conversation while at the Kopper Kettle. Jim ruminated over people creating idealized images of loved ones when John contended that Pat must recognize Tom's true nature. Alice eased Mary's worries over her popularity with the male students at the Institute by stating that she keeps them at arm's length, but wondered if Pat's ordeals caused her apprehension towards dating. Mary explained to Alice that Pat persists in wanting to be punished for killing Tom and having an abortion. Dru apologized to Lee for having the flu on the night they were to have a small birthday celebration for her. Dru recalled that he gifted his mother's engagement ring to his ward, then gave Lee his mother's pearl necklace as a birthday gift. Jim told Mary that John took Pat to the Kopper Kettle and theorized that it may be part of John's efforts to help Pat accept the truth about Tom and the beginning of her rehabilitation. Mary mused that Pat seems to be absent of feelings towards everyone. Lee showed off her new dress to John and raved about the pearl necklace Dru gifted her. John sheepishly confessed to Lee that he isn't looking forward to turning forty next year. John promised Lee that he and Dru will make themselves scarce so she can enjoy her birthday dinner party. Dru felt John was spoiling Lee by giving her the keys to a car. Dru accused John of foolishly falling in love with Pat. John informed Dru that he can provide a new life for Pat and reiterated his hopes to be her future husband.

Jim: "You don't believe she still loves him, Mr. Randolph?"
John: "No I don't. She's still in love with the image she had of the man. He was only an image. She never saw the man for what he was."
Jim: "We all create images, don't we, of people for whom we care -- their weaknesses we ignore, refuse to recognize really. We create what we want to see, don't we?"

John: "You look as bright as a new dollar."
Lee: "As my new birthday."
John: "Your new birthday is not as new as it was this morning."
Lee: "I was born at six in the morning. And March came in..."
John: "Like a lamb for your mother and me."
Lee: "I hope it always comes in like a lamb for you."

Notes: Alice gave John the nickname "Dreamboat" because of his handsome looks in some episodes. Dru gives the name of the ward he raised as Julie.

MARCH 2, 1965 (EP. #206)
John was enthusiastic towards Lee's plans to attend summer school. Lee was sympathetic as John lamented that his life revolves around Lee and work and he will be alone once she starts living on campus in the fall. John resolved to seek more to life while he is still relatively young. Alice thought it was lousy that Pat hadn't visited Janet and accused her of being unappreciative. Pat snapped at Alice for suggesting that she quit feeling sorry for herself. Alice became frightened and contrite when Pat wished to be dead so that her suffering would end. Alice tried to convince Pat that everything will work out for her. Pat agreed to spend time with Alice at the Institute. Ken told Janet that he doesn't have expectations of her until she accepts a marriage proposal. Janet vaguely hinted to Ken that she may be re-evaluating her aversion to marriage. Janet informed Ken that she is staying with the agency, but disagreed with Ken's assertion that she will marry him once he is divorced. Pat advised Ken that Laura is right to despise her and asked him not to apologize for Laura's insults. Janet gladly accepted Pat's declaration of love and friendship. Pat told Janet that she knows that Ken crucified Tom to save her, but can't bring herself to express her gratitude yet. Janet confessed that she once had suicidal tendencies, but is happy to be alive now. Laura seethed over Ken knowing about Pat's visit to see her. Ken grew angry with Laura for constantly harping about Janet and accusing him of chasing after his lost youth. Laura vehemently told Ken that she will permit him to live elsewhere and carry on extra-marital affairs, but will never consent to a divorce.

Laura: "....Stay at the club, live with whomever you wish, whenever you wish. But you're my husband. You were the father of my children. I'll never let you forget that. I'll never forget it." (SHE GOES AND SITS DOWN AND STARTS TO PLAY SOLITAIRE AGAIN. KEN PUTS ON HIS COAT)
Ken: "I remember the phrase too. 'I leave you to your firelight and your chair, Laura -- and to your game that's always -- solitaire.'"

MARCH 3, 1965 (EP. #207)
Dru changed the subject to Lee's birthday so she wouldn't have the chance to ask for details on his upcoming appointment with John. Dru told Lee that he and John toasted to her while having dinner at the Lawyers Club and assured Lee that her mother is proud of her. Lee confided in Dru that she was bothered by John's fear of being alone and comments about wanting to find another world for himself. John was offended when Dru suggested he consider getting married before purchasing a large house. Dru accused John of being presumptuous for thinking that Pat would be romantically interested in him and ascertained that John was trying to convince himself that he is still young. John defended his love for Pat and wishes to provide her security and fulfillment against Dru's objections. Dru warned John that Pat may be incapable of loving another man and recalled that John loved Lee's mother deeply and shared a happy family with her. Jim reinforced his faith in John getting through to Pat and asked him to persuade Pat into starting therapy with Dr. Hubert. John told Dru that he is willingly giving his time and effort to helping Pat because she is destructive and believes he can be a positive influence on her. Pat was disgruntled over Alice trying to push her into wearing a nice dress and going downstairs to talk to John. John felt wounded when Pat denied that they have built a rapport and wished he had called rather than come to the house. Pat told John that she keeps her mind occupied by tutoring Russ and doing chores for Mary. John convinced a subdued Pat to trust his efforts in helping her to restore her self-respect.

Dru: "Sit down, child, sit down."
Lee: "You are the most amusing soul in the world."
Dru: "A nice distinction."
Lee: "You come over to our house and say open the windows, let the fresh air in, be healthy like me. I come over here -- there's not a breath of fresh air in this room."
Dru: "I am slightly indisposed."

Pat: "Oh yes. Alice, in her own dramatic way, came into our room and said, 'Miss Matthews'" (AND SHE SAYS THIS IN A DEAD TONE) - "Dream Boat is here.'"
John: (HE SMILES) "Well I see that I'm in favor with one member of the Matthews family."
Pat: "Oh yes. Alice is quite taken with you."

MARCH 4, 1965 (EP. #208)
Pat made veiled remarks to Mary about the direction in her life, but was adamantly against confiding in anyone. Mary urged Pat to have trust and faith in John's efforts to help her. Pat groused to Mary about John expecting too much from her. Dru grew impatient with John for speaking in generalities instead of clearly stating his course of action in helping Pat. John told Dru that he intends to prove to Pat that she can be loved by a man despite the mistakes she made. Dru got John to admit that he doesn't expect Pat to love him, then accused John of trying to reenact fairy tales. Dru was doubtful towards John's plans and wagered that he would be inviting trouble by persuading Pat to marry him. Pat assured Missy that Bill encouraged her to stop hiding from the world and expand her horizons when Missy worried that Bill wants her to get a full makeover. Missy was disturbed when Pat nonchalantly admitted that she was speeding in her car on purpose. Missy was incredulous as Pat warned against risking her chance to find happiness by telling Bill that she is illegitimate. Bill told Missy that Pat feels tremendous guilt towards the family to explain the reason the two of them have drifted apart. Bill noted to Missy that she has gained some self-esteem and has improved her life by furthering her education, but insisted that his feelings for her aren't superficial. Missy was astonished as Bill confidentially laid out plans for them to get married once he graduates from law school. Liz was stunned over Bill's intentions to take summer courses rather than work for Jim and suggested he uncover Missy's background before rushing into a marriage.

John: "Dru, it's my opinion that this girl has the idea - and there's every reason why she should, that no man could ever be interested in her. No man could ever care for her."
Dru: "I see."
John: "Do you?"
Dru: "I think so. So you intend to be the knight in shining armor..."
John: "Look Dru..."
Dru: "Or you're going to be the prince who awakens the sleeping princess."
John: "Come on now, I'm being serious."
Dru: "So am I. Your whole idea is to let this girl know that there is a man who cares for her. That it doesn't make any difference to him that there was a Tom Baxter. That there was an abortion, that she is sterile as a result of that abortion. That there is a man who cares enough to forget that she killed."
John: "That's right."

Liz: "Bill Matthews. You don't, you can't possibly mean that."
Bill: "I've been taking Missy out for some time, Mother."
Liz: "Before you go for any marriage license, I suggest that you find out who she is."
Bill: "I know who she is."
Liz: "I don't believe you do. I don't believe anyone does."

MARCH 5, 1965 (EP. #209)
John felt guilty that his investigation into Ken and Janet's association inadvertently caused Pat to become disillusioned by Janet once she confirmed Laura's suspicions that they were having an affair to Pat. Janet confided in John about Pat experiencing suicidal ideation and claimed that female intuition leads her to believe that Pat harbors hatred towards Tom that hasn't surfaced yet. Ken felt encouraged when Janet agreed to have dinner with him. Janet delicately told Ken that Tom caused Pat to doubt she could ever love again. Ken was intrigued as Janet talked about Pat's lingering feelings for Tom and John appointing himself to rehabilitate her. Janet told Ken that Pat is cooperating with John begrudgingly, but the family has every confidence that he will succeed in helping her. Ken tried to profess his love to Janet, who was too pre-occupied with John and Pat to discuss the matter further. Janet told Ken that John's plan for Pat is to shatter her idealized image and memories of Tom. Pat was forthright with John about the times she contemplated jumping off the campus bridge. John challenged Pat to jump after she proclaimed that life is cheap and not worth living. John badgered Pat over denying Tom's role in her mistakes and refusing to accept his death. Pat accused John of being a bully and was perplexed when he took her to meet Lee. Pat unenthusiastically made small talk with Lee, but was put off when Lee couldn't fathom returning to the university after having experiences like Pat's. Lee sarcastically joked about John and Dru fighting over taking Pat home. Dru tried to soothe Lee's fears that John was in the midst of having a midlife crisis.

MARCH 8, 1965 (EP. #210)
Missy admitted to Bill that she is nervous about graduating and Liz's dislike towards her. Missy tried to convince Bill that she is all wrong for him and confessed that she accepted his loan and enrolled in school to please him. Bill felt discouraged when Missy stated that she will be working this summer to pay him back instead of attending college. Missy requested that Bill not make definitive plans while she deals with a personal problem and he gets Liz to change her opinion of Missy. Jim told Bill that Liz has struggled to move on since Will's death because they were very close and rarely spent time apart. Bill told Jim that he has fallen in love with Missy, but is at a loss on getting Liz and Missy to bond. Jim suggested Bill give Liz advanced notice once he decides to buy an engagement ring for Missy. Bill lent Jim a sympathetic ear as he discussed their problems with Pat and Russ. Bill took Pat to task for making snide comments about being forced to see people against her will. Pat told Jim about walking around the university with John, then stopped herself from mentioning her first meeting with Lee. Alice listened with interest as Pat described her evening with John. Pat told Alice that Lee is young and attractive, but found the encounter awkward and was anxious to leave. Alice was disappointed when Pat compared John to Jim because of their tendencies to lecture and was ambivalent towards him and Lee. Lee was unconvinced when John pointed out that Pat paid the price for her actions and is suicidal. John reassured Lee that his motives are to provide guidance to Pat so she becomes capable of solving her own problems.

MARCH 9, 1965 (EP. #211)
Pat swore to John that bringing her to places she used to frequent with Tom won't alleviate her depression. John waxed poetically about places and people fading into the background of awareness like music. Laura scolded Eric for stopping by under the pretense that he had completed a house call nearby. Eric cautioned Laura against thinking that delivering ultimatums would persuade Ken to resume their marriage. Laura ruminated to Eric about whether she was wrong to blurt out Ken and Janet's affair to Pat while ridiculing her. Eric was compassionate towards Laura feeling overwhelmed by loss and loneliness. Laura was fascinated as Eric described grief developing into symptoms of any disease a person may choose, but was shocked after Eric proposed that the best remedy for her is to divorce Ken. Eric gave Laura sage advice about clinging to a loveless marriage and having nothing in common with Ken except their children. Laura was haughty towards granting Ken a divorce because it would enable him to be with Janet, despite Eric's insistence that keeping Ken trapped would be a hollow victory. Janet admitted to Ken that she isn't interested in pursuing a relationship with him and doubts that she could ever return his love. Ken's jaw tightened when Janet stated that Tom is a prime example that men haven't changed much since Mike Connors broke their engagement. Janet tried to convince herself that Ken was right to believe that John is only interested in rehabilitating Pat. Ken disagreed but was impressed by Janet's ability to separate her career and personal feelings for men. Laura informed Ken that she has decided to give him a divorce.

Janet: "Does the handsome Mr. Randolph, hold the golden key to Pat's future?"
Ken: "Why are you trying to open doors?"
Janet: "I never try to open doors. I'm always afraid."
Ken: "Of what?"
Janet: "Of what I might find behind a closed door, a locked door."
Ken: "Doesn't your curiosity ever get the better of you, Janet?"
Janet: "There was a time when it did, but not any more."
Ken: "You've given John Randolph and Patricia a great deal of thought recently."
Janet: "I know I have."
Ken: "There's a door I've opened. You don't have to unlock it, you don't have to wonder what's behind it. You don't seem to be interested in that room, the room with the open door."

Notes: According to the scripts, several lines in the Ken/Janet and Ken/Laura scenes were revised. The original draft is not included in the collection and the revised pages don't contain crossed-out dialogue and handwritten lines.

MARCH 10, 1965 (EP. #212)
Alice tried to convince Pat that marriage is still a possibility for her and Janet. Pat advised Alice that she has found common ground with Janet in not wanting love and wished for them to bond further. Laura laid out the grounds of the divorce involving adultery with Janet named as co-respondent, causing Ken to blow a gasket. Ken accused Laura of vindictively using divorce as a weapon against him and Janet, but presenting it as an amicable solution. Ken angrily escorted Laura out of his office. Pat informed Mary that Russ found a summer job at a neighborhood garage, but asked Mary not to say anything yet. Pat ruefully told Mary that she is envious that Russ works on cars and Alice has art in which to lose themselves. Mary was discomfited that Pat scoffed over returning to school, earning her degree, and John making progress with her. Pat flipped that Mary invited John and Lee to Sunday dinner without asking her and stormed out in the rain. Dru told John that Jim made him realize that allowing John to represent Pat was a huge mistake. John protested Dru's threats of telling Jim and Mary that John has other interests in Pat aside from just rehabilitation. Dru predicted to John that Jim and Mary will disapprove of him being in love with Pat, but reluctantly gave John a chance to level with them. Ken vented about Laura's scheme to Janet, who maintained that they are equally responsible for Laura's actions. Janet squirmed while telling Ken that they are finished, noted that he isn't an immoral man, and has returned to Laura numerous times. Ken was stunned as Janet stated that her own feelings are irrelevant because he will always be married to Laura.

MARCH 11, 1965 (EP. #213)
Lee told John that talking to him and Dru is never dull because she learns more about subjects like politics and Vietnam from them than she does from school textbooks. John informed Lee that they have been invited to have Sunday dinner with the Matthews and asked Lee to stop talking sarcastically about Pat. Lee disagreed with John's certainty that she will grow to like Pat in time. Alice wondered whether Pat would prefer to have her own bedroom. Pat and Alice shared their different opinions on being asked on dates in advance and short notice. Pat scrambled to find an excuse to get out of the house on Sunday to avoid having dinner with John and Lee. Alice advised Pat that she has the right to refuse to spend time with John, despite Jim and Mary's chagrin. Pat obstinately told Jim and Mary that she will leave in protest if John and Lee come for Sunday dinner. Dru accused John of fussing over him like a mother hen because he walked in the rain to get to the Randolph household. John disagreed with Dru's advice that he excercise self control by not acting on his feelings for Pat. Dru harped on John and Pat's age difference and John giving himself the authority to take over Pat's life to explain his objections to John pursuing a relationship with her. John failed to give a satisfactory answer to quell Dru's suspicions that John may be confused about his feelings and motivations. Mary reluctantly called John and revoked the dinner invitation by lying that Pat had made plans for Sunday. Alice jumped out of bed and woke Pat, who was experiencing terrible nightmares of baby cries.

Lee: "I'm going to be a Portia, a modern Portia. I don't care what Uncle Dru says or what you say. I'm -- I'm going to be an attorney."

Notes: Lee mentions writing "Thank You" letters to her mother's sister and Uncle Fred in this episode.

MARCH 12, 1965 (EP. #214)
Pat called herself ignorant for telling Missy that her background wouldn't matter to a man who truly loves her. Missy was floored when Pat spoke sharply and with much fervor that she doesn't have to believe the testimony about Tom and clings to the memories of their relationship. Pat swore to Missy that the jury's verdict was wrong and ranted about being forced to recall the night of Tom's death and testifying in court. Pat stated she isn't going job hunting and has lost interest in finishing school when Alice tried to guess Pat's plans for the day. Alice figured that Pat was thinking of Tom when she casually mentioned a Master's degree in Psychology. Bill was troubled as Missy described being frightened that Pat believes she is guilty of murder and hasn't changed her mind about the type of man Tom was. Bill reasoned that Missy revealing that she caught Tom and Carol Pearson kissing wouldn't affect Pat since she refuses to acknowledge the truth. Bill explained the meaning of temporary insanity to Missy while they wondered whether a psychiatrist could help Pat. Missy had a premonition of Pat committing suicide by jumping off the campus bridge. John felt defeated when Pat stated that his efforts in getting her to face the past aren't working and insisted that she doesn't deserve help or friendship. Pat told John that she doesn't want to see him because her nightmare of babies crying has returned. John tried to encourage Pat to start creating a new life for herself. John was stunned as Pat tearfully confessed that she is haunted by the sight of Tom's dead body and that she still loves him, but can't accept that they will never be together again.

Pat: (to John) "Where will it be today? The Kopper Kettle at the table Tom and I used to sit? Or a picnic on the bridge where Tom and I used to go? Or just a pleasant leisurely walk -- past Tom's frat house -- or Tom's apartment? Or maybe we ought to take a drive across town to the house Tom took me to when I was pregnant -- to the place where we killed my baby."

Interesting crossed-out dialogue:
Pat: "....But now I know it'll never be over. I'll be on trial the rest of my life. If only they'd found me guilty!"
Missy: (SHOCKED) "You can't mean that, Pat!?"
Pat: (QUIETLY; SADLY) "Can't I? I've realized something, Missy. The jury in the courtroom may have found me not guilty -- because of a technicality -- because of temporary insanity -- whatever that means -- but there's another jury that doesn't agree with the verdict -- and never will."
Missy: "What other jury?"
Pat: (QUIETLY) "Me, Missy. I find Patricia Matthews guilty."

MARCH 15, 1965 (EP. #215)
John paced the floor restlessly while thinking of Pat's struggles to face her memories of Tom. Alice was startled awake when Pat screamed after having a nightmare of the shooting and being acquitted. John tried to shrug off Lee's worries about his tired appearance. Lee was hurt by John's cutting retort that she was nagging him about having a sleepless night and trying to dictate his work schedule. Alice confided in Mary about Pat's recurring nightmares and relayed Pat trembling after hearing baby cries in her sleep. Mary was grateful to Alice for keeping her abreast about Pat, but sadly admitted to feeling helpless. John candidly told Dru that he was wrong to doubt that his love for Pat and intentions are genuine and sincere. Dru tried to convince a guilt-ridden John that Pat taking the sodium pentothal test kept her from serving a jail sentence. John told Dru that Pat is right to associate him to the trial and Tom's death because he caused all of Pat's repressed memories to resurface. Dru understood when John explained that Pat is inviting punishment and is scared of the drastic measures she might take while out of his sight. John resigned to Dru's opinion that he was remiss for being against Pat seeking therapy. Dru advised John that Pat's rehabilitation is secondary to his true desire to be the person who saves her and that his approach is dangerous. Dru set aside his displeasure in talking behind John's back to honor Lee's request that he keep quiet about her visit. Lee vented to Dru that John has become absorbed, distracted, and short tempered lately. Dru tried to console Lee by complimenting the love and concern she has for John. Lee clinged tightly to Dru after accepting his suggestion to be forthright with John about her worries. Dru fretted about Lee after noticing the desperation and loneliness she exuded.

Lee: I thought you should have a hot cereal this morning."
John: "Oh, you did. May I ask why?"
Lee: (SHRUGGING) "It's good for you."
John: "I see. And eggs aren't good for me?"
John: "Someday, I'm going to rebel against your tyranny, you know. I'm liable to have you boiled in a bowl of hot cereal."

Mary: "Is anything the matter, Alice?"
Alice: "What? No."
Mary: "Are you sure, dear?"
Alice: "Of course I am. Why do you think anything is the matter?"
Mary: "Well, you're so quiet. Usually you've got so much energy at breakfast I'm ready to go back to bed when you leave."
Alice: "I can't go off like a firecracker every morning, Mom."

Production Notes: Tapes used for Pat's nightmares were a combination of November 6, 1964 and February 11, 1965, featuring Tom's shooting and the jury rendering their verdict. Announcement of NBC's comprehensive coverage of the Gemini-Titan 3 Spacecraft launch starting on Monday, March 22 accompanied Bill Wolff's closing. Possibly, it was to alert of potential interruptions to AW's regular broadcast on that day.

MARCH 16, 1965 (EP. #216)
Jim advocated for Mary to balance her wishes for Russ to earn better grades in school with not pushing their expectations onto him. Mary lamented to Jim on Pat's problems and that her feelings of relief and resolution after the trial were premature. Jim lovingly expressed pride in Mary for focusing on Pat's welfare and not the stigma of Pat's mistakes or opinions on their parenting. Mary discussed Pat's nightmares with Jim, who decided that John is an amateur in dealing with psychological issues. Pat rebuked Jim's arguments over returning to school by asserting that she would be disqualified from any teaching position because of her record. Jim implored Pat to reconcile with being acquitted of murder and to quit punishing herself for everything that happened. Pat complained that spending time with John was detrimental to her and vigorously protested Jim's suggestions that she begin therapy with Dr. Hubert. Jim was stricken that Pat still loves Tom and questions her own sanity. Lee dutifully retrieved John's slippers, pipe, and the evening newspaper in preparation for his arrival. Lee scrambled to hold John's attention by talking about various topics. John decided to speak with their housekeeper, Mrs. Weber after Lee mentioned that her work has suffered lately due to appearing ill. Pat flatly declined John's invitation and reiterated that she no longer wants to see him. Alice ruffled Pat's feathers by inquiring into her icy reception and dismissive attitude towards John and his attentions. Lee fought to hold back tears after John exploded at her for sounding precocious by calling him "John" instead of "Dad."

Mary: "He had a chance for a ride to school so he hurried and left early."
Jim: (SITTING AT THE TABLE) "That doesn't sound like Russ -- eager to get to school."
Mary: "I'm afraid it wasn't school that made him eager -- it was the car. One of his friends has a new -- hot rod, I guess. It'll probably arrive at school this morning with fifteen boys in it." (MARY BRINGS JIM'S BREAKFAST. HE IS SILENT, IN THOUGHT. SHE GLANCES AT HIM) "It bothers you, doesn't it, Jim?"
Jim: "What?"
Mary: "That Russ is such a poor student -- that he's so uninterested in school. You're disappointed, aren't you?"
Jim: "No. I don't have the right to be disappointed. After all, kids don't come with a written guarantee that they'll turn out the way we'd like them to."

John: "You were standing there staring. What's the matter? Did I put on the wrong tie again?"
Lee: "No. As a matter of fact I wasn't thinking anything critical at all. I was thinking what a good-looking man my father is. You know, if you hadn't wanted to go into the law, you could have been a movie star."
John: (HOLDING UP HIS MARTINI GLASS) "Have you been sampling this stuff?"
Lee: (PLEASED TO HAVE HIS ATTENTION) "Why? Just because I think my father is the best looking man I know, do I have to be drunk?"

John: "Maybe we ought to see about getting you glasses."
Lee: (LAUGHING AND PULLING UP A FOOTSTOOL TO SIT AT HER FATHER'S FEET) "My vision is perfect -- 20/20. And my taste in men isn't bad either."

Alice: "Boy. I've heard some boys get chilled in my time -- I've chilled a few pests myself -- but never like that! It'll take him a week to thaw out."
Pat: (TURNING, SHARPLY) "Nobody asked you to listen to my conversation."
Alice: "Pat, I'm alive. I live in this room too. I can't bury my head under the covers every time the phone rings."

Production Notes: Last episode to credit William Bell and Irna Phillips as Head Writers.

MARCH 17, 1965 (EP. #217)
Ken bitterly told Eric not to practice his powers of persuasion on Laura because of the grounds of divorce she offered to him. Eric was contrite towards Ken for the misunderstanding and disappointed in Laura for twisting an amicable solution into a revenge tactic. Ken professed his love for Janet to Eric, who hypothesized that Laura is fighting to salvage her marriage because Ken is the only family she has left. Janet was annoyed with Ken for interrupting her work to have a serious talk about their relationship. Ken accused Janet of denying her feelings and running away from the happiness they once shared. Janet was surprised when Ken impulsively called John to discuss the legal means to obtain a divorce from Laura. Dru informed John that Pat needs the advice of an objective, impartial psychologist, not help from a man who loves her. John resented Dru's concerns over Lee being adversely affected by his attentions to Pat and insisted that she's a healthy, independent girl. Dru shook his head in dismay and warned John that he refuses to acknowledge that his judgment is impaired because of getting involved with Pat. Ken felt spent after confessing to John that he is seeking grounds for a divorce without injury to any of the parties involved. John was up front with Ken on the difficulty of winning a divorce suit without sufficient grounds and lack of consent from Laura. Ken was deflated when John surmised that he would make the situation worse by trying to persuade Laura to cooperate because he was Pat's defense attorney. John recommended Dru to represent Ken in filing for divorce from Laura.

Production Notes: First episode to credit James Lipton as Head Writer.

MARCH 18, 1965 (EP. #218)
Laura thought of arguing with Ken and sulked about living alone whether she gets divorced or they remain married. Dru eased Ken's mind by stating that John let him know in advance the reason Ken wanted to meet with him. Ken candidly told Dru that Laura has legitimate grounds for divorce by adultery, that he pursued Janet into having an affair, but maintained that it was a symptom and not the cause of an unhappy marriage. Dru got Ken to admit that Laura loves him and does not want a divorce. Ken reflected to Dru that his feelings for Laura are an infinite collection of moments of love, anger, and affection and they share a bond of losing their two children, but struggled to define it as love. Dru urged Ken to take some time for introspection before they meet again to discuss the matter further. Janet agreed with Ken's sentiment that Dru is a remarkable man who is like a bulldog when it comes to the truth. Ken admitted to Janet that his determination in filing for divorce faded after Dru asked him questions that he was unable to answer. Janet warned Ken that his scheme to divorce Laura so that they can be together is in vain. Ken highlighted Janet seeking affection from a string of men and that their affair was based on love, despite Janet's protestations. Laura tried to fathom Ken's attitude when he claimed he wanted to spend time with her and not argue about her drinking or the grounds on which to start divorce proceedings. Ken contemplated Laura's significant role in his life and the feelings he has towards her underneath the anger. Laura decided not to question Ken's purpose for coming to the house and appreciate his presence.

Dru: "It's always better to get these things firsthand."
Ken: "Yes. That's not always too easy. Some things are -- are hard to talk about. To anyone."
Dru: "I know. We lawyers have something in common with doctors: we're party to people's very private thoughts. If it makes it any easier, we're used to hearing them -- and there's very little we haven't heard."

Notes: Debussy played during Act IV of this episode, which featured Ken and Laura. Dru mentions that he does some legal work from his home since retiring.

MARCH 19, 1965 (EP. #219)
Pat feared for her sanity after having more nightmares. Jim sadly told Mary that he was unsuccessful in encouraging Pat to return to school and see Dr. Hubert. Mary was deeply troubled while telling Jim that they cannot stand idly by and let another tragedy occur. Pat feigned enthusiasm when Alice mentioned her art instructor suggested she not restrict her focus to commercial art. Alice grew perplexed when Pat reiterated that she shouldn't be helped and warned Alice not to talk about her to Jim and Mary. Jim told Alice that they have failed as parents if their children cannot confide in them when Alice dodged questions about Pat. Alice admitted that Pat is having terrible nightmares, but felt guilty because she promised Pat that she wouldn't tell Jim and Mary. Jim mustered confidence in helping Pat to alleviate Alice's worries, then urged Mary to discuss seeing Dr. Hubert with Pat. Mary cheerfully brought breakfast to Pat in hopes of having a serious chat. Pat sharply stated that she outgrew childish games as Mary reminisced about Pat playing school with her dolls when she was a little girl. Mary felt helpless when Pat refused to resume her education and accused everyone of believing she is insane and needs psychiatric treatment. Pat told Mary that she is unworthy of love and demanded that she be left alone. John tried to persuade a perturbed Pat into taking a walk with him. Pat continued to resist John, who rationalized helping Pat face the memories that resurfaced because of the sodium pentothal test. John clenched his fists in frustration when Pat dashed off the porch to get away from John, which Mary observed from the window.

MARCH 22, 1965 (EP. #220)
Mary told Jim that she decided not to talk to John because he might have been embarrassed over being spurned by Pat. Jim and Mary fretted that Pat doesn't trust anyone and refuses to consider getting psychiatric help. Jim reminded Mary that they can't force Pat to see John or Dr. Hubert. Mary firmly but kindly convinced Pat to talk to Missy, who came to visit after taking a walk with Bill. Pat responded to Missy's worries by bitterly stating that she doesn't force anyone to endure her bouts of depression and self-loathing. Missy reaffirmed her friendship to Pat, who refused to believe Missy's contentions that her loved ones don't think any less of her. Pat tried to focus as Missy beamed about getting good grades in school and potentially attending college. Missy's voice faded into the background as Pat stared into space and suddenly had a vision of Tom's shooting. Pat frantically swore to Missy that she doesn't care about her own fate before abruptly ending the evening. Lee was troubled to catch John in a lie about taking a walk after finishing some last-minute business. John's mind drifted to Pat rejecting him on the Matthews' porch while Lee groused about taking Chemistry because she wants to be a lawyer, and boasted about her good grades and a football player showing off to impress her. Lee noticed that John wasn't paying attention and angrily accused him of turning into a stranger she doesn't recognize. John apologized profusely to Lee for losing his temper, but fibbed that he was frustrated over some legal matters. Lee asked John to tell her a bedtime story about her mother like he did when she was a little girl.

Notes: John reveals that he met Lee's mother, Lee Dwyer, when he was a junior in college. His roommate's family was visiting and he asked John to take his sister, Lee Dwyer, to a fraternity dance.

MARCH 23, 1965 (EP. #221)
Dru enjoyed his favorite pastime of playing chess with himself. Ken told Dru that he wants to proceed with divorce after spending an evening with Laura and giving the matter much consideration. Dru told Ken that he dislikes divorce cases because he strongly supports marriage and finds them very unpleasant. Ken told Dru that his marriage is loveless, but won't yield to Laura's vindictive tactics of a divorce suit based on adultery with Janet named as co-respondent. Dru suggested Ken reconsider staying with Laura since he was unwilling to face a potentially ugly and unsuccessful court battle. Ken was doubtful when Dru advocated building a friendship and mutual understanding with Laura so that divorce could become an amicable solution for them to move on with their separate lives. Dru cautioned Ken to be completely forthright with his intentions to Laura and make a genuine effort in seeing her socially. Laura pondered loving and hating Ken equally. Janet encouraged Ken to follow Dru's advice and suggested that she quit working at the agency to eliminate Laura's hostility because of their past affair. Ken told Janet that seeing her on a limited basis will keep him motivated in pursuing a divorce. Janet informed Ken that nothing will change her mind about their affair being in the past. Laura tried to muster defiance when Eric took her to task for the spiteful grounds of divorce she offered to Ken. Eric was appalled when Laura expressed deep hatred towards Janet and Pat and suggested she break the unhappy bond that she has with Ken. Laura confidently rejected Eric's advice after Ken called to arrange a dinner date.

Dru: "Oh. (HE LAUGHS) "You've discovered my secret vice. I'm a solitary chess player." (LOWERING HIS VOICE) "They're the worst kind. Incurable."
Ken: "You mean you play it alone? Against yourself?"
Dru: "Exactly. Like solitaire. Play against myself. Outwit myself. Yell at myself." (KEN SMILES) "John says it's taken the place in my life of the courtroom duels I used to love so much. Now that I'm retired I've got no one to pit myself against except me. Maybe he's right."

Production Notes: "Save this tape for future use."

MARCH 24, 1965 (EP. #222)
Ernest was pleased by Pat's physical recovery from surgery, but troubled that she hasn't made any plans and lives day by day. Pat grew distraught while telling Ernest that she was meant to die as punishment for getting an abortion and was allowed to kill Tom by surviving her illness. Ernest was alarmed as Pat ranted that her sterility was justified and complained that she has been saved every time she has done terrible things. Ernest convinced Janet to talk to Jim and Mary about keeping an eye on Pat and to make every effort to get Pat into psychiatric treatment. Janet found Ernest awkwardly professing that he is interested in dating endearing. Ernest understood immediately when Janet abruptly asked to leave the restaurant after spotting Ken and Laura. Ken reminded Laura that he doesn't give false compliments when she joked that he was being polite about her appearance. Laura grew weary and deflated as Ken admitted his mistakes, maintained that they should separate, but build friendship and not animosity between them. Ken told Laura that he would like to see her socially and partake in the things they have in common. Laura tried to mask her fears of ending up alone when Ken questioned whether they could become friends regardless of staying married or separating. Janet apologized for snapping at Ernest over assuming that she is still romantically involved with Ken. Ernest believed Janet's assurances that she doesn't have lingering feelings for Ken and asked to see her again. Janet didn't resist when Ernest gently kissed her on the cheek. Laura told herself that Ken will learn the error of his ways and return to her.

Ken: "I don't know, Laura. I only know I haven't been a husband to you for some time-not the husband you need, the husband you deserve."

Ken: "You've asked me if a friend can't be a husband. I'm asking if two people can't be friends whether they're husband and wife or not."

Notes: It appears that the Prologue of Laura declining a friend's invitation for dinner was cut from this episode.

MARCH 25, 1965 (EP. #223)
Jim persuaded a restless Mary to talk through her worries rather than bake to clear her head. Mary told Jim that she was frightened out of her wits when Janet relayed Ernest's assessment of Pat, but faces the conundrum of Pat objecting to them watching her closely. Jim decided to have an emergency consultation with Dr. Hubert. Dr. Hubert was satisfied that Jim filled him in sufficiently to form a professional opinion on Pat. Dr. Hubert informed Jim that Pat's reaction to killing Tom was a result of violating her decent nature and established belief system, which began with repressing her memories of the shooting. Jim grew agitated while telling Dr. Hubert that Pat may carry out the punishment the jury refused to inflict and is against psychiatric therapy. Dr. Hubert urged Jim to combine love and firmness to prevent Pat from creating a self-made imprisonment by ensuring that she is rarely alone. Jim was deeply disturbed as Dr. Hubert stressed the importance of freeing Pat from isolation. Dru enjoyed bantering with John over playing chess by himself. John detected traces of the "sly old fox" after Dru admitted that his advice to Ken will likely lead to a reconciliation. Dru propositioned John to prove he doesn't have qualms about revealing his love for Pat to her parents. Jim gave Mary sage advice on accepting the past and moving ahead with being firm with Pat. John was encouraged when Mary expressed gratitude for his efforts to keep Pat in contact with others. Jim and Mary respected Pat's wishes to change her rain-soaked clothes and go to bed. John was guilt-ridden when Jim and Mary mentioned his objectivity and backed out of confessing his feelings.

John: (about Ken) "What have you advised him to do?"
Dru: "See his wife, take her out to dinner, try to make friends with her again, try to reach the point where they can agree amicably on some future course."
John: "You mean divorce?" (DRU IS SILENT) "You may have retired from the law, Dru, but your hand hasn't completely lost its cunning. I still detect a touch of the sly old fox."
Dru: (RISING, MOVING BACK TO HIS GAME) "I don't know what you're talking about."
John: "I think you do. This plan of yours -- for Mr. Baxter and his wife to see each other, become friends. Do you really expect it to lead to divorce -- or are you perhaps thinking it might end in -- reconciliation?"
Dru: (WHO HAD APPARENTLY BEEN ENGROSSED IN HIS GAME AGAIN; LOOKING UP AT JOHN) "Isn't that the best possible result of any divorce action?"
John: (CU/JOHN; HE GRINS) "You'll never get rich in the law that way, Dru."
Dru: (INDICATING THE ROOM) "As you can see -- I didn't."

MARCH 26, 1965 (EP. #224)
Lee was disconsolate over John being too distracted to help her with an assignment on the government of Ancient Rome. John didn't pay attention to Lee's snide remarks to Dru about being a pest. John claimed that Pat coming home and her rudeness prevented him from professing his love for Pat to her parents, but advised Dru not to badger him about it. Dru grew impatient with John for stalling and refusing to listen to his warnings that he is all wrong for Pat. Mary raved to Jim about John being a kind and caring person, but was surprised that Jim didn't share her certainty that John is the right person to help Pat. Jim was reflective while telling Mary that she was grasping at straws because Pat refuses to spend any more time with John or see Dr. Hubert. Jim tried to encourage Pat to forgive herself for the abortion, shooting Tom, and to accept the jury's verdict. Pat insolently told Jim that she is haunted by every hideous moment leading to Tom's death because she was forced to take the sodium pentothal test. Pat ran upstairs to confront Alice after Mary accidentally mentioned her nightmares. Alice grew pale and frightened as Pat berated her for spying and reporting everything she does to Jim and Mary. Pat went into a hysterical rage and refused to share a bedroom with Alice any longer, prompting Jim to slap her hard. Jim held a sobbing Pat while softly assuring her that no one is trying to cause her harm. Pat relented after Jim ordered her to speak with John and accept his dinner invitation. Dru was puzzled when John boasted that Pat changed her mind about seeing him.

Dru: "Hello, Rosebud."
Lee: (SMILING) "You haven't called me that in a long time."
Dru: "You know why I called you Rosebud? Because of that." (HE POINTS AT HER MOUTH) "When you were six or seven it looked just like a rosebud. And felt like one too." (LEE PUTS HER ARMS AROUND HIM AND KISSES HIS CHEEK) "Well, what do you know! It still does!"

MARCH 29, 1965 (EP. #225)
Jim and Mary felt hopeful that taking Dr. Hubert's recommendation to be firm yet loving with Pat would be successful. Mary proudly informed Jim that she admired his courage for defending Alice against Pat's wrath. Jim and Mary made a pact to keep their handling of Pat from adversely affecting Alice and Russ. Alice needled Jim and Mary about being young, attractive, and romantic parents after catching them necking in the kitchen. Jim and Mary were impressed by Alice's mature outlook on Pat being her harshest critic and not taking Pat's mercurial episodes personally. Pat apologized to Jim, Mary, and Alice, then shocked them by stating she is unworthy of living. Lee was exasperated by John's choice of dress clothes and had him change so he wouldn't look like a square, which struck a chord with John. Lee became thoughtful after John fibbed that he was having dinner with Pat to take care of some unfinished business. Jim and Mary joked about wasted time being a grievance to accountants and men waiting for women to get dressed while John waited for Pat. John squirmed a bit when Jim and Mary reiterated their gratitude towards helping Pat through her trauma. Alice enthusiastically invited John to a student exhibit at the Institute. John was mesmerized as Pat came downstairs looking fragile and beautiful. Alice thought it a pity when Mary insisted that John isn't taking Pat out because of romantic interest. Pat remained polite but impassive as John spoke highly of her family and said that she is someone who is interesting and worthwhile. John was ecstatic once Pat agreed to dance with him, until she revealed that Jim made her go out with him.

Alice (VOICE, OFF-SCREEN) "Excuse me. I didn't realize I'd find my parents necking in the kitchen. Really." (THEY TURN. CUT TO: MS/ALICE, POV/JIM AND MARY, LEANING IN THE DOORWAY TO THE KITCHEN, GRINNING AT THEM)
Mary: (AMUSED, A LITTLE EMBARRASSED TOO) "Alice, don't be ridiculous. Come in and have your breakfast."
Jim: (GRINNING AT HER) "And kindly have the decency not to poke fun at your parents. We're not quite decrepit, you know."
Alice: "Decrepit! You should hear the way I brag to the kids at school about how young and attractive and romantic my parents are."
Mary: "Let's not overdo it."
Alice: "I tell them it's like having Rock Hudson and Sophia Loren in the house."
Mary: (STOPPING, AGHAST) "Alice, you don't!"
Jim: (ROARING WITH LAUGHTER) "Mary, when are you going to stop biting at every piece of bait these children give you."

(JOHN PICKS UP A CUFF LINK, TRIES TO GET IT IN, FAILS) Lee: "Oh, Dad, you're helpless. What on earth did you do before you had Mom and me?" (SHE HAS TAKEN THE CUFF LINK AND PUTS IT IN)
John: "Well, I had my mother."
Lee: "That's your problem. Babied by women all your life. You're spoiled." (SHE IS PUTTING IN THE OTHER CUFF LINK)
John: "I didn't ask you to come in here and butt in. You're free to leave the room at any time, you know."
Lee: "Somebody's got to be responsible for getting you out in one piece. You're liable to walk out of here in..." (SHE STOPS, THEN, EXASPERATED) " THAT tie!"
John: (LOOKING DOWN) "What's the matter with it?"
Lee: "Do you intend to wear the jacket to those pants?"
John: "Of course."
Lee: "A brown tie with a blue suit?"
John: (LOOKING AT THE TIE) "It's not brown, it -- it's sort of a rust."
Lee: "It's going off, that's what it is...."

MARCH 30, 1965 (EP. #226)
Pat questioned John's determination despite knowing that she openly dislikes his company. John took responsibility for compounding Pat's pain by causing her repressed memories to resurface and explained that he wants to undo her turmoil. Pat felt vulnerable when John requested that she stop fighting his efforts. Dru knew that Lee had an agenda for wanting to come over besides needing help with her schoolwork. Lee failed to mask her discontent over John's continued presence in Pat's life from a perceptive Dru. Dru disclosed knowing that Lee was doodling and not taking notes on Roman law, prompting Lee to confess that she was lonely and wanted company. Lee told Dru that she dislikes Pat and resents John's efforts to assuage her depression over the mistakes she made. Pat maintained her temper despite being annoyed by Alice, who excitedly asked for every detail about her evening with John. Alice was incredulous towards Pat's ambivalent attitude towards John and wished a mature, distinguished older man like John would take an interest in her. Pat was livid while trying to escape the memories of John, Tom, and the jury pronouncing their verdict. John deflected Lee's questions about whether his unfinished business with Pat had been completed. Lee was disappointed that John's enthusiasm didn't match hers over securing the role of Puck in the senior class production of "A Midsummer Night's Dream." Dru backed off when John bluntly proclaimed that Lee is his responsibility and that he's capable of handling problems she might be having. Dru feared that John might destroy Lee and Pat's lives.

Alice: "I wish he'd ask me once."
Pat: "So do I, Alice, believe me."
Alice: "If Dad hadn't made you say yes to Mr. Randolph, would you have refused to go out with him?"
Pat: "You heard me. I already had."
Alice: "But isn't he interesting to be with? He's so mature and -- intense." (SHE REFLECTS) "I wonder if there's something wrong with me. I think I've got a real thing about older men."
Pat: "What about Mark and Freddie?"
Alice: "Oh, I like them. They're good friends and all. But when I see a really distinguished man like Mr. Randolph -- zowie! -- all the rest of them look like dull, dreary children." (WITH A SIGH) "But I'm sure Mr. Randolph thinks of me as a dull child." (WITH MOCK GRAVITY) "It's my fate. Too old for boys and too young for genuine men." (SHE FALLS BACK IN THE BED)
Pat: "Are you ready to go to sleep?"

MARCH 31, 1965 (EP. #227)
Laura admonished Eric for displaying false modesty over his looks and temperament towards his weight in a joking manner. Eric approved of Ken's tactics of becoming friends with Laura and was pleased that she was in good spirits. Laura told Eric that Ken is a proud man who doesn't easily admit mistakes. Eric advised Laura that Ken and Janet are equally responsible for his infidelity when she made insinuations that Janet proactively worked to ruin their marriage. Laura happily told Eric that Ken acted like a husband during dinner, shared quality time at the house, and felt positive that they will reconcile. Ken informed Janet that he wasn't deceitful with Laura about wanting a divorce, but enjoyed an evening free from arguments and recriminations. Janet protested Ken falsely believing that they had a meaningful love affair or that she would ever marry him. Ken persisted in telling Janet that she should have the same faith in marriage being a possibility that she has for Pat. Ernest became rigid upon finding Ken at Janet's apartment. Janet insisted on providing Ernest with an explanation for Ken's presence for fear that he made the wrong impression. Ernest trusted Janet's assurances that she is finished with Ken. Janet grew upset when Ernest suspected that Ken still wants to be with her. Ernest flattered Janet with his patience, understanding, and interest in going on another date. Ken angrily accused Janet of pushing him out of her life and embarking on an affair with Ernest to avoid the possibility of a long-term relationship with him. Janet spitefully hinted to Ken that Ernest may inspire her to settle down and demanded that Ken leave immediately.

APRIL 1, 1965 (EP. #228)
Janet ecstatically accepted the water-color painting that Alice gifted her, praised its artistry, and planned to frame it on her wall at home. Alice sadly told Janet that Pat has become a completely different person and her mentality and volatile behavior hasn't improved. Ken was offended by Janet's obvious attempt to avoid being alone with him by asking Alice to stay longer. Janet mocked Ken for having an inflated ego by thinking she is seeing Ernest on the rebound and acting like he is an infallible expert on her feelings. Ken was undeterred despite Janet's assertions that she no longer considers him a significant part of her life. Janet asked Ken to stop rehashing the same arguments once he apologized for intruding on her evening with Ernest. Ken informed Janet that Laura is starting to think more realistically, pleaded for time to obtain a divorce, and didn't have qualms over competing with Ernest for Janet's affections. Ernest praised the beef in Burgundy Janet cooked for dinner. Janet grew wistful when Ernest complimented her on being an elegant, sophisticated woman with an equally attractive domestic side. Laura prepared a romantic dinner for Ken with wine, a floral arrangement, and classical music playing in the background. Ken grew uncomfortable as Laura inched closer to him and seductively commended him for staying in excellent shape. Laura asked Ken to enjoy the evening to prevent him from bringing up traveling to begin divorce proceedings. Ernest ended the evening with Janet early because of having surgery in the morning. Janet became frightened by Ernest's passionate embrace and kiss and abruptly asked him to leave.

Janet: (TURNING TO HIM, TAUT) "What do I have to do to prove it?"
Ken: "That's exactly what I think you are doing -- trying to prove you don't care about me by getting involved with Dr. Gregory."
Janet: (FIGHTING FOR CONTROL) "We're back where we started."
Ken: "We don't have to be, Janet. I'm going to see Laura again tonight. I think she's beginning to see things less emotionally -- more realistically. Don't do anything foolish, Janet -- before I'm free. I'm not afraid of competing with Ernest Gregory -- but on even terms -- and they won't be even until I have my divorce. Just give me that. We at least owe that to each other."

Notes: Music that played during Ken and Laura's dinner scenes may have included Rachmaninoff, Grieg, "How Beautiful is the Night," and "Invitation Waltz."

APRIL 2, 1965: Pre-empted for News Coverage of Vietnam War.

APRIL 5, 1965 (EP. #229)
Missy mentioned attending high school to Rusty, her former coworker at the Kopper Kettle. Lee's interest piqued when Missy told Rusty that she is close friends with Pat. Missy defended Pat against Rusty's contemptuous remarks that Pat's actions belied her decent reputation and was acquitted on a technicality. Lee and Missy realized that they are both seniors at the same high school. Lee talked about wanting to attend law school and was impressed that Missy wanted to help people by becoming a social worker. Missy frowned as Lee pointed out that Pat made poor choices and admitted to disliking her. Liz feigned joking to Missy that she lured Bill into coming to dinner by including Missy because he has rarely been home because of school. Bill kept Missy from unknowingly accepting a cordial that Liz offered to drink. Liz praised Missy for accepting Bill's loan and encouraged her to focus on school and not paying him back, which made Missy squirm and annoyed Bill. Missy hastily mentioned Rusty and Lee bad-mouthing Pat to Bill and Liz. Bill angrily gazed at Liz as he was leaving to drive Missy home. Mary deemed herself insensitive by complaining about Jim getting home late because Liz hasn't adjusted to being a widow. Liz lamented to Mary about occasionally getting letters from Susan and inviting Missy so that Bill would come to have dinner. Mary was stunned when Liz implicated Lee in saying unflattering things about Pat. John reminded Pat that time makes memories fade and heals wounds as they danced on a terrace. Pat was disgusted when John was struck by her vulnerability, wrapped his arms around her, and kissed her passionately.

Missy: "You were very nice to invite me to dinner."
Liz: "Well -- it gave me a chance to see Bill, too. He's home so seldom these days, that I thought I'd lure him to dinner with a young lady, since I don't seem to be attraction enough to keep him home." (SHE SMILES AT HER PLEASANTLY)
Bill: "Oh, that's not true, Mother. You know I don't need any special lure to spend an evening with you. I've just been completely snowed under at school."
Liz: "I understand, dear. Don't pay any attention to me." (TO MISSY) "I can't bear demanding mothers and every once in a while I catch myself sounding like one and I could kick myself."

Mary: (WITH A FAINT SMILE) "Have you forgotten what time of year this is, Liz?"
Liz: "Oh, of course. It's income tax time. I remember when Will was living, he used to come home late at this time of year and curse the day he decided to go into accounting."
Mary: "Jim did too. He still does. He hasn't been home before midnight once this week."

APRIL 6, 1965 (EP. #230)
Pat hailed a taxi to get away from John, who followed close behind in his car. John winced at Pat's harsh accusations that he took advantage of her vulnerability and stated that his kiss was lustful and unpleasant. Pat was gradually diffused as John explained that his kiss came from the desire to provide her with warmth and comfort, but shook her head in confusion when John asserted that he genuinely respects and cares about her. John vowed to prove to a skeptical Pat that she is a worthwhile person with a life to live. Pat emphatically informed John that she will never accept his kisses or allow herself to fall in love with him or any man. Lee tried unsuccessfully to finish her homework and watch the television game show, "Tell A Lie!" while waiting for John to get home. Dru persisted in probing Lee on the source of her sour mood, despite Lee evading his questions. Lee was touched by Dru's efforts to alleviate her loneliness by bringing his portable chess set. John was perturbed by Dru's acerbic comment about him getting home late due to working hard. Dru watched John, who frowned as Lee mentioned her conversation with Missy about Pat and tried to discourage Lee from building a friendship with her because she dislikes Pat. John caught an angry glare from Dru, who accused him of being transparent in objecting to Lee befriending Pat's best friend. Dru blamed John for causing Lee's loneliness by neglecting her while placing too much importance on helping Pat. Alice was wide-eyed as Pat savagely declared that all men are filthy, rotten, and only after sex like Tom. Pat was stunned when Alice pointed out the gravity of her statement about Tom.

John: "...You're a healthy, normal girl. You'll want to be close to someone again. If not me, another man. Pat you will."
Pat: (EMPHATICALLY, SHAKING HER HEAD) "No, Mr. Randolph. If you say that, you don't know me at all. I loved a man -- very much -- and you saw what happened. I killed his child and then I killed him. That's love, Mr. Randolph. That's what it means to me."
John: "It doesn't have to be like that, Pat."
Pat: "It won't be -- because it'll never happen again. You know what love is to me now, Mr. Randolph? A dirty word." (CU/JOHN, HE STARES AT HER, COMPASSIONATE, HELPLESS, IN LOVE).

Notes: Lee plays "Someone To Watch Over Me," sung by Lena Horne at the beginning of Act II. The song also played during Act IV as John sat in the dark and Alice watched Pat getting ready for bed, which were moments without dialogue.

APRIL 7, 1965 (EP. #231)
Jim approved of Alice going over to Janet's apartment, much to Mary's chagrin. Mary told Jim that Janet is not a good influence on young, impressionable girls like Pat and Alice because she is too casual with men. Jim explained to Mary that he defends Janet because of sincere affection and admiration for building a successful life alone and not simply due to Janet being his sister. Jim advised Mary that she should not resent Janet for getting Pat hospitalized or consider Liz's opinion on Janet to be objective and reasonable. Mary confessed to Jim that Liz seemed to relish telling her about Lee badmouthing Pat under the pretense of genuine concern for the family. Bill accused Liz of being uncharitable when Liz carped about Pat following in Janet's footsteps and her actions reflecting badly on the family. Liz made Bill's temper flare when she cited Missy being inarticulate for causing her to believe that Lee was maligning Pat. Bill took Liz to task for making Missy uneasy by bringing up his loan, but became contrite when Liz acted hurt, cried crocodile tears, and professed innocence. Liz informed Bill that Janet has meddled in Pat, Alice, and Susan's lives and swore that she will never grow to like Janet. Alice told Janet that Pat may have developed an intense hatred towards men and changed her mind about Tom. Ernest apologized when Janet revealed that she dislikes when men drop by unannounced while her nieces are present. Janet grumbled about Ernest sounding like Ken by telling her that she deserves love and kissing her felt right. Ernest was undaunted by Janet's desperate pleas not to allow a romance to develop between them.

Jim: (RISING AND MOVING TO MARY) "Janet's not a loose woman, Mary."
Mary: "I didn't say that."
Jim: (INTERRUPTING) "No, wait. You said I defend Janet because she's my sister, but that's not so. I defend her because I genuinely like her -- and admire her for many things. Janet hasn't had an easy life. She's had to do everything alone -- and, in many ways, I don't think she's done badly."
Mary: "I don't deny that, Jim, but I can't pretend I like the girls going over there. If Pat hadn't gone there when she was sick after the -- the abortion, so many things might have been different."
Jim: (SITTING NEXT TO HER AND TAKING HER HAND) "Ah! Now, we're getting to it. You still resent the fact that Pat went to Janet instead of us, don't you." (SHE IS SILENT) "It's true, Mary. You do. You're wrong to feel that way. Janet did the best she could. She may have saved Pat's life."
Mary: (RISING, UNCOMFORTABLE) "I know, but -- well, Liz feels exactly the same way I do about Janet."
Jim: "Are you going to hold Liz up to me as an example of a generous forgiving spirit?" (CU/MARY; SHE LOOKS AT HIM, HER ATTITUDE CHANGES)
Mary: "No, Jim, I'm certainly not. I can't tell you how much I resented her attitude the other night -- when she came over here to tell me that Mr. Randolph's daughter was saying unkind things about Pat. Liz relished the whole thing, Jim."
Jim: "Are you sure of that, Mary? I know you still have very strong feelings about Liz because of -- because of the past, but perhaps they color your judgment a bit."

APRIL 8, 1965 (EP. #232)
Ken angered Janet by choosing to trust her judgment and sense of design rather than critique her proofs. Janet accused Ken of making it impossible for them to work together by refusing to let her forget that they were once romantically involved. Ken told Janet that he respected her wishes by not talking about their past and assumed that she feels pressured by Ernest's pursuit. Janet's voice trembled while denying that she and Ken shared anything meaningful and warned him that he may succeed in pushing her towards Ernest. Ken told Dru that Laura misinterpreted his purpose of building a friendship as courting and the beginning of a romantic reconciliation. Dru urged Ken to understand that Laura faces the terrifying prospect of living the rest of her life alone, but may realize that their marriage cannot be salvaged in time. Ken resigned to Dru's opinion that an amicable divorce from Laura may not be possible. Dru suggested Ken consult with a lawyer who is less adamant about making marriages work. Ernest appreciated Janet's frankness over wanting to go straight home after a bad day rather than accept his dinner invitation. Janet became weary when Ernest questioned whether Ken is the reason for her aversion to new relationships. Ken barged into Janet's office and insisted on speaking with her, prompting Janet to state that she and Ernest were leaving to have dinner. Ken grew tense as Laura convinced him to have a nightcap with her, then tried to persuade him into spending the night in the guest room. Laura lashed out at Ken for rejecting her acts of seduction. Janet responded to Ernest's embrace and kisses and invited him into her apartment.

APRIL 9, 1965 (EP. #233)
Missy stiffened when Bill disbelieved her claim that she enjoyed their dinner with Liz and doesn't know proper etiquette in social settings. Bill told Missy that he hopes she feels welcome in his house and that she and Liz bond. Missy felt remorse when Bill mentioned Liz telling Mary that Lee spoke badly of Pat. Rusty filled Rose, the cook at the Kopper Kettle, in on Pat's dubious notoriety, then pretended to work while eavesdropping on Missy and Pat. Pat wasn't angry with Missy for telling Liz that Lee was gossiping about her. Missy left for class after finding the awkward silence between John and Pat unbearable. Rusty recognized John and quickly ordered him coffee so she could listen to their conversation. John was bewildered when Pat stated that his kiss motivated her to face the past. Pat casually told John that all men are after sex, that she doesn't deserve respect, and the verdict involved the jury being without a punishment to fit the crime. John was horrified as Pat likened herself to a side-show attraction and sarcastically brought up Lee's unfavorable opinion of her. Mary informed Liz that she and Jim have been taking a firm approach with Pat. John chastised himself for causing Pat's self-hatred to deepen. Liz assumed a concerned, helpful tone while suggesting to Mary that Pat be sent to Europe to be spared of people pointing and gossiping about her and to allow people to forget everything that happened. Pat was wounded after overhearing Liz's proposition. Mary frantically tried to comfort Pat, who stormed out after screaming that the family shouldn't suffer because of her and that she belongs in a place suitable for cheap, destructive people.

Liz: " name is Matthews too, Mary. I have two children. We're all affected by anything that affects you. We can't ignore it." (CU/MARY; SHE LOOKS AT LIZ WEARILY, MOVES TOWARDS HER)
Mary: "What do you mean you're affected by what happens to us?"
Mary: "You mean you don't like the talk about Pat because it reflects on you?"
Liz: (UNEASY) "Well, it reflects on all of us. But I'd be selfish if I were only worried about my family." (SHE RISES, TAKING THE OFFENSIVE) "I was thinking primarily of Pat, of course -- of what torture it must be for her these days -- but I do think there is something Pat might do now that would help her. That's why I came over today. I thought that it might not have occurred to you and Jim."
Mary: "What might not have occurred to us?"
Liz: (WARMLY, HELPFULLY) "The possibility of Pat's going away for a while -- to someplace where people don't know her. I think if you consider it from Patricia's viewpoint, you'll realize that it would be a very wise thing to do. And it would give everybody here a chance to forget what happened."
Liz: "I'm not suggesting that Patricia go away permanently, Mary -- or even for a long time. Perhaps a month would be enough for people to forget, so we could --" (SHE CATCHES HERSELF, CORRECTS HERSELF QUICKLY) "-- so she could walk in the streets again without people pointing at her. People have very short memories, Mary, but if they're constantly reminded by seeing Patricia, they won't forget quickly. She's never been to Europe and she doesn't want to go back to school now, this might be the perfect time for her to go. It would be a wonderful experience for her -- think of all she'd learn. And I'm sure Jim can afford it. If he can't at the moment, I'd be glad to help...."
Pat: "You don't have to pay to get rid of me, Aunt Liz! I'll go -- gladly!"
Mary: (ASHEN) "Pat..."
Pat: "No, she's right! Why should you have to suffer because of me!? You haven't done anything wrong -- any of you. You're decent. You're decent -- and I'm not."
Mary: (GOING TO HER AND SEIZING HER ARMS) "That's not so, Pat!"
Pat: (ALL THE BITTERNESS AND HURT POURING OUT IN A FLOOD) "It is! It is! I know I don't belong here. I don't know where I belong. God, there must be someplace for people as cheap and -- poisonous as I am. I'll find it -- I'll find it -- and then you can walk in the streets and nobody'll point at you -- because they'll have forgotten I ever existed -- and they'll be right!!" (SHE TURNS AND DASHES OUT THE DOOR; MARY RUNS FRANTICALLY AFTER HER)
Mary: "Pat! Pat!!"

APRIL 12, 1965 (EP. #234)
Mary was breathless from desperately trying to catch up to Pat, who sped away in her car. Liz tried to calm Mary by dismissing Pat's comments as empty threats and called Jim because Mary's hands were shaking uncontrollably. Jim left work after Mary revealed that Pat said frightening things, drove away in a hurry, and feared that Pat may compromise her own safety. Liz had Mary sit down and expressed certainty that Pat would return home after working through her hurt and anger. Lee danced gleefully from beating Dru at chess when she tricked him into believing she made a bad move with her knight. Dru joked to Lee that his battered ego couldn't withstand a rematch, but realize he went too far by making a wisecrack over John getting peeved at her sometimes. Lee told Dru that she remains tolerant of John being reserved, distant, and pre-occupied because of her unconditional love for her father. Dru felt trapped when Lee inquired into John getting upset over her befriending Missy. Jim was unsatisfied by Mary's disjointed recollection of Pat becoming irate and running away. Liz insisted to Jim that Pat misinterpreted the conversation as the family deeming her an embarrassment and wanting to get rid of her. Jim decided to phone the police in hopes of discovering Pat's whereabouts. Lee's ebullience was crushed once she arrived home and noticed that John was fighting to control his temper. John lectured Lee over speaking badly of Pat to Missy while in public. Lee blanched when John had her call the Matthews to apologize directly to Pat. John ignored Lee's apologies and rushed over to see Jim and Mary after learning of Pat's disappearance.

Lee: "No, Uncle Dru. If we're going to play chess we have to play by the rules. I don't want to be excused from them. How will I ever learn if I don't make mistakes?"
Dru: (WITH A SIGH) "All right, Rosebud. I know there's no use arguing with you on a question of principle. Go ahead and make your mistake."
Lee: "Checkmate!"
Dru: (STUNNED) "What?"
Lee: (JUMPING UP AND DANCING AROUND IN GLEE) "Checkmate! Checkmate! I beat you! I beat you! The first time!"
Dru: (HIS EYES GLUED TO THE BOARD) "Now, wait a minute, wait a minute."
Lee: "Study it all you want! You can't get out of it. When you took my bishop with your knight I moved my queen and you're checkmated. The game is over and I've won."
Dru: (LOOKS AT LEE, A SMILE APPEARING ON HIS FACE) "You're quite right. You have won. You completely took me in with all that nonsense about making mistakes. And you knew what you were doing all the time."
Lee: "I certainly did!"
Dru: (SHAKING HIS HEAD) "You beat me with the oldest trick in the world. You little vixen, you!"
Lee: (GLEEFULLY) "That exactly what I am! Isn't a vixen a lady fox?"
Dru: "That's right."
Lee: "Then why shouldn't I be one? I learned my chess from the sly old fox, didn't I?"

APRIL 13, 1965 (EP. #235)
Jim, Mary, and Liz explained the circumstances that led to Pat running away to John, who realized that the incident happened shortly after he brought Pat home. John methodically told Jim and Mary about finding Pat with Missy at the Kopper Kettle, having coffee with Pat, and the waitress disparaging her. Mary and Liz blamed themselves for causing Pat to misunderstand their conversation. John echoed Liz's assumption that Pat will return after letting off some steam. Sergeant Healy of the Missing Persons Bureau questioned Jim and Mary and urged them to list the possible places where she might be. Liz claimed that she asked whether Pat's disappearance will be in the papers because it might lead to tips on her whereabouts when Jim became annoyed by her question. Jim promised to keep John abreast on the police investigation. John reasoned that it would have upset Jim and Mary unnecessarily if he had told them the terrible things that Pat said about herself. Ernest and Janet were affectionate towards each other while he complimented Janet's culinary skills. Janet faltered when Ernest stated that he won't delude himself into thinking that she is over Ken, but is willing to pursue Janet even with strings attached. Ernest surprised Janet by crediting Ken for pushing her into accepting dates with him. Janet grew pale after Sgt. Healy checked to see whether Pat had come to her apartment. Alice recalled that Pat's mood seemed to have improved for a few days and was troubled by her leaving so abruptly. Lee was astonished to hear about Pat's disappearance from John. Jim and Mary were tense while waiting for news from Sgt. Healy.

Notes: Jim revealed that Pat drives a 1962 Red Hillman with a license plate of RO-1918.

APRIL 14, 1965 (EP. #236)
Mary told Russ and Alice to do their homework upstairs to keep them occupied. Jim tried to keep his composure after hearing from Sgt. Healy that Pat's car was found abandoned in Bedfordtown near the docks with the keys in the ignition, there was no trace of Pat, and the police are dragging the river. Liz wailed to Bill that Jim and Mary made an unnecessary fuss by calling the police after Pat ran away. Liz took the offensive and told Bill that she suggested to Mary that Pat would benefit by traveling to Europe and that she offered to finance the trip with only the best of intentions. Bill berated Liz over punishing Pat for embarrassing the family and trying to send her away. Liz accused Bill of choosing to lend Missy support while ignoring her emotional needs as Bill stormed out. Bill told Missy that Pat ran away and that the police are searching for her. Missy told Bill that she asked Pat for forgiveness for telling Liz about Lee's gossip. Bill tried unsuccessfully to place the blame on Liz to Missy, who spoke regretfully about subjecting Pat to Rusty's acerbic remarks at the Kopper Kettle. Missy persuaded Bill to drive her to see Jim and Mary so that she could tell them about her talk with Pat. Alice recalled Pat assessing all men as rotten and filthy. Russ asked Alice to help him study modern English poetry and write an essay on T.S. Elliot. Alice tried to hide her tears from Russ, who spoke ruefully of horrible things happening to Pat despite being a sweet, decent person. Jim and Mary compassionately told Missy that they knew about her meeting with Pat, but don't believe she is responsible for Pat's departure. Jim was haunted by Sgt. Healy's phone call.

Bill: "I think it was -- cruel and inhuman."
Liz: (STUNNED) "What?"
Bill: "That girl has had every reason to feel like a hunted animal! You know that as well as anyone else. Missy told you what people have been saying about Pat -- even Mr. Randolph's daughter. You were impressed enough to go and tell Aunt Mary."
Liz: "That's exactly the point..."
Bill: (GOING ON) "You're right it is. Knowing that, how could you say a thing like that in Pat's house?! No wonder she thought you were trying to get rid of her! Doesn't she feel ashamed enough without thinking her own family wants to -- sweep her out of sight?!"
Liz: "My only thought was of Patricia!"
Bill: "Your only thought was of yourself!!" (CU/LIZ, STAGGERED) "Of yourself -- and the publicity -- and the newspapers -- and the damage to the precious Matthews name!"

Notes: Appearance by Joey Trent as Russ Matthews.

APRIL 15, 1965 (EP. #237)
Sgt. Healy informed Ernest that Pat's disappearance has become an emergency because of the trauma that Pat has endured and being missing for over twenty-four hours. Ernest advised Sgt. Healy that Pat was in fine physical condition during a post-operative checkup, but was severely mentally disturbed with signs of suicidal ideation and urged the Matthews to get Pat into treatment. Sgt. Healy told Ernest that Pat's body wasn't located in the river, which has a strong current that can carry objects vast distances. Ken was resolute in confronting Janet about dating Ernest and resuming their relationship. Janet grew agitated as Ken dwelled on her repeating patterns to avoid serious relationship and being destructive by getting involved with Ernest. Ken softened towards Janet upon hearing about Pat's disappearance. Janet cried while clinging to Ken, who held her tightly and stroked her hair to console her. Eric declined Laura's offer to have a cocktail after diagnosing her with a slight cold. Laura belittled herself over pleading with people to keep her company and failing to seduce Ken, which Eric observed with pity and compassion in his eyes. Eric felt conflicted as Laura mentioned having dinners with Ken on several occasions and expressed growing confidence that Ken will return to her. Laura emphatically told Ken that Eric was present for a physical examination and that she has absolutely no romantic interest in other men. Ken informed Laura about Pat's disappearance and that the police fear she may have committed suicide. Laura cruelly opined Pat's death would be justice for Tom and that she shed all her tears over the loss of her children and Ken.

Ken: "Janet, I want to talk to you."
Janet: (RISING, READY TO EXPLODE) "Oh, no, Ken!"
Ken: "I know you don't want to talk about it. You've been avoiding me for days, but I'm not going to let things just drift until it's too late."
Janet: (FIGHTING FOR CONTROL) "Ken -- I do not want to talk about this now."
Ken: "When do you want to talk about it, Janet?! If I wait for that, I'll wait forever. I know that you were annoyed at me when I came in here the other day and found Ernest Gregory with you..."
Janet: "I was annoyed!"
Ken: "All right, I was annoyed too. There's no rule in the game of love that says I have to like my rivals."
Janet: "!"

Laura: "I'll never give him a divorce, Eric. Unless..."
Eric: "Unless what?"
Laura: (THERE IS ALMOST PLEASURE IN HER VOICE) "Unless he's willing to have a divorce that will tell the world what an alley-cat Janet Matthews is."

APRIL 16, 1965 (EP. #238)
Sgt. Healy sympathized with Jim and Mary while telling them that Bedfordtown is a suitable place for people to hide and difficult for searches because it is very crowded and seedy. Mary was inconsolable after Jim and Sgt. Healy accidentally brought up the police dragging the river, despite the good fortune of not finding Pat's body. Ernest chose to keep Janet company and give her moral support instead of having dinner alone. Janet commended Ernest for having a gentle nature, making direct eye contact, and being compassionate and honest in his approach. Ernest listened as Janet revealed that she freely cried in Ken's arms over Pat and admitted that she may not be over Ken. Janet was relieved when Ernest accepted her confession and remained interested in dating. Ernest grew deeply pensive after Janet recalled Pat's comment about men wanting sex and worried that Pat fled because John made sexual advances towards her. Dru suspected that John drove around aimlessly looking for Pat out of guilt and something besides Pat facing the aftermath of a widely publicized trial caused her to run away. Dru surmised that Pat links intimate acts such as John's kiss to her ordeals with Tom. John told Dru that he shares Pat's guilt over killing the man she loved because he may have done the same thing to Pat. Lee felt struck by a bullet when a fatigued John blew a fuse over Lee's incessant questions about him searching for Pat and took her to task for disparaging Pat in public. Jim told Mary that he was meeting Sgt. Healy, but couldn't bring himself to reveal that it was taking place at the morgue.

Sgt. Healy: (about Bedfordtown) "Well, it's part lofts and warehouses and wharfs, and then the rest of it's all those narrow, twisted streets still left from when it was the oldest part of town. It's very crowded, full of derelicts down by the wharves and beatniks and bohemians in the old part of town. If somebody wanted to hide out for a while, they couldn't pick a better place."

APRIL 19, 1965 (EP. #239)
Mary and Alice were elated by the false beliefs that Jim was seeing Sgt. Healy because the police may have found Pat. Jim felt relief telling the morgue attendant that the deceased young woman only bore a resemblance to Pat. Mary and Alice were disappointed when Jim arrived home without Pat. Mary sobbed bitterly once Jim revealed the true reason for meeting Sgt. Healy. Jim called Dr. Bradford when Mary became hysterical and ranted that the police have abandoned their search and believe that Pat is dead. Janet asked to see Jim privately to discuss Pat's suicidal tendencies without Mary being present. Jim clenched his fists as Janet raised the theory that Pat's generalization about men was a reaction to John's attempt to make love to her. Janet told Jim that Pat has realized Tom's true nature and may become afraid of men or treat herself in the cheap and contemptuous way she views them. Jim recalled that Pat's words supported Janet's hypotheses. Lee was genuinely sympathetic to Jim, but felt guilty while sensing his anger. Jim was diffused by Lee's sincere remorse and promise to apologize to Pat. Jim refrained from confronting John after seeing his haggard, exhausted appearance. Mary fussed about Dr. Bradford giving her a sedative to sleep which made her unavailable for calls from the police. Liz was pleased with herself after asserting to Mary that Pat left to scare and punish them. Mary was furious when Liz unwisely stated that Pat would apologize for everything that she has done. Liz was appalled when Mary blamed her for driving Pat away and voiced regret for not ordering her to leave once she started talking about Pat.

Liz: "Don't forget I'm a mother too, Mary, and I know what it is to worry about a child. But I also know that children very often do things just to scare us -- to punish us -- and that's what I think Patricia is doing. I grant you it's gone on longer than it should have, but I tell you I'm still convinced that this is going to end with Patricia walking in that door and saying, 'Mom, and Dad, I'm sorry for everything I've done.'" (SHE IS SMILING, PLEASED WITH HAVING MADE HER POINT)
Mary: "What do you mean - 'everything she's done.'" (CU/LIZ, THE SMILE FADES AT MARY'S TONE AND EXPRESSION)
Liz: "What...? Nothing. I just meant...." (SHE STOPS)
Mary: "You don't have to explain. I know exactly what you meant -- and what you think of my daughter -- and so did she. That's why she ran away! That's what drove her out of her own home -- walking in here and hearing the same terrible things said about her that she'd heard every place else!" (CU/LIZ, APPALLED. SHE BACKS UP A STEP, TURNS AND STARTS OUT).
Liz: "I won't listen to this, Mary. It's completely unfair."
Mary: (FOLLOWING HER, FURIOUS) "You don't know how many times I've blamed myself for not having the courage to ask you to leave this house the minute you started talking about Pat. If I had, she'd be here today! You drove Pat out of her own house."
Liz: (DRAWING HERSELF UP, FIGHTING WITH ANGER) "Mary, I'm taking your emotional state into account -- and the drugs you had..."
Mary: "This isn't the drugs. I know now what you did, Liz. You lost your daughter because she wouldn't live with you. You couldn't stand it that my children are here with me, so you drove Pat out of her own house!"

Notes: Act II (Jim and Janet) of this episode was saved for replay. Norman Hall replaced Len Valenta as director for this episode. Possibly due to content, the scene of Jim at the morgue was shot from a high angle to avoid revealing any potentially graphic details of the setting.

APRIL 20, 1965 (EP. #240)
Janet told Ken that the police found Pat's car shortly after she ran away, but haven't discovered a trace of Pat in the four days she has been missing. Janet reflected that Mary's inner strength has deteriorated because Pat's actions were contrary to her belief system, rearing of the children, and everything has taken a significant toll on Mary. Ken darkened when Janet mentioned that the police requested that Pat's disappearance not be public knowledge out of fear that she might take drastic measures. Janet talked to Ken about the ways in which Pat faces the harsh reality of having an abortion and killing the man she loved. Ken was deeply affected as Janet spoke passionately about empathizing with Pat's thoughts and feelings because both of them have sterility in common. Dru fretted over Lee having sleepless nights while waiting for John to get home, but remained objective by telling a resentful Lee that John still feels responsibility to Pat. Lee complained to Dru that John is compromising his health for Pat's sake and scoffed over John blaming her for Pat running away. John arrived home just as Lee was about to complain about the ways in which John has changed since meeting Pat. Dru felt compassion for an exhausted John, who confessed that he cannot sleep while knowing that he hurt Pat deeply and is consumed by fears of her harming herself. John admitted to Dru that he lashed out at Lee for badmouthing Pat because she was bombarding him with questions. Lee gladly accepted John's apology. John was too tired to argue against Lee's suggestion to take a nap on her bed while dinner was being prepared.

Ken: "How is her family holding up?"
Janet: "Well, you know Jim. No -- no, of course you don't. Sometimes I forget that you don't know my family as well as you do me." (CU/KEN, WATCHING HER. HE DOESN'T RESPOND) "Jim is -- is like the Rock of Gibraltar. He always has been -- even when we were children. I remember when our father died, Will -- that was my older brother -- he was like a child about it, completely lost. We all were -- except Jim. He was heart-broken, you knew that. But he knew someone had to be strong -- so he was. And that's the way he is now."

Janet: (TOUCHING HER CHEST OVER HER HEART) "This tells me. I think -- I think it takes a woman to understand what can happen in the heart of another woman. I think I know what's going on inside Pat now. She was a decent and moral girl who got pregnant..."
Ken: (BARELY AUDIBLE) "By my son...."
Janet: "She had an abortion; she killed twice, first the child -- then the man." (SHE LOOKS AT KEN) "I'm sorry, Ken."
Ken: (SHAKING HIS HEAD) "They're facts. They can't be erased."
Janet: "They can't be erased by Pat either. That's the point. How does a woman live with -- unfaceable facts? She either shuts them out -- permanently -- or she decides that's the way the world is, and that's the way she is -- and she sets out to prove it..." (SHE LOOKS AT KEN) "You've seen women do that -- in a number of ways, Ken. It's a more efficient method of self-destruction than a gun. And it can be more horrible."
Ken: (STRUCK BY HER WORDS, HIS FACE TAUT) "....Perhaps she's stronger than you think."
Janet: "After what she's been through? Besides...there's something else: the fact that the abortion left her sterile. That -- that can change a woman's thinking a great deal. Especially when she's young. A whole part of being a woman is forbidden to her -- forever. So she does things -- to show her contempt for it -- to show how meaningless and unimportant it all is." (WE HAVE BEEN IN CU/JANET; WE HAVE SEEN HOW MUCH THESE WORDS MEAN TO HER. KEN MOVES INTO THE SHOT BEHIND HER)
Ken: "Are you talking about Pat now?"
Janet: (NOT TURNING TO HIM) "You mean because I'm sterile too? Of course I'm talking about myself -- and Pat. That's why I understand what she must be thinking. That's why I'm so afraid of what she may be doing."

APRIL 21, 1965 (EP. #241)
Jim told Janet that he doubts that a moral, intelligent man like John would take liberties with Pat after meeting his exceptional daughter. Janet was bewildered as Jim spoke admirably about Lee for apologizing to him and stated that he didn't confront John because he has been draining himself while searching for Pat. Jim realized that Janet had a good point when she wondered whether John was acting out of genuine concern or responsibility for causing Pat to flee. Dru advised Ken that thinking that he and Laura could have spared Pat of Tom's immorality was useless conjecture. Ken sadly told Dru that the progress he made with Laura was ruined after they fought bitterly over her reaction to Pat being missing. Dru understood Laura's resentment towards the Matthews family once Ken revealed that his affair was with Janet. Laura chastised herself for openly voicing her hatred towards Janet and Pat to Ken. Ken made amends with Laura, but didn't share her optimism of building on the ability to be reasonable in their marriage. Laura made an effort by asking Ken about Pat, until Ken stated that they are as guilty as Tom for Pat's actions. Ken sighed with disappointment when Laura went on an angry diatribe about Pat being a dishonest, immoral person who wasn't corrupted by Tom. Jim resolutely asked John whether he caused Pat to conclude that all men are vile and rotten. John confessed to kissing Pat and tried to alleviate Jim's fury by insisting that it was an expression of love, but agreed that he made a terrible mistake. Jim vowed to John that he will use every means necessary to ensure that Pat has nothing to do with him.

Jim: "Pat said something to Alice when she came home from her last date with you that has led -- some of us to believe that something may have happened -- something that would make her say all men are alike -- including you and Tom Baxter." (SILENCE. THIS, ADDED TO HIS EXHAUSTION, IS ALMOST MORE THAN JOHN CAN BEAR. HE STARES AT JIM) "I want an honest answer, Mr. Randolph. My daughter's life may be at stake."
John: (BARELY AUDIBLE) "Yes -- something did happen. I -- I've thought about nothing else since then. If -- if something happens to Pat, it's my fault." (CU/JIM, TAUT, WAITING, HIS FACE ASHEN)
Jim: "What happened?"
John: "We were at a restaurant. There was dancing. We went out on the terrace. I put my arms around her -- I kissed her. It was wrong. I shouldn't have done it. I've cursed myself a thousand times for it -- but I did it."
Jim: (FIGHTING BLIND FURY) "You did it -- knowing as well as anybody in the world what this girl has been through -- what it could do to her!!!?"
John: (SHAKING HIS HEAD WRETCHEDLY) "There's nothing you can say to me that I haven't said to myself, Mr. Matthews. If anything happens to Pat -- anything -- it's the end of my life."
Jim: (STARING AT HIM, HIS FISTS CLENCHED) "I've never struck a man in anger in my life. I want to now."
John: "Do it. I deserve it. I'd be grateful to you."
Jim: "That's the only reason I'm not doing it."
John: "I don't expect you to forgive me. I'll never forgive myself. But it wasn't casual -- it wasn't just an impulse. I --" (IT IS HARD TO SAY; HE FORCES HIMSELF) "I love Pat, Mr. Matthews. I love her very much. I have ever since the trial. This isn't the way I meant to tell you. I tried to tell you -- and Mrs. Matthews -- several times, but I never got the chance and now..." (HE STOPS, HELPLESS, AT A LOSS FOR WORDS, NEAR TEARS. CU/JIM, STARING AT HIM IN FURY AND CONTEMPT)
Jim: " it may be too late -- for my daughter, I have only one thing to say to you, Mr. Randolph. If -- if Pat comes back -- alive and well -- I'll use every means in my power to see that she never has anything to do with you again."

Notes: The script was a revision of the original, which is not included in the collection. It seems that Pat was slated to appear in the prologue of this episode, but was ultimately cut in the final draft.

APRIL 22, 1965 (EP. #242)
Lee was distressed to find John kneeling on the floor while placing his face into his hands. John refused to let Lee call Dr. Lewis so that he could be examined, then snapped when Lee inquired into Jim's visit and protested his ongoing search for Pat. Jim was forthright with a suspicious Mary about seeing Janet, but didn't have the heart to tell Mary about confronting John. Bill urged Liz to show Mary understanding and forgiveness, but fought the impulse to retort at Liz's tirade against Mary for throwing insults and accusations at her. Liz grew irate when Bill declined to take sides and reminded Bill that a lawyer's good name is an asset that shouldn't be associated with scandal. Bill was silently livid over Liz's insinuations that he doesn't care about her feelings or the family's reputation. Liz fumed when Bill left to have dinner with Missy. Bill comforted Missy by assuring her that she echoes the family's fears that Pat may be dead. Missy was perplexed over Bill's assertions that Liz caused Pat to flee by making cruel remarks. Bill's anger was apparent while telling Missy about Liz offering to send Pat away and obsessing over the Matthews' name being tarnished. Missy abruptly canceled her plans with Bill, who left feeling rejected. Missy admonished herself for dreaming of marrying Bill because Liz would never accept him being involved with an illegitimate girl. John wouldn't yield to Dru's pleas that he quit searching for Pat because of the impact it has taken on him and Lee. Dru gently urged John to face the possibility that Pat may be found dead. John grew excited while theorizing that Pat distanced herself from her car and is staying in Bedfordtown.

Missy: "What are you saying, Bill -- that your mother wanted to get rid of Pat?"
Bill: (NODDING, BITTERLY) "Oh, she had a politer word for it. Mother always has a polite word for everything she does. She called it 'sending Pat to Europe to rest,' but it amounted to getting rid of her. And Pat knew it."
Missy: "But -- why would your mother want to get rid of Pat?" (CU/BILL, SILENT A MOMENT, BUT ANGRY ENOUGH NOT TO DISGUISE HIS FEELINGS EVEN IN FRONT OF MISSY)
Bill: "Because of the precious Matthews name. She can't bear the thought that anybody named Matthews is in the newspapers -- that people are talking about our family. She thinks it reflects on her and she can't stand that."

John: I'd -- I'd give ten years of my life if I could just go back to that one moment on the terrace and change it."
Dru: (WITH A SIGH, QUOTING) "Of all sad words of tongue or pen, the saddest are these: It might have been!"

Notes: Dru's quotation is from the poem "Maud Muller" written by John Greenleaf Whittier in 1856.

APRIL 23, 1965 (EP. #243)
Jim grew upset with Mary, who was pessimistic despite Sgt. Healy recruiting experienced police officers to search for Pat and implementing a five-state bulletin. Mary raved about John's tenacious efforts on Pat's behalf as Jim tried to disguise his anger. Sgt. Healy noticed Jim adopting a facial expression that was a non-verbal request to speak with him privately. Jim told Sgt. Healy that John kissed Pat because he figured it would provide fresh insight into Pat's motivation for running away. Alice told Janet that she came over because witnessing Mary's grief has become unbearable and she needed a place to cry. Janet ruminated to herself about Pat, Alice, and Susan confiding in her and Ken's belief that she has a gift for motherhood. Ernest tried to reassure Janet, who fretted over her limitations in comforting Alice and keeping mum about her suspicions of John. Janet told Ernest that she and Pat share similarities and an implicit connection, then marveled that her nieces visit despite her estrangement from the family. Ernest was aghast to learn from Janet that John attempted to seduce Pat after all that she has suffered at the hands of men. Janet talked to Ernest about the ways in which self-loathing can consume a woman. Jim felt powerless and asked God to give Mary strength to handle the outcome of Pat's disappearance. Mary sadly ruminated over Pat being missing for five days and prayed for Pat to be protected. Alice was depressed by Mary's exhausted, gaunt appearance. Jim tried to calm a hysterical Mary, who cracked under frustration towards the police search being unsuccessful. Mary rushed to embrace Pat, who was brought home by John.

Ernest: "How could any man take that kind of insane chance with a girl who's just been through all that Pat has been through!"
Janet: "I don't know. She's just taken too much from men, Ernest -- too much, too soon, too fast. I know what can happen inside a woman when that's happened. Something changes, Ernest -- something cracks -- and suddenly all you feel is anger." (SHE HAS RISEN, CAUGHT BY HER OWN STRONG EMOTIONS) "Then you either destroy yourself completely -- or you do it -- little by little, a small piece at a time -- cutting away at your self-respect, at everything you've ever believed in and held dear -- until finally there's nothing left. Only a woman can understand what may be happening to Pat now -- and any woman could tell you that I'm probably right."

Alice: "Mr. Randolph!"

APRIL 26, 1965 (EP. #244)
Mary and Alice escorted Pat upstairs to take a bath and prepare for bedtime once Jim stopped Mary from questioning Pat on her disappearance. Jim accepted John's claim that Pat must reveal her whereabouts and actions while she was missing since John swore that he didn't press Pat for information. John shrugged as Jim expressed his gratitude and complimented his perseverance in finding Pat. Jim sternly reinforced his stance to John that his inexcusable behavior endangered Pat and vowed to fight John's efforts to be part of Pat's life regardless of loving her. Pat maintained a stoic calm while apologizing to Mary and Alice for making them worry and have terrible thoughts about her safety. Mary blamed herself for allowing Pat to overhear Liz's supposed proposal, prompting Pat to claim that she fled for several reasons but convinced Mary not to push for details. Mary respected Pat's wishes to postpone talking more so that she could get some rest. Pat stared into space with the gravity of experiencing a sobering, important revelation. Jim and John felt uneasy as Mary sang John's praises, offered coffee and a small meal, and extended a dinner invitation to him and Lee. John graciously declined Mary's hospitality by insisting on going home to spend time with Lee. Mary and Alice tearfully raved about John's persistence as Jim turned away. Jim told Mary that he informed Sgt. Healy that Pat had been brought home safely. Jim persuaded Mary to retire for the evening to avoid discussing John further. Dru encouraged Lee to let an exhausted and pale John go to bed. John fell asleep on the floor as music filled the living room.

Production Notes: Norman Hall replaces Len Valenta as director of this episode. Pat was missing for five days and nights, which spanned eight episodes.

APRIL 27, 1965 (EP. #245)
Lee panicked upon discovering John lying unconscious on the living room floor. Lee quickly called Dr. Henry Lewis when John experienced fainting spells, memory lapses, and a cold body temperature. Dr. Lewis badgered John into admitting that he had gone five days without sleep to search for an ex-client. John tried to protest Dr. Lewis's orders for him to stay in bed after he administered a sedative for him. Dr. Lewis summoned a practical nurse to care for John and enforce his instructions so that Lee wouldn't miss school. Dr. Lewis professed his confidence in Lee's abilities to help John with his recovery. Mary chose not to spoil the cheerful ambience in the house by criticizing Alice wearing her paint-stained blue jeans. Jim feigned a happy mood while overhearing Mary and Alice talk of being indebted to John. Alice told Jim and Mary that Pat was sleeping peacefully and agreed with Jim's assessment that Pat seems quiet and solemn as if she had a profound epiphany. Mary yearned to question Pat about her experiences while she was missing. Jim avoided eye contact with Mary, who was incredulous when he cautioned against making John out to be a saint. Pat felt the faint beginnings of understanding and acceptance as she looked in the mirror. Mary refused to excuse herself from enabling Liz to selfishly suggest that they send Pat away and emphatically stated that she is no longer welcome in their house. Pat was shocked and grew thoughtful upon hearing from Mary that John ran himself ragged while driving around the city in search of her. Mary carefully segued into asking Pat about her time away from home.

APRIL 28, 1965 (EP. #246)
Pat was speechless when Mary broached the subject of the events that occurred while she was away. Mary told a remorseful Pat that the anguish over her disappearance was worthwhile since Pat feels like a transformed woman. Mary earnestly offered guidance to Pat, who promised to confess all to Mary once she comes to terms with everything that happened. Missy vowed to protect the secret that she is illegitimate. Bill shifted to talking about Pat's return with Missy after she dodged his question on whether she was avoiding him. Missy felt awkward once Bill guessed correctly that she was acting distant out of fear that Liz would treat her the same way as Pat. Liz was livid upon reading a newspaper article about Pat's whereabouts for five days being a mystery. Bill bridled his temper while Liz dwelled on the ensuing scandal once the events during Pat's disappearance are revealed. Liz went on the offensive against Bill by complaining that the family continues to pay the penalty for Pat's mistakes and that she has become a social pariah. Bill suggested that Liz make new friends who aren't judgmental and dismissed Liz's assumption that Pat's refusal to explain her whereabouts was due to shame. Jim told Janet that he is in the peculiar position of being indebted to John while angry over him making sexual advances on Pat. Janet applauded Jim's resolve towards keeping John out Pat's life and understood Jim's reasons for not telling Mary about John kissing Pat. Jim told Janet that the family should prepare to live with Pat's actions in Bedfordtown. Pat ruminated over Jim and Mary's reaction once she reveals her experiences while missing.

Notes: Newspaper Headline: "Matthews Girl Found; Whereabouts for Five Days a Mystery."

APRIL 29, 1965 (EP. #247)
Laura vowed to mask her hatred towards the Matthews' from Ken. Ken was nonplussed when Janet stated that neither John nor the family have knowledge of Pat's activities during the five days she was missing. Janet told Ken that she was touched that he empathized with her anguish over Pat because he had lost his own children, but maintained that breaking down in his arms was simply a moment of weakness. Ken and Janet drew close and looked longingly into each other's eyes until Janet regained her composure and asked Ken to leave. Janet understood when Ernest explained that he was bothered by spotting Ken driving away from her apartment. Ernest told Janet that he regrets asking her to accept caring for Ken, but maintained that she doesn't have to report every encounter she has with him. Janet grew thoughtful as Ernest revealed that he has a growing interest in developing a serious relationship with her. Ken told Dru that he and Janet still love each other, she is dating Ernest to avoid him, and that talks with Laura about Pat dissolve into heated arguments. Dru reiterated to Ken that Laura won't consent to an amicable divorce until they overcome hostility and he may need to reconcile with losing Janet. Ken and Laura were sincere with each other over enjoying their evenings together and being glad that Pat is safe and sound. Ken prevented an argument with Laura about overcoming his initial resentment against Pat by professing his love for Tom. Laura enjoyed dancing with Ken. Ernest acted understanding towards Janet's request to end their date early. Janet wondered whether Ken was correct in believing that she loved him.

APRIL 30, 1965 (EP. #248)
Corey, a reporter from the Star-Journal, tried to hassle Mary into giving an interview on Pat's disappearance. Lee was mortified over inadvertently making Missy uncomfortable by innocently offering to get her a date for the senior prom and assumed that things had soured with her steady boyfriend. Missy told Lee that she would come to like Pat upon getting to know her and that everyone is relieved that she is home. Lee understood Missy's surprise towards not knowing Pat's whereabouts since John found her, but chalked it up to John keeping the matter private since it involved an ex-client. Missy noticed the resentment in Lee's voice as she reflected on John changing into a different person and driving himself to exhaustion while searching for Pat. Lee gravely told Missy that John has a nurse taking care of him. Mary and Pat ruefully agreed that better communication between them could have prevented the tragedies of the last year. Pat felt wonderment while telling Mary about John's singular focus in finding her and bringing her home safely without caring about her actions during the time she was missing. Pat defended herself against Nurse Miss Mason, who haughtily resisted her request to see John. Lee resentfully told Pat that John collapsed from sleep deprivation and gave a perfunctory apology over gossiping about her. Pat expressed gratitude to John and enjoyed a tender moment with him as they clasped hands. John recalled Jim's stern warnings as Pat mentioned Mary's praise towards him and extended a dinner invitation. Pat told John that she feels conflicted over telling Jim and Mary everything that happened in Bedfordtown.

Mary: (GENTLY, PERSISTENTLY) "To go where -- to do what?"
Pat: "To find out some things -- to prove some things -- about myself. I wanted to know whether I was right or not. I found out I wasn't."
Mary: "When?"
Pat: "I guess -- it was when I saw him standing there..."
Mary: (A MURMUR) "Mr. Randolph..."
Pat: (NODDING) "He just stood there. He only said a few words and put out his hand to me -- and all I could think was, 'He found me. He looked for me and he found me.' Nothing mattered to him, not where I was or what I'd done. He didn't care about anything -- but me!" (THERE IS WONDER IN HER VOICE, THE SAME WONDER SHE FELT THEN) "He just held out his hand and I got up and went with him -- because he cared enough to find me -- and not to ask any questions. Nothing mattered but me --" (THE WONDER INCREASES) "-- me! Do you know how long it had been since I felt like I mattered?"
Pat: "That's when I knew those five days were over -- so many things were over -- and I was coming home." (SILENCE. BOTH WOMEN ARE DEEPLY GRIPPED IN THE SAME MOOD).

MAY 3, 1965 (EP. #249)
Jim and Mary agreed that they should know about Pat's time away from home without drawing anyone else into the situation. Jim quietly fumed over Pat visiting John and Mary's wishes to help him recover from sleep deprivation. Mary was aghast when Jim suggested that they maintain perspective and rationality with regards to John and insisted that Pat's flight from home may be more complicated than Mary believes. Jim fueled Mary's anger by claiming that John shares the blame in Pat running away because the time they spent together was detrimental to her. Mary caused Jim to feel defeated by accusing him of being ungrateful to John and displaying paternal jealousy. Dr. Lewis lectured John over ignoring his medical orders and refused to relieve Nurse Mason until he is examined tomorrow. John grew agitated when Dr. Lewis deduced that he compromised his health for Pat because he has fallen in love with her. Dr. Lewis quizzed John on the reasons he becomes uneasy every time Pat is mentioned in Lee's presence. Pat was amused as Alice unabashedly admitted her preference for older men. Alice was glad that Pat no longer likens John to other filthy men who are only after sex. Pat wasn't bothered that Alice was interrogated by a reporter and asked for time before she openly discusses staying in Bedfordtown. John smiled at Lee affectionately while she described the sunset. Lee dutifully gave John medicine and instructed him to follow Dr. Lewis's orders. John got out of answering Lee's inquiry into his motivation for searching for Pat by claiming he wanted to take a nap. Pat felt tranquil while looking at the last traces of the sunset.

Alice: "...I've got this teacher -- I think I mentioned him to you once, Mr. Keller -- the one who told me I should switch from commercial art to fine art."
Pat: "Oh. Yes."
Alice: "It's really scandalous. I've got such a crush on him! I just don't understand myself. I've got such a thing about older men!" (SHE ISN'T THE LEAST BIT DISPLEASED ABOUT IT EITHER) "It's a shame I wasn't the one who needed help. Boy! Mr. Randolph could help me forever! I'd never get out of trouble!"

Lee: "...You were supposed to take your medicine at six-thirty!" (HURRYING BACK TO JOHN, TAKING THE MEDICINE FROM THE BESIDE TABLE, POURING A SPOONFUL) "Trust you not to remind me."
John: "I was sort of hoping you'd forgotten."
John: (GRIMACING) "I took it all."
Lee: (FIRMLY) "No, you didn't. There's still some in the spoon. Come on." (RESIGNEDLY JOHN OPENS HIS MOUTH AND TAKES THE REST OF HIS MEDICINE)
John: (WINCING) "Ugh! I think one reason they make medicine taste so terrible is so you'll hurry up and get well to be rid of it."

Notes: Dr. Henry Lewis mentions that he has been the Randolph's family physician for fifteen years.

MAY 4, 1965 (EP. #250)
Janet was struck by Mary's unwavering idolatry of John as Mary praised his work in getting Pat acquitted and risking his health to find her. Mary grew annoyed over defending John's actions to Janet, who questioned John's obsession over searching for Pat. Janet listened intently as Mary reflected on Pat discovering something that eased her anxiety and contempt for herself. Mary told Janet that she and Jim hope that Pat reveals her experiences in Bedfordtown soon. Janet's troubled mind drifted to John kissing Pat as Mary credited John for bringing her home. Dru was relieved that Nurse Mason had been dismissed and was pleased with John's recovery. John informed Dru that his hunch that Pat never intended to commit suicide was correct, but refused to divulge details about finding her. Dru told John that he agrees with Jim's vow to fight his efforts to become closer to Pat. John confessed to Dru that his love for Pat has grown stronger. Lee acted polite when Pat came to visit John with a bouquet of roses. Pat innocently picked up a photograph of John and Lee and his pipe, prompting Lee to emphatically point out the closeness she has with John. Pat tried to alleviate the tension by making small talk with Lee about knowing Missy, the Kopper Kettle, and John being a difficult patient. Lee assumed a light-hearted facade and joked that Pat was encouraging John to defy Dr. Lewis's orders. John hinted for Lee to do her homework so that he could have a moment alone with Pat. Pat sympathized with Lee despite John's complaints that she is moody and possessive of him. John was thrilled for Pat, who stated that she has conquered her self-loathing and alienation towards being around decent people. Lee accidentally pricked her finger on a thorn, bitterly threw Pat's roses on the kitchen floor, and silently sobbed.

Lee: "You shouldn't talk too long, Daddy. You're still supposed to be resting."
John: (NOT ANGRILY) "Oh, Lee, don't be silly." (TO PAT) "Between my fuss-budget of a doctor and that drill sergeant they sent me for a nurse and this mother hen here..." (HE INDICATES LEE) "I've been treated as if I'd been in a major accident."
Pat: "You were very run down. It was a good thing they did make you rest."
John: "Nonsense! All I needed was one good night's sleep and everybody's turned it into a federal case."

MAY 5, 1965 (EP. #251)
Janet was perturbed when Ken stated he is hesitant to go on a business trip due to unresolved personal issues and time running short for them. Ken pointed to Janet coming to him for solace over Pat's disappearance as evidence that they are far from finished. Janet was weary towards Ken's confidence of making progress with Laura by noting that he has been estranged from her and has been wanting a divorce for months. Ken acknowledged that he hedged on divorce plans because of Tom's death, but declared that he has ceased being a husband to Laura and a reconciliation is impossible. Janet got upset when Ken made insinuations about her dating Ernest and asked her not to commit to a serious romance with him. Ken kissed Janet after professing his love. Janet told Ernest that Jim and Mary have opposing views on John and his involvement in Pat's life. Ernest frowned as Janet fretted about the lasting impact of Pat's experiences in Bedfordtown. Janet deflected Ernest's questions about her talk with Ken. Ernest stubbornly refused Janet's suggestion that they quit seeing each other. Laura was jocular while reminiscing about the thrill of going to the movies in anticipation of Ken holding her hand. Ken informed Laura the he is going on a business trip, but grew irate when Laura falsely believed that Janet is accompanying him. Ken stormed out, causing Laura to call Eric in a panic. Eric told Laura that she allowed herself to become emotionally distraught by making irrational assumptions about Ken and Janet. Laura took the sedative Eric prescribed and told herself that she would rather be dead than spend the rest of her life alone.

MAY 6, 1965 (EP. #252)
Jim urged Mary to accept Pat's disappearance making headlines, but not to believe in the newspapers' dubious conclusions. Mary conceded to Jim's mindset of maintaining open communication and trusting that Pat will tell them about her time away willingly. Jim was resigned when Mary accused him of acting like a jealous father when he frowned over Mary's praise of John. Mary was receptive to Jim's idea of inviting others besides John and Lee for the dinner party until he suggested Liz. Jim echoed Pat's contention that Liz didn't cause her to flee despite Mary's feelings to the contrary. Mary accused Jim of defending Liz while Jim countered that Mary was holding a grudge and should be more understanding towards Liz. Bill reasoned with Liz, who insisted that her proposition was misunderstood and was offended by Bill calling her argument with Mary a feud. Liz insolently informed Bill that she will be charitable once Mary apologizes to her. Bill cautiously told Liz that Missy is shy and awkward in social settings and asked for permission to invite Missy to dinner to help her overcome discomfort at their house. Liz quietly seethed as Bill declared his wishes for her to bond with Missy and intentions to marry Missy. Missy beamed at the changes in Pat since returning home. Pat told Missy that she disproved her beliefs that she was the cheapest, most contemptible woman in the world. Missy was intrigued by Pat's promise to tell her everything that happened in Bedfordtown soon. Missy told Pat that Lee's opinion of her would be different if she got to know her better. Pat told John that Lee resents the time he has spent with her and urged him not to be furious with his daughter. John and Pat nearly embraced after staring at each other and clasping hands. John claimed he needed to check with Lee when Pat pressed him to accept the dinner invitation.

Mary: "You've always been defensive of Liz -- because she was married to your brother. Ever since Will died you've completely refused to see Liz as she is."
Jim: "And you're refusing to forget things that happened between you and Liz years ago. That isn't like you, Mary." (MARY TURNS AWAY) "I don't condone everything Liz does. I know she can be -- quite selfish. But she's also alone now, Mary. Her husband's gone, her daughter's far away -- and she'll soon lose her son, when he marries. I'm not asking you to like Liz -- just to understand her."

Notes: Newspaper article with three column headline: "Where Was Matthews Girl for Five Days? Still No Answer."

MAY 7, 1965 (EP. #253)
John decided to discuss the dinner invitation with Jim prior to giving Pat a response. Jim bluntly told John that he has refrained from telling Mary about him kissing Pat because he doesn't want to ruin Mary's respite after having many weeks of unhappiness. John agreed as Jim took him to task for feigning sincere, objective interest in Pat, concealing his true feelings, and taking advantage of Pat's vulnerability and the family's trust. Jim accepted John's contention that it isn't his place to reveal any details about discovering Pat's whereabouts. John was grateful when Jim stated that he doesn't object to him accepting Mary's invitation and will treat Lee respectfully for Mary's sake. Dru told Lee that, while he doesn't condone Pat's actions, attorneys help people get out of trouble and lead better lives. Lee groaned to Dru about John becoming ill and disrupting their lives to help Pat make a fresh start. Dru was distressed as Lee doubted that Pat will become less dependent on John and admitted that she struggled to be civil during Pat's visit, much to John's chagrin. Lee felt unsettled when Dru encouraged her to put on a gracious, polite front during dinner with the Matthews. Mary and Alice created an elaborate table setting with hors d'oeuvres, punch, and candles. Mary and Pat jokingly warned Alice to behave around John and not be overly talkative. Jim complimented the festive and attractive preparations, then gently chided Mary for being nervous about a dinner party. Pat fought laughter over Alice wearing a full-length gown and had her change into a simple dress. Jim valiantly disguised his disgust as Mary greeted John and Lee.

Dru: "It's nice to see you, Rosebud. You're looking a bit more rested than the last time I saw you. I thought I was going to have to stop calling you Rosebud, but..." (HE POINTS AT HER CHEEKS) "...they're back. How did you come over?"
Lee: "I walked from school."
Dru: "Beautiful day, isn't it? We're in my favorite month of the year. This is the one month when nature conspires to make everything perfect -- the weather, the trees, the flowers -- everything's as fresh as -- well, as a rosebud." (HE SMILES AT HER. SHE SMILES FAINTLY, LOOKS AWAY FROM HIM, DOWN AT HIS CHESSBOARD WHICH HOLDS A HALF-FINISHED GAME) "Want to play a game of chess? We can continue this one. I'll give you black -- it's been getting all the best of it."

Alice: (PUTTING A HAND TO HER CHEST IN MOCK DRAMA) "No personal sacrifice is too great for the conquering hero."
Mary: (LAUGHING) "Oh, Alice, really!"
Pat: (WAGGLING A FINGER AT ALICE IN MOCK WARNING) "Listen you -- I've seen you in action around Mr. Randolph before. It's like spending an evening with Mata Hari. Please spare us this time."
Alice: "Mata Hari! You might at least have mentioned someone of this century!"
Mary: (SETTING OUT GLASSES) "She was of this century. Oh dear, I'm getting old."

Production Notes: Description of Jim's office as, "It is not a very large office -- about what would befit an accountant who doesn't need much working space but, as an executive of the firm, sometimes has to have clients into his office. In other words, some attempt has been made to make it attractive."

MAY 10, 1965 (EP. #254)
Alice amused everyone with a grand entrance of stepping downstairs in time with background music, acting adult, and referring to Jim and Mary as "mother" and "father." Mary felt hilarity and exasperation as Alice pretended to ladle some punch while beaming about Mary's recipe being a well-kept secret. Jim was stoic as John urged Mary not to apologize for Alice and humbly accepted Mary's compliments over raising Lee. Mary unknowingly made Jim and John squirm by praising John's altruism. Jim and Lee were stone-faced as they observed Pat greeting John. Pat joked that John was at Mary's mercy to feeding him until he has gained twenty pounds. John carefully flattered Mary, Pat, and Alice over keeping their figures despite having strong appetites. Alice smiled when Mary approved of her idea that they address each other by first name. Lee briefly showed interest in being introduced to Russ, who was at a school basketball game. Pat and Alice were relieved that Mary chose to postpone cleaning up until morning. Jim agreed with Mary's gratitude towards John, but warned against making a fuss. Mary lightly criticized Jim for being quiet and deeming John a threat because he can't be dominated. Jim was floored when Mary sensed that John and Pat have feelings for each other. Pat gently ribbed Alice over making quite an impression and dismissed Alice's prediction that an engagement to John was in Pat's future. Alice theorized that Lee is jealous because John and Pat are in love, which Pat neither confirmed nor denied. John chastised Lee for being anti-social. Lee bluntly told John that she refuses to contradict her animosity towards Pat.

Alice: "Maybe I should have worn black tonight."
Pat: (LAUGHING; REFERENCING HER DRESS) "Believe me, you made enough of an impression in that."
Alice: "I wasn't trying to make an impression"
Pat: "Oh, no! At one point I couldn't decide whether you were impersonating Elizabeth Taylor or Queen Elizabeth."
Alice: "You make me sound like I was play-acting all evening."
Pat: "Honey, you could have won an Academy Award for tonight's performance."
Pat: "I don't own him."
Alice: "You could."
Pat: (TURNING TO HER) "What?"
Alice: "You could own him. Boy, the way he looks at you! I wish someone would look at me like that. I'd melt!"
Pat: "Oh, Alice, don't be silly."
Alice: (SITTING TO REMOVE HER SHOES) "All right, call me silly, but when the engagement is announced, you can apologize to me."
Pat: "Engagement! I thought you were just being a kid sister tonight, but now I think something's really wrong with you."
Alice: (AIRILY) "Okay, deny everything. But I've got eyes, Pat, and I can see that it isn't only Mr. Randolph -- it's you too."

MAY 11, 1965 (EP. #255)
Laura decided to confront Janet over suspicions that she is going to the West Coast with Ken. Janet was thrilled to receive a visit from Alice, who gave her a reprieve from a drawing she was struggling to finish. Alice brightened while thanking Janet for giving her a place to cry and stated that she feels like a different person since Pat came back. Janet reasoned that people don't share important experiences until they are fully understood when Alice brought up Pat's resistance to talking about the days she spent away from home. Alice swore she wasn't coloring the ways John and Pat looked at each other and sat close together on the couch after dinner. Janet was dismayed over Alice speculating that John and Pat are in love and heading towards marriage. Laura valiantly concealed her hatred towards Janet while stating that she was glad that the unhappiness has ceased since Pat's return. Janet addressed Laura's skepticism by reminding her that she was truthful when Laura confronted her months ago. Laura made an acerbic remark about Ken and Janet going to California to have a few blissful weeks together, prompting Janet to swear that she isn't going with Ken on his business trip. Ken grew taut in reaction to Janet's wry comment about being associated with a business trip that doesn't involve her. Janet told Ken that Laura is justified in distrusting them and urged him not to confront Laura. Ken angrily ridiculed Laura for jumping to conclusions, making a fool of herself, and being unreasonable. Laura scoffed at Ken's defense of Janet and bitterly told him that she should save her sympathetic feelings for herself.

Character description of Laura in Prologue: "Each time we see her alone we should feel her loneliness. The things she elects to do only point up her restlessness and the fact that she is lost. Her attention span is short and nothing can hold her interest very long. Her agitation grows as her thoughts take hold of her."

MAY 12, 1965 (EP. #256)
Ken brooded over living in limbo at the University Club and worried that something will happen to Janet while he's gone. Ernest enthused over Pat's perfect physical condition and noted the marked improvement in her mental state. Pat sincerely told Ernest that she has learned a great deal about herself and other people. Ernest emphasized his total responsibility as Pat's doctor and encouraged her to confide in him about the days she was missing. Pat decided against opening up to Ernest, but insisted that she isn't burdened by keeping the experiences to herself and has a confidante. Ernest questioned Ken's purpose for telling him that he's in love with Janet. Ken desperately ascertained that Janet is ignoring her true feelings, which Ernest bluntly stated is debatable because of Janet's honesty. Ernest told Ken to consider that he is part of Janet's "pattern" of avoiding permanent attachments by ending anything that becomes too serious and getting involved with someone else. Ken asked Ernest not to press Janet into making any irrevocable commitments. Ernest excused himself from Ken, who proclaimed that he and Janet belong together and that they will marry someday. Ernest was skeptical towards Alice's belief that Pat has fallen for John, but agreed with Janet that Pat's experiences have had a tremendous effect on her. Janet sensed that Ernest was bothered by something. Ernest was immediately remorseful when Janet grew furious over Ken's conversation with him. Ken tried to defend himself against Janet's wrath. Janet angrily told Ken that she has lost all respect for him, that he is meaningless to her, and that they are finished.

Ken: (VOICEOVER, TO HIMSELF) "Why did this California trip have to come up now. It's ruining everything -- with Janet, with Laura. I should have known Laura would think Janet was going with me. How can I prove she's wrong? Why should I have to!" (HE TURNS ANGRILY FROM THE MIRROR, CROSSES TO ROOM TO GET HIS JACKET FROM THE BACK OF A CHAIR. AS HE PUTS IT ON, THOUGHTFULLY) "The worst thing is what might happen to Janet while I'm gone. I can't let it happen." (HE STARTS FOR THE DOOR, STOPS, LOOKS AROUND THE ROOM) "If I don't do something I -- I could spend the rest of my life here. Pretty soon I'll be like so many of the rest of them here -- not married, not unmarried, living out their empty lives in the limbo of a men's club. I don't want that. Not when I could have so much more." (HE TURNS AND GOES OUT)

MAY 13, 1965 (EP. #257)
Ken sulked over Janet while waiting for Dru at his rooming house. Dru told Ken that Laura's misgivings over his trip to California were inevitable and that he may be remiss to believe Laura's confrontation had a profound effect on Janet. Ken confessed that he has grown ardent over Laura consenting to a divorce and asked Ernest not to pressure Janet into a serious relationship because he will be away on business for a few weeks. Dru frankly told Ken that he was wrong to proposition Ernest and that resigning from his job would be foolish and short-sided. Ken was discomfited when Dru hypothesized that Ken going away might give him perspective and take pressure off all parties involved. Lee carped to Dru about being uncomfortable with the Matthews because her disdain for Pat grows each time they see each other. Dru urged Lee to make a concerted effort to overcome her enmity towards Pat since trying to ignore the friction between them is fruitless. Lee offered to cook for Dru to assuage her loneliness and angst. John told Dru that he is less susceptible to Lee's whims as her father and grew exasperated when Dru criticized the limited time he has spent with Lee lately. Dru was astonished over John's resolve to grow closer to Pat despite Jim's vow of fighting his efforts at every turn. Pat raved about John's powers of persuasion as an attorney and convincing her to return home. John became conscientious of holding Pat's hands as they talked about John finding her in Bedfordtown. Pat moved her arms forward to touch John's hands as they gazed into each other's eyes. Dru swept Lee into position to waltz with him as if dancing at a ball. Lee sobbed while Dru held her in his arms and gently stroked her hair.

Dru: (to Lee) "Say, I just had a very good idea! Why should you cook tonight? How about going out to dinner -- with me! I may not be able to twist as well as your other admirers, but I'll bet they can't waltz as well as I can!"
Dru: "....Then I'd be honored to accept your invitation. Will your father come home before he goes out?"
Lee: "Probably."
Dru: "Good. I'd like to talk to him for a few minutes. Let's go." (HE HOLDS OUT HIS ARM) "We'll walk over -- if you don't mind being seen walking arm-in-arm with an old fogy."
Lee: "An old fogy! I'd rather be seen walking next to you than --" (SHE HESITATES, FROWNS SLIGHTLY, THEN) "than any man I know." (CU/DRU; HE NOTES THE EXCLUSION OF JOHN. THEN HE RAISES HIS ARM AGAIN)

MAY 14, 1965 (EP. #258)
Janet mused about Pat's disappearance being relegated to the gossip columns within the papers. Janet smiled despite Jim airing his grievances that Mary threw an elaborate dinner party in John's honor and might have redecorated the house if given time. Jim and Janet debated Pat's feelings for John and Jim's wishes to thwart attempts he makes of getting closer to Pat. Janet told Jim that there are limits to a parent's control, but agreed that John was dishonest and took shameful advantage of the family's trust in him. Jim reinforced his belief to Janet that John is not the kind of man he wants Pat to love. Alice helped Pat get dressed while groaning about boys being shallow and immature. Pat smiled as Alice airily wished that she could find a superb, handsome man like John and didn't disprove Alice's theory that Pat loves him. Alice was struck by the depth in Pat's tone in professing that she no longer considers love to be a dirty word and respects John. John radiated with joy as Pat praised his dancing skills. Pat laughed out loud over John's story of accidentally ordering a huge bottle of wine while trying to show off his French when he was stationed in Paris during WWII. Pat viewed John as a knight in shining armor when he fended off a reporter named Patrick Van Arnem from interrogating Pat on her disappearance. John beamed at Pat, who professed her gratitude for coming to her rescue in times of need. Pat told John that she realizes that she didn't love Tom, that he had acted selfishly, and wouldn't have searched vigorously for her like John had. John and Pat separately wished they had shared an embrace and kiss after parting ways.

Pat: "Didn't you have a date?"
Alice: "I could have, but...they're all such babies."
Pat: "Who, the boys at art school?"
Alice: "The boys everywhere. That's just it...they're boys; little, shallow, babyish boys."

Alice: (about John) "I can't help it. I think he is the most superb man I ever met in my life." (SHE THROWS HERSELF BACK ON THE BED, LIES STARING UP AT THE CEILING, HER LEGS DANGLING OFF THE BED) "As a matter of fact, he's the reason I don't have a date tonight."
Alice: (AIRILY) "Oh, don't worry. I'm not after your fella. But he's the reason all the boys I know look so blah." (SHE SIGHS) "Oh...why can't I meet a nice, handsome, mature, marvelous man like Mr. Randolph."

Notes: John mentions that he was stationed in France during the final year of WWII and was eighteen at the time. Patrick Van Arnem was a reporter for the gossip column "Overheard Last Night."

MAY 17, 1965 (EP. #259)
Dru was receptive to John's belief that Pat cares for him and found the encounter between Patrick Van Arnem and Pat distasteful. John told Dru that Pat feels safe with him and everything has become meaningful and worthwhile, despite Dru being weary over John's confidence that he will redeem himself to Jim. John grew uneasy when Dru pointed out that Lee is four years younger than Pat and he should consider Lee's reaction to him and Pat becoming a couple. Pat told Mary that her happiness is different than any emotion she has ever felt since it is stronger than the child-like happiness that she once had. Mary was jubilant as Pat reflected on learning many things and knowing that everything will turn out right because of John being in her life. Janet raved about Alice's artistic talent and justice existing in the world because Pat had found happiness. Janet concealed pain and foreboding as Pat stated that she never felt peaceful or secure with Tom and ruminated over the different ways people can love others. Pat frowned slightly when Janet said that love can be mysterious and cautioned her against confusing love with gratitude. Janet advised Ernest that her life was complicated long before they became romantically involved. Ernest elected against giving his opinion to Janet that Ken is undeterred in pursuing her despite their confrontation. Janet tried to assure Ernest that Ken would be foolish to ignore everything she said about their relationship being through. Ernest rightfully sensed that Janet's rigid demeanor belied her assertions that Ken is out of her life. Janet willingly accepted kisses from Ernest, who vowed to help get Ken out of Janet's system permanently.

Script note in Act II: "Pat is in a period now where she frequently discovers things as she says them."

MAY 18, 1965 (EP. #260)
Jim intimated that Mary should quit worrying since Alice hasn't been negatively influenced by the Institute. Mary lamented over Russ's grades slipping and discussed sending him to military school to gain discipline with Jim. Jim was uneasy as Mary noted that Pat has adopted a special glow that may be indicative of a woman in love. Ernest joked about being spoiled by Janet's cooking after years of preparing meals for himself and going to restaurants. Janet was thoughtful as Ernest revealed his previous engagement to a nurse named Karen, who worked with him at Memorial Hospital. Ernest explained that they were set to marry once he completed his residency, but Karen impulsively married his brother instead. Janet felt sympathy for Ernest, who stated that the incident split the family, that Alex and Karen moved away, and admitted that he hasn't tried to reconcile with them. Ernest and Janet recognized that they were emotionally scarred from past engagements and shared an aversion to commitments. Jim told Janet that Pat practically confessed to Mary that she loves John. Janet told Jim that Pat confided her feelings for John and asked whether it meant love. Jim exploded when Janet stated that Pat has forgotten about John kissing her. Janet tactfully urged Jim to modify his thinking since trying to keep John and Pat apart would only lead to friction. John and Pat relished in easily enjoying each other's company without any hostility. Pat informed John that his kiss was the catalyst to rethinking her attitude and mentality and allowed her to reconcile with the past. John and Pat slow danced and almost shared a kiss.

MAY 19, 1965 (EP. #261)
Pat detected bitterness from Bill, who admitted that he has kept his distance because Mary and Liz are not getting along. Bill suppressed the urge to contradict Pat's contention that Liz had pure intentions for offering to send her away. Pat told Bill that she wants everyone to resolve their differences. Bill bemoaned the negative effects of Liz's feigned politeness on Missy, becoming strangers again, and Missy making excuses to limit their time together. Pat associated Bill's hints that Missy is frightened of Liz's opinions of her to Liz's embarrassment towards Pat. Bill agreed when Pat volunteered to convince Missy that she deserves to find happiness. Bill was surprised by Pat emphatically stating that she has feelings for someone. Pat affirmed her close friendship with Missy, who finally stopped blaming herself for Pat running away. Missy tactfully explained that she and Liz are two completely different people and surmised that Liz's disapproval towards Pat proves that she would never accept Missy. Pat was flustered when Missy concluded that the proper thing to do was to break up with Bill. Lee invited Missy over to study with her. Missy covered by stating that she lives by herself and grew up without parents when Lee remember that she initially said that her parents lived far away. Lee went on a tirade about Pat's continued involvement in John's life. Missy opined that Pat is an honorable and considerate person, but unwittingly fueled Lee's fury by relaying Pat's sentiment that John is the most wonderful man she's ever met. Pat convinced John to spend quality time with Lee by stressing the importance of a father's presence in his daughter's life. Pat took John's hands into hers, then accepted his embrace where they shared a soft, gentle kiss.

MAY 20, 1965 (EP. #262)
Liz sulked over Bill seeming far away and receiving the occasional letter from Susan. Liz was heartfelt in telling Bill that she truly hopes that Pat will lead a normal, happy life and Jim and Mary get some well-deserved peace. Bill compassionately apologized to Liz for being rough on her and said that she has been a wonderful mother. Liz conceded to Bill that Susan's uninformative, impersonal letter stirred thoughts of Will's integral role in the family and blamed herself for Susan moving away. Liz and Bill acknowledged that they had been drifting apart lately and made a pact to restore their close relationship. Bill smiled over Liz's improved mood and request for him to invite Missy over for dinner soon. Missy was dubious towards Bill's assurances that he straightened things out with Liz and left his observations that they are growing apart overlooked. Bill stunned Missy by confirming that Pat practically professed her love for John. Lee appreciated John's praise of her cooking, but sagged over John's plans to work late tomorrow. John joked that Dru should stop teaching chess to Lee when she boasted that she beat him once. Lee told John that she expects to graduate with honors and enjoys acting in the school play. John's focus drifted as Lee reflected that she only has brief flashes of her mother, but spoke fondly of a picture of them from when she was 3-4 years old. Lee was disappointed when John had Lee start her homework so he could speak with Dru alone. Dru felt admiration towards Pat for encouraging John to spend time with Lee. John described embracing and kissing Pat to Dru, then revealed that his next step is proposing marriage.

Susan's letter to Liz: "Dear Mother. Sorry I haven't written in so long but working at Johns Hopkins -- especially in my branch of medicine -- can be a twenty-four hour a day job -- and often is. But I love it. I really feel like I'm doing something important. I hope you're well. Please give my love to Bill and write if you can. I'm moving again so write me in care of the hospital. Love, Sue."

Bill: "Now listen, this isn't 'Be Hard to My Mother Week.' I may sometimes be a little rough on you, but that doesn't mean anyone else can be -- including you." (CU/LIZ; SHE LOOKS AT HIM, SMILES FAINTLY, BUT SHAKES HER HEAD)
Liz: "No, Bill, I've been thinking a great deal today -- how much better a mother I could have been."
Bill: (TAKING HER ARMS) "I'll match you against anybody's mother. You've always been wonderful to Sue and me. I can't remember a time in our lives when we needed you and you weren't there."
Liz: "Then why did Sue move away."
Bill: (HE HESITATES AN INSTANT; THEN) "Well, the last year has been hard -- for all of us, Mother. Dad was such a big part of our lives, and then, suddenly he was gone."
Liz: "Yes...Suddenly he was gone."
Bill: "I'm sorry. Have I upset you?"
Liz: "No, it's a year. By now I should be used to the fact that Will isn't here anymore." (BUT SHE MOVES AWAY FROM BILL, HER EXPRESSION GENUINELY PAINED. CU/BILL, WATCHING HER, A TROUBLED FROWN ON HIS FACE)
Bill: "What made you start thinking about all this today?"
Liz: (INDICATING THE TABLE ON WHICH SUE'S LETTER LIES) "This." (BILL LOOKS AT THE TABLE) "It's from Sue." (BILL PICKS IT UP. IT TAKES ONLY AN INSTANT TO READ IT. HE LOOKS AT LIZ) "It didn't take long to read it, did it? There's not much there."
Bill: "She says she's very busy."
Liz: "That's the first letter in three months. No one could be that busy. And it's not the most informative letter. It could have been written to a -- stranger." (BILL STANDS WITH THE LETTER IN HIS HAND, LOOKING AT IT, FROWNING) "I don't know what she's doing outside the hospital, whether she has friends in Baltimore....I don't even know where she's living. I have to write her at the hospital. If something should happen to her -- I wonder if I'd even hear about it."

Lee: "Fine. I love it. I guess I'm sort of a ham. Do we have any actors in our ancestry?"
John: "I know there weren't any on my side of the family -- and I don't think there were any on your mother's."
Lee: "Mom was very beautiful, wasn't she."
John: "Don't you remember what she looked like."
Lee: "Not really. Sometimes I get a sort of glimpse of her in my mind's eye, but it's so quick. She's always gone before I can really see her."
John: "You've seen pictures of her."
Lee: "Oh, sure, but pictures don't really tell you what people look like."

MAY 21, 1965 (EP. #263)
Dru startled John out of daydreaming to give his unsolicited opinion on John's intention to propose marriage to Pat. John was defiant against Dru's supposition that he is biased in interpreting Pat's feelings of gratitude as love and should be more cognizant of Jim's objections. Dru remonstrated John for making logical conclusions that Lee should change her attitude while foregoing the human aspect of Lee's difficulty in sharing John after having him to herself for years. Missy was loathed to agree with Lee's disapproval over Pat's actions, then seized at the opportunity to point out Tom's role in causing Pat to make terrible mistakes. Lee wasn't swayed by Missy's defense of Pat and tried unsuccessfully to badger Missy over her remarks about Pat never wanting to intentionally hurt John. Dru became agitated over John's impatience in asking Pat to marry him. Pat and Alice bantered about which of them inherited the looks in the family. Pat told Alice that she will always be haunted by her mistakes involving Tom, but confessed to an ecstatic Alice that she has fallen in love with John. John was concerned when a glum Lee didn't criticize his clothes or have plans for the evening. Lee walked out after groaning that she was all thumbs and incapable of assisting John with his cufflinks. Pat gushed over the luxurious decor and peaceful atmosphere of John's favorite restaurant, "The Cascade." John applauded Pat's newfound outlook that he'll guide her through any challenges that life might hand to her. Pat was speechless when John professed his love and extended a marriage proposal.

Alice: "....When I was thirteen I used to cry because you got all the looks in the Matthews family."
Pat: (SMILING) "When you were thirteen it was true. It sure isn't true anymore. Now I can cry."
Alice: (CRANING OFF THE BED TO LOOK AT HERSELF IN THE FULL-LENGTH MIRROR) "Yeah, I do look better than I did when I was thirteen, but that's easy. I still haven't caught up to you, though."
Pat: (SITTING AT THE DRESSING TABLE TO APPLY THE LAST OF HER MAKEUP) "You've passed me -- but I don't mind."
Alice: (THROWING HERSELF BACK TO LIE ON HER BACK ON THE BED) "Oh, what do looks matter anyway! It's soul and mind that counts." (PAT LOOKS OVER AT HER AND SMILES)
Pat: "Is that what you're learning at the Art Institute?"
Alice: "Sure. If I could paint like Leonardo da Vinci, I'd settle for looking like him."
Pat: (LAUGHING) "You'd look a little strange in a beard."
Alice: (SITTING UP) "That's all right. Think how rich I'd be selling my paintings to the museums. Then men would overlook the beard."

John: "You mean you're not going to criticize my choice of tie?"
Lee: (QUIETLY, GLANCING AT THE TIE) "No, it's fine."
John: "Well, it's the millennium. I'm finally getting out of this house without you making me change my tie...."

Description of "The Cascade" restaurant: "It is a restaurant in the country. We can hear soft music coming from inside the restaurant, the faint sound of a waterfall, off. There are tables with folded parasols standing above them. We should have the impression that the terrace is larger than the part we see. John and Pat come through the French doors from the restaurant. They move to the stone balustrade in the foreground." John: "They don't advertise. Not many people do know about it. It's never crowded or noisy. I guess they want to keep the atmosphere peaceful."

MAY 24, 1965 (EP. #264)
John told an astonished Pat that he fell in love with her during the trial, but waited for the right time to tell her. Pat told John that she sensed that he loved her when John found her in Bedfordtown, which pushed her to come home. John was hopeful as Pat reflected on once loving Tom, but confessed that her feelings for John are like nothing she has ever felt. Pat told John that she has accepted Tom's true nature, but mused that she isn't sure what love is. Pat ruefully told John that she would rather die than hurt him and expressed uncertainty over being able to reciprocate his love. John promised patience when Pat asked for time to consider his proposal before giving him an answer. Ernest shyly admitted to Janet that he had been stealing glances at her while pretending to read medical journals. Janet was flattered when Ernest gushed about all of the different facets of Janet's personality. Ernest and Janet voiced mutual admiration for her dedication to art and his brilliance as a surgeon. Ernest was incredulous over Janet's claim that she thinks about him while they are apart, prompting Janet to reiterate that she is over Ken. Janet was astonished when Pat told her of John's marriage proposal. Pat told Janet that she is afraid of hurting John and wants to make the right decision. Janet advised Pat to evaluate her feelings, talk with Jim and Mary, and give John the chance to talk with Lee. Lee admitted to John that she jumped to conclusions over him and Pat dating after questioning Missy. John decided not to divulge the full truth to Lee, who seethed over John's plans to continue seeing Pat and wanting her to spend some evenings with them.

Pat: (SLOWLY, QUIETLY) "I guess -- I guess this is what I felt that moment -- when you found me. I didn't have the right words for it then, but I do now. I guess I knew that you loved me. That's why I came home."
John: "Yes, Pat, I loved you. I'd loved you for months. I love you very much now -- and I want you to marry me." (SHE IS SILENT, LOOKING UP AT HIM NOW) "I have no reason to believe that you feel -- as I do. I can only hope." (HE IS SILENT, WAITING)
Pat: (LOOKING UP AT HIM; WITH UTTER SINCERITY) "I know -- that I feel something for you that I've never felt before in my life -- for anybody." (CU/JOHN; THE HOPE IN HIS EYES GROWS) "That -- that's what confuses me. It doesn't feel anything like my feelings for Tom. And I thought that was love."
John: "We don't feel the same about everyone..."
Pat: "I know, but, whether I was right about Tom or not -- I did love him until -- until everything happened -- and I found out the kind of person he was. I wouldn't feel that way about him now -- not even if he were here. I've changed so much, I've learned so much, thanks to you -- but, I'm still not sure I know what love is. Do you, John?"
John: (QUIETLY) "Yes. I've got a very simple definition of it. It's what I feel about Patricia Matthews."

Janet: "I've just got to get this drawing done tonight. It's due at ten tomorrow morning."
Ernest: "That's perfectly all right. When you said you had to do it, I told you I had some medical journals with me that I could catch up on."
Janet: "But you weren't reading."
Ernest: "No, I was doing something even more enjoyable. I was indulging in my favorite sport."
Janet: "What's that?"
Ernest: "Janet-watching."
Ernest: "Especially when you look like that. One of the nice things about you, Janet is that there are so many Janets to love: the domestic Janet, the business Janet, the woman-of-the-world Janet..."
Janet: (LAUGHING) "Which one am I now?"
Ernest: "My favorite one. I haven't mentioned it yet."
Janet: "What is that?"
Ernest: "The intense, dedicated Janet -- the artist Janet. I love to watch you draw or paint. You lose yourself completely in it."

MAY 25, 1965 (EP. #265)
Dru excitedly told John that he has accepted a position in teaching trial law at the University. John resigned to Dru's advice not to underestimate Jim's vow to keep him and Pat separated, then became reposed while voicing certainty that Pat will accept his proposal. Dru credited John for helping Pat overcome her self-hatred and reasoned that Pat's hesitation stems from lingering guilt over hurting people because of her terrible mistakes. John told Dru that Lee is hostile towards Pat and still believes that she is the criminal that was in all the newspaper articles. Dru feared the repercussions after John mentioned that Missy urged Lee to change her mind about Pat, causing Lee to suspect that he and Pat are romantically involved. Lee tried to bully Missy into elaborating on her contentions that befriending Pat is important, she shouldn't count on John severing ties with Pat, and that she thinks the world of John. Missy refused to buckle under Lee's demands for information and valiantly defended Pat's character, but empathized with Lee being protective and possessive of John. Mary was overjoyed and Jim wrestled with his temper when Pat revealed John's marriage proposal to them. Pat informed Jim and Mary that she realized John's feelings for her in Bedfordtown and knows that he loves her unconditionally. Mary cried with happiness while expressing faith that Pat will make the right choice. Jim advocated patience and sound judgment to Mary rather than pushing Pat into any impetuous decisions. Mary listed for Jim all the reasons not to doubt John's love for Pat or worry over him hurting their daughter, which Jim refrained from arguing against.

MAY 26, 1965 (EP. #266)
Janet informed Jim that Pat sought her for guidance in understanding her feelings for John after he proposed marriage. Jim groused to Janet about Pat interpreting gratitude and romantic fantasy for love and that Mary is starry-eyed over the prospect of Pat marrying John. Janet felt unsettled as Jim wrestled with fighting the urge to influence Pat or letting her make a big mistake in marrying John. Pat told Mary that she is secure with John, respects and admires him, and wants to be with him more than anyone else in the world, but is petrified over hurting him. Mary fondly recalled for Pat that she anticipated Jim's marriage proposal and didn't harbor doubts over accepting it. Mary urged Pat to consider whether she is truly capable of hurting John and stressed that circumstances differ between couples when making important decisions. Bill was mollified when Liz carefully noted that Lee's disdain over John and Pat may have merits, but hoped that Pat has some peace after enduring her ordeals. Bill bought Liz's excuses that she was apprehensive towards initiating a reconciliation with Mary for fear of being insulted, but admitted to feeling isolated from the family. Liz assured Bill that she leads a full life with charities, activities, and clubs, but rejected Bill's idea that she starts dating. Jim sternly informed John that he is torn between Pat's happiness and his qualms over her consenting to marry him. John pleaded his case to Jim to assuage his misgivings towards the union and officially earn his consent. Jim was unyielding towards John and emphatically reminded him that Pat has yet to accept the marriage proposal.

Pat: "Were you surprised when he asked you?"
Mary: "Yes, I was. I guess I knew he was going to -- or I hoped he was going to, but, sometimes, when you hope for something that much, you almost convince yourself that it will never happen -- it's too good to be true."
Pat: "What did you do when Dad asked you?" (CU/MARY; SHE SMILES AT THE RECOLLECTION)
Mary: "I cried. Poor man -- it scared him half to death. He thought he'd hurt my feelings." (SHE LAUGHS, BUT SHE IS NEAR TEARS AS THE SAME EMOTIONS RUSH BACK) "He started to leave. I had to follow him to the door to say, yes, I wanted to marry him. Then he started to cry. Don't you ever tell your father I told you that."
Pat: (PUTTING OUT HER HAND TO TAKE HER MOTHER'S) "Oh, Mom -- that's so nice -- I want to cry."

MAY 27, 1965 (EP. #267)
Pat intimated to Jim that she won't settle for anything less than a happy marriage like Jim and Mary's, but dwelled on repeating mistakes and hurting people. Jim commended Pat for carefully considering John's proposal and conceded that her feelings for John are more complicated than mere gratitude. Pat was thankful for Jim's advice to contemplate sharing responsibility of Lee and determine whether marrying John will bring her happiness. Mary joked that breakfast is her surefire way to see each member of the family when Pat offered to cook for her, but frowned as Pat fretted over Lee. Pat told Mary about Lee's hostility towards her, then roused Mary's suspicions by mentioning Jim's qualms towards John and Pat's age difference and the union's effect on Lee. Jim persisted in telling an angry Mary that he urged Pat to think through John's proposal from all angles, which wasn't an effort to interfere or discourage her. Mary disagreed with Jim's concerns over the age difference and Pat being ill-equipped to make sound choices after going through so much turmoil. Jim tried to protest Mary's request to tell Pat that he isn't opposed to her getting married to John. Dru asked John to stop pacing the floor like a caged animal. John bemoaned three days passing without an answer to his proposal and Jim trying to convince Pat to turn him down. Dru told John that his noble resilience in helping Pat conquer her guilt convinced him that he loves Pat. John stewed over Jim's reticent opposition and using his influence on Pat, despite Dru's encouragement to have patience and faith. Jim decided to have another talk with Pat.

MAY 28, 1965 (EP. #268)
Jim begrudgingly told Pat that he unintentionally gave her the impression that he disapproves of John's proposal. Mary assured Alice that Jim didn't mean to exclude her in engineering a private talk with Pat about John. Alice sulked over waiting years before she receives a marriage proposal, then told Mary that Pat would be remiss to let John slip away from her. Jim had mixed emotions while telling Pat that she can count on the family's full support whether she accepts John's proposal or rejects it. John tried to be relaxed and expansive while having dinner with Lee, but dodged her questions about seeming pre-occupied. Lee was wary as John hinted at Lee needing different things as she gets older and that the life they have lived may be inadequate for her now. John inadvertently caused Lee to leave in tears after he reflected on Lee having a father who works too much and growing up without another female in her life. Janet was grateful to be relieved of boredom when Pat arrived. Pat raved to Janet about John's patience, but spoke regretfully of the terrible events linked to the last time she thought she was in love. Janet ruefully told Pat that a failing within her has kept her from marriage. Janet pleaded for Pat not to let fear and indecision dictate her choices, to listen to her heart, and to accept love rather than being lonely and single like her. John sat with bated breath as Pat apologized for making him wait for days since he proposed. Pat wasn't mollified by John's certainty in Lee adjusting and growing to love Pat with time. John was fearful as Pat prepared to tell him everything that happened in Bedfordtown before revealing her decision.

Jim: "Well -- if you want dinner that quickly, you'd better go out and help your mother make it."
Alice: "I'd love to, but you know how Mom is about her kitchen. After dinner, washing and wiping, fine -- but when she's creating -- stay out unless invited!"

Alice: "If someone like Mr. Randolph had asked me to marry him. I wouldn't have wasted all this time making up my mind. I'd have said yes before he finished the sentence!"
Mary: (SMILING) "Marriage is a very important step, Alice. I hope, when it's time for you to make that decision, you'll give it all the thought it deserves."
Alice: (RUEFULLY) "Who knows if that day will ever come."
Mary: "What?"
Alice: (SHRUGGING) "I'm eighteen. It could be years before I get a proposal -- if I ever do."
Mary: (LAUGHING) "What are you talking about? You sound like nobody likes you. You have more offers for dates than you can possibly accept."
Alice: "Dates, yes -- but serious, interesting men like Mr. Randolph? No such luck."
Mary: (LAUGHING) "There's plenty of time for that."

MAY 31, 1965 (EP. #269)
Pat told John that she was certain that she didn't belong with decent people and was especially troubled over contaminating Alice, who had always looked up to her. Pat sped away in her car without a destination in mind, but was seeking a place where she was among corrupted people such as herself. After driving aimlessly, Pat left her car at a pier and dashed away. Pat walked through Bedfordtown frightened by looks she received from people on the street, then retreated into a hotel when a hood made suggestive remarks and sexual advances. The hotel clerk essayed a ghastly grin while offering his services due to the lack of bellboys, then scoffed at the obvious alias she used to rent a room. She remained in her room until the third day when she walked to a coffee house for food. A beatnik named Larry tried to talk to Pat, who remained silent while waiting for her food to arrive. Pat mistook Larry for Tom due to confusion and dizzy spells, grabbed her food, and headed back to the hotel. Jim informed Mary that he gave approval for Pat to accept John's proposal. Mary conceded to Jim that neither of them are objective regarding John. Mary told Jim that she isn't thrilled over Pat consulting Janet because of her aversion to marriage. Janet confided to Ernest that she may have pushed Pat into a decision, but spoke from being consumed by loneliness. Ernest got Janet to admit that her speech to Pat was applicable to her own life and that she is rethinking marriage. Pat told John that she was keenly aware that Larry was following her, but convinced herself that they were alike. The hotel clerk grinned after spotting Larry and Pat heading to her room.

Production Notes: Normal Hall served as Director for this episode. The scenes in Bedfordtown were pre-recorded on May 27-29 and presented as flashbacks, which took place while Pat was absent from the April 13-22, 1965 episodes.

Production Notes: "That all the flashbacks are as remembered by Pat, so there can be the slightest exaggeration in faces, lighting, etc. In other words, her terror has colored her memory of it. This must be used judiciously of course. But we shouldn't lose the nightmare effect of those days."

Act I: Cy's Place featuring John and Pat during the flashbacks.


Pat: "I don't know how long I walked. It was a nightmare. The people looked like they didn't belong in that other world either. I wondered what they were running away from -- what they'd done. I thought, 'They wouldn't care what I'd done.' And I thought, 'Maybe -- maybe this is where I belong."
Man: (MOVING TO HER) "Hi, baby. What's the matter? You lost?" (CU/PAT, PARALYZED WITH FEAR. MOVING TO HER) "No speak English? Maybe we don't need it."
Man: (STOPPING) "Oh. She speaks the language. Cool. What's -- what's an elegant cat like you doing down here? This doesn't look like your scene -- but I'd be glad to give you a guided tour." (HE REACHES FOR HER HAND. SHE BACKS AWAY IN PANIC). "Cool it, baby. I'm not gonna bite you. We'll swing a little, that's all." (THEY ARE IN FRONT OF A SMALL, TACKY BUILDING WITH A SIGN THAT SAYS: HOTEL, ROOMS BY DAY OR WEEK. PAT TURNS AND BOLTS INTO THE HOTEL, LEAVING THE MAN STANDING ALONE. HE STANDS, STARING AFTER HER) "Don't blow your cool, baby." (BUT SHE IS GONE. HE SHRUGS, SHAKES HIS HEAD) "She'll never make this scene. Back to finishing school." (AND HE GOES OFF).

Description of Pat's hotel room: "...The room is very small, barely room for more than a bed, chair and dresser. The furnishings are better left undescribed -- Salvation Army rejects.

Act II: Coffee House (Live in Studio) "It is a typical beatnik coffee house, small, crowed with tiny tables and wire-backed chairs. There is jazz, from hi-fi, not a jukebox. The waitress has stringy hair, a dumpy figure and black stockings. Needless to say she wears no make-up. The patrons are bearded, jeaned, rather grimy. It is not ordinarily a frightening or shocking atmosphere. To Pat, especially in memory, it is.....A young man, less tough looking than the first one Pat encountered, but no less beat. He is sitting alone at a table, his eyes intent on Pat. He wears blue-jeans, a rather tattered sweater. He studies Pat a moment, then rises and goes to her table, sits. (CU/PAT; SHE TENSES)
Larry: "I don't remember seeing you in here before. This is a new scene for you?" (PAT IS SILENT) "You cool -- or cold?" (NO ANSWER) "Nothin' wrong with cool! But cold! Man, that's nowhere! Right?" (HE STUDIES HER, SMILES SLIGHTLY) "No. You don't look cold. You're not that square. You must be new around here, 'cause I know every chick in this neighborhood, and I sure wouldn't have forgotten you if I'd ever seen you. You're something else." (HE GLANCES AROUND, REACHES INTO HIS SHIRT POCKET AND TAKES OUT A SINGLE CIGARETTE, HOLDS IT OUT TO PAT) "You use 'em?" (NO ANSWER, HE SHRUGS) "Okay, forget it." (HE STUDIES HER AGAIN) "I can't figure you. There's nothing wrong with your pipes, is there. I mean you can talk if you want to, can't you?" (HE CONTINUES TO TALK, BUT HIS VOICE HAS FADED DOWN AND WE HEAR PAT'S)
Pat: "At first I was afraid to get up and go out. I thought, "He'll follow me, and outside it'll be worse than here..." I thought, "I'm no better than he is -- no matter how he talks or what he does. I'll bet he's never killed another human being -- or murdered a baby before it was born. How can I dare to think I'm better than he is? This is exactly where I belong."

JUNE 1, 1965 (EP. #270)
Pat recalled that she didn't grasp the precarious situation of Larry following her due to feeling dizzy, light-headed, and numb after going three days without eating. Larry grew violent when Pat spurned his sexual advances. She became hysterical while insisting to Larry that she wasn't playing games, then flung herself onto the bed and sobbed after Larry shoved her around and stormed out in a fury. Pat found a prescription for sedatives that Ernest had written that she never filled. Pat came to the harsh realization that she didn't belong in any world, but felt a sense of calm because she had devised an escape. Janet told Ernest that she gets physically ill over thoughts of Pat repeating her mistakes in letting fears and doubts preclude her happiness and letting love slip away. Ernest asked Janet whether he is the beneficiary of her new outlook on marriage. Janet helped Ernest gain some optimism in the two of them building a future. Dru was distressed as Lee carped on John and Pat being together and their age difference. Lee bitterly told Dru that she is tired of waiting for John to be truthful with her about Pat. A druggist at the pharmacy named Otto was alarmed by Pat's visible anxiety and refusal to take a business card for refills of the prescription she had filled. Pat wrote a suicide note addressed to Jim and Mary. John told Pat that the hotel clerk recognized her from the description he provided and gave him a key to her room. John revealed to Pat that he paid the opportunistic and greedy hotel clerk for the bottle of pills and suicide note, which he quickly destroyed to cover Pat's tracks. Pat happily accepted John's marriage proposal.

Pat: (NOT FRIGHTENED; ANGRY) "Let go of me."
Larry: "Sure -- when you tell me what kind of game we're playing."
Pat: "No game."
Larry: (FURIOUS) "No? Then what'd you let me come with you for? Why didn't you say something before? Why'd you wait until we were practically in there?" (HE INDICATES HER ROOM)
Pat: "I didn't tell you to come with me!"
Larry: "You didn't say no!! I just figured that was your style -- cool!"
Larry: "You know what you deserve, acting like this..." (SHE STRUGGLES TO GET FREE)
Pat: "Let go of me! Let go of me!"
Pat: "Now, I knew something -- something frightening, something terrible. I didn't belong in this world either. Not in the other one with my family -- and not in this one. I had the answer I'd run away to find -- and it was a horrible answer. There wasn't any world for me. I didn't belong anywhere."

JUNE 2, 1965 (EP. #271)
Pat was radiant as Alice burst into tears over her consenting to marry John. Mary accused Jim of allowing Pat to seek advice from Janet in hopes that she would convince Pat to decline John's proposal. Pat announced her engagement to John to Jim and Mary. Mary ecstatically embraced Pat while Jim wished for her to have all the joy in the world. Jim dismissed accepting credit in helping Pat make a decision, but echoed Pat's hopes in successfully facing any obstacles that come their way. Mary agreed to fulfill Pat's dream of being a June bride and relished in making Pat's wedding the best day of her life. Jim readily approved of Pat's request to have an intimate ceremony at the house and limit the guest list to family and close friends. Alice beamed over Pat appointing her maid of honor. Jim couldn't bring himself to partake in Mary, Pat, and Alice's merriment. Dru stunned Jim by having first-hand knowledge of John being guilt-ridden over breaching his trust, but noted that John is honest and truly remorseful over hurting Pat. Jim told Dru that he must accept John and Pat's impending nuptials. Dru was without answers when Jim griped about John disregarding his age difference to Pat and Lee needing an older, mature woman for maternal support. Lee emphasized to John that she prefers the life they have shared for many years. John confirmed Lee's fears by revealing that Pat has accepted his proposal. Lee accused John of acting selfishly, but figured her protests were in vain because it wouldn't change his mind. John fueled Lee's sorrow by wishing for the three of them to be together and asked Lee to be open-minded towards Pat.

Notes: Mary reveals that her and Jim's wedding day took place in November and that it rained heavily.

JUNE 3, 1965 (EP. #272)
Alice envied Pat, who blissfully described being safe, secure, and comfortable with John. Pat remarked to Alice that she wanted to marry Tom out of desperation and her love for John developed gradually and is unique. Mary and Pat enthusiastically started making wedding plans. Pat agreed to have Mrs. Tomasso create custom-made dresses after Mary opined that a woman's wedding dress is special and carries all the happy memories of her wedding day. Mary struck down making Lee a bridesmaid per Pat's advice. Dru was skeptical over Lee's rants about love causing people to do terrible things and John marrying Pat. Lee scoffed at the notion of Pat being worthy of John, but couldn't rebuke Dru's thesis that she wouldn't think any woman good enough for him. Dru convinced Lee to make an effort to know Pat since they will be a family and she must accept the marriage regardless of her own opinions. Janet told Jim that Pat's inquiry into the reason she has never married stirred lonely and unfulfilled feelings within her and she couldn't bear Pat taking her path by living without love. Jim wasn't angry with Janet and sincerely hoped for John and Pat to have the best marriage. Janet sympathized with Jim, who intended to keep balance and reason to prevent Pat from being swept into the excitement and sentiment of planning the wedding. Cy Coleman congratulated John and Pat on their engagement and played a song as a dedication to them. Pat joked to John that wedding planning is complicated. John decided to take the Matthews family out for dinner. Pat gazed lovingly at John as he slipped an engagement ring onto her finger.

Notes: It appears the Prologue was replaced or interrupted by an NBC News Bulletin, though the script notes are somewhat vague. Composer, songwriter, and jazz pianist Cy Coleman appeared as himself in this episode at the restaurant "Cy's Place."

JUNE 4, 1965 (EP. #273)
Bill and Pat joined forces to get Mary and Liz to make amends. Pat told Bill that she planned to invite Missy to the wedding because they are very good friends. Bill fretted to Pat about Missy's inferiority complex towards Liz and pushing him away. Pat stressed to Bill the importance of Lee being included in the wedding plans because of her closeness to John. John brightened when Lee agreed to help Pat choose music for the wedding reception. Lee chose to be agreeable to John's plans of rearranging the apartment to be less crowded for them while also accommodating Pat. Bill breached the awkward moment of Missy declining Liz's offer to share a nightcap to tell Missy that Pat will call to discuss the engagement and extended a wedding invitation to her. Liz approved of Pat's wishes to have a small, intimate ceremony to keep the excitement and potential publicity to a minimum. Bill insisted that it is up to Pat to discuss the five days she was missing when Liz made an issue of Pat keeping the details secret. Liz was sincere in telling Missy that she is pleased over her upcoming high school graduation. Missy tried unsuccessfully to discourage Bill from throwing her a graduation party while Liz stalled in making any definitive plans. Jim and Lee dissembled as Mary raved to John about the decor of "The Cascade." John joked to Mary that Lee forces him to stand inspection to ensure that his clothes match, leading Pat to make a mental note and Lee to cringe. Lee managed a partial smile after Pat expressed confidence in Lee finding a wonderful man like John to marry and looked at the engagement ring. John and Pat settled on June 24th as their wedding date.

Liz: "Are you sure you wouldn't like anything dear? Just a little aperitif? It's not very strong, and the French say it's the key to the appetite."
Missy: "No, thank you, Mrs. Matthews. I don't need a key to my appetite. It's always ready."

JUNE 7, 1965 (EP. #274)
Lee feigned a cheerful mood to match John's when he requested flexibility as they prepare for the wedding. John commended Lee for her sincere efforts in being polite and cordial to the Matthews family at "The Cascade" during dinner. Lee didn't respond towards John's assertion that Pat is difficult to dislike, but quickly swore that she wasn't offended that Mary's first choice in wedding dates fell on the day of her graduation. John readily approved of throwing a graduation party for Lee, under her stipulation that she share being guest of honor with Missy. Pat told Missy that she and John are getting married on June 24th. Missy was touched when Pat asked her to be a bridesmaid, but was troubled by Pat's hopes to make Lee one as well. Pat was fair-minded over Missy and Lee's budding friendship, but determined to bond with Lee because of the estrangement potentially affecting her marriage to John. Missy urged Pat to focus on loving John and not let Lee spoil her happiness. Pat told Missy that she and Bill are trying to get Mary and Liz to make amends. Jim encouraged Mary to take Pat's lead and forgive Liz and invite her to the wedding. Mary was perplexed when Jim equated her blaming Liz for Pat running away to wrongly assuming that Janet would discourage Pat from accepting John's marriage proposal. Jim made full disclosure of Janet's speech to Pat to Mary, who called Liz to arrange a lunch date. John was grateful to Dru for trying to help Jim reconcile with his grievances about him. Dru was relieved that Pat leveled with John about the days she was missing. Dru felt the pride and fears of a father when John asked him to be his best man.

John: "You can have anyone you want -- a hundred people if you'd like."
Lee: "I don't have a hundred people I'd like to ask."
John: (SMILING) "All right, then make a list of the people you would like to invite and we'll start making plans."
Lee: (LOOKING AT HIM, HESITANT) "There's one person..." (SHE STOPS)
Lee: "Well, it's not just a guest. It's Missy."
John: "Melissa Palmer? Well, of course you can have her. Why would you even ask?"
Lee: "I don't mean just as a guest. She -- she doesn't have any family. She's all alone. I'm sure she won't have a party on graduation day. If I'm going to have a party, I want it to be for her too -- I mean, her party too, in honor of her." (CU/JOHN, HE LOOKS AT LEE, HIS LOOK OF CONFUSION DISAPPEARS, REPLACED BY A WARM SMILE. HE BENDS AND KISSES LEE'S CHEEK. SHE LOOKS AT HIM SURPRISED)
John: (QUIETLY) "I congratulate myself." (LEE LOOKS AT HIM, PUZZLED) "I raised a very -- nice daughter. Of course it'll be Missy's party too..."

JUNE 8, 1965 (EP. #275)
Liz understood when Mary wistfully predicted having more free time once the children leave home and get married. Mary apologized for being harsh with Liz because of her angst over Pat's ordeals, but skirted the issue of Liz reiterating that her proposition was misconstrued. Liz made an analogy of John marrying Pat being a fairy tale, prompting Mary to counter that John is a solid person and Pat's decision to marry John wasn't impetuous. Mary told Liz that Pat would like her, Bill, and Susan to attend the wedding, which Liz gladly accepted. Dru advised Pat that John is lucky to have found her when Pat questioned whether she was worthy of John. Pat told Dru that she is conscientious of Lee needing a mature, older woman as a maternal influence, but hoped Lee would accept her eventually as a friend. Dru was moved by Pat's generous character and approved of her idea to make Lee a bridesmaid. Liz opined to Bill that John and Pat's romance had a fairy tale quality, then debated with Bill on love being subjective and whether Pat considered marriage carefully before making a decision. Bill agreed to write to Susan to encourage her to attend the wedding. Liz temporized Bill's plans to throw Missy a graduation party by using Missy's tendency to decline gifts and kind gestures as excuses. John advised Pat that she was right to show Lee the engagement ring. Pat upheld her stance on sharing responsibility of Lee with John, despite him mentioning that Lee is seventeen and very independent. John was optimistic over Pat and Lee bonding over time. Pat persuaded John to buy a gift for Lee's graduation, but promised to help pick something out.

Dru: "I'm very proud of that young man, Miss Matthews. He's a good man -- and an honest one."
Pat: "I know."
Dru: "He's subject to mistakes -- like all the rest of us -- and he's made his share -- but the basic stuff in John Randolph is good -- very good. You're getting an exceptional man, Miss Matthews."
Pat: (A SHADOW ON HER FACE, QUIETLY) "I know. I just hope I can be worthy of him." (CU/DRU; HE LOOKS AT HER)
Dru: "The only word I can think of that properly describes John at the moment is "lucky" -- lucky to have found a young woman like you."
Pat: "Thank you, Mr. Dru. You're very kind. I -- I've always felt that about you -- and Dad's told me so many things about you."
Dru: (SMILING) "Only believe half of them -- the good half."
Pat: (about Lee) "If she'll accept me."
Dru: "I have a feeling she will. Your kind of honesty and good will is very hard to resist, Patricia. If John hadn't proposed to you and I were thirty years younger, I'd give that young man a little competition."
Pat: (SMILING) "You could give any man competition just as you are, Mr. Dru."
Dru: (SMILING) "That's the first dishonest thing I've ever heard you say, but somehow I can forgive you for it."

John: (to Pat) "You see - how naturally you and Lee are going to fall into step. I'm sure, in a few weeks I won't be able to get a word in edgewise with you two chattering at each other."

Notes: Actor Charles Detraz played an unknown role in this episode. The scripts are inconclusive on whether he was a Day Player or temporary replacement.

JUNE 9, 1965 (EP. #276)
Italian seamstress Angelina Tomasso urged Mary and Pat to have faith in her talents. Lee was impressed by Missy's ambition to study social work in college. Missy asked Lee to keep secret that she applied for a scholarship to avoid possible embarrassment over not getting it. Lee convinced Missy to throw a graduation party for the two of them by pointing out the importance of celebrating such a milestone. Missy cautiously mentioned Pat making her a bridesmaid to Lee, who surmised that John and Pat are too focused on the wedding to care about her feelings. Pat was stricken when Mrs. Tomasso emphasized the importance of having children in a marriage. Alice gushed over a dress being made specifically for her. Pat asked Mrs. Tomasso to make another dress for Lee in the event that she agrees to be a bridesmaid. Mary tried to ease Pat's sadness over being unable to bear children for John. Ernest was certain that Janet would charm his foster parents, Bert and Cora Gregory. Janet blushed as Bert and Cora showered her with compliments on her beauty. Ernest jokingly warned Bert to mind his manners around Janet while he and Cora left to make drinks. Bert was fascinated that Janet was an art editor and showed interest in seeing her work. Cora told Ernest that Alex and Karen want to return because of a good business opportunity. Ernest almost brusquely reminded Cora that he didn't force Alex and Karen to leave and that they shouldn't have second thoughts of coming because of the past. Ernest told Janet that he and Alex knew that they were adopted, but could never envision anyone except Bert and Cora being their parents. Janet startled Ernest by posing the question on whether he is upset over the prospect of seeing Karen more than Alex.

Cora: (Introduction Line, to Janet) "Hello, Mrs. Matthews, come in."

Bert: (Introduction Line) (SHAKING JANET'S HAND WITH BOTH HIS, WARMLY) "How do you do, my dear." (TURNING TO ERNEST, JANET'S HANDS STILL IN HIS) "Son, you lied to us."
Ernest: "How?"
Bert: "You said Miss Matthews was beautiful. That was such a gross understatement, it verges on the insult."
Janet: (LAUGHING) "Ernest told me about your brilliant bedside manner, Dr. Gregory. I see what he meant."
Bert: "That bedside manner was retired with my medical practice. I'm absolutely sincere. All Ernest's raving didn't do you justice."
Ernest: (GRINNING) "'ll give Dad a chance to have a moment alone with Janet, and I can see that's what he's had in mind since we arrived."
Bert: (WAVING A HAND AT ERNEST) "You just go off and make your drinks and don't worry about us -- and don't try to prejudice the lady against me. She can form her own conclusions."
Ernest: "I'm sure she already has." (TO JANET) "If he gets out of hand, just holler."

Notes: First appearance of House Jameson as Dr. Burton (Bert) Gregory and Florence Williams as Cora Gregory. Ernest reveals that Bert is a retired general practitioner.

JUNE 10, 1965 (EP. #277)
Bill smiled affectionately at Missy, who enthused over having a dress made for her and taking it out periodically to remember Pat's wedding. Missy was relieved that Pat's wishes for Mary and Liz to make amends were fulfilled. Bill unwittingly trapped Missy into choosing Lee's graduation plans over his because she didn't want to face Liz. Bill cheerfully told Missy that he gained ground in helping her become more social. Bert chided Cora and Ernest for pestering him about leading a healthy lifestyle, then groused over retirement and specialists having pretentious job titles. Bert and Cora told Ernest that they enjoyed meeting Janet and respected his taste in women. Ernest told Bert and Cora that Janet had been a patient of his ten years ago, that they reconnected after he treated Pat for an illness, and have been seeing each other. Bert and Cora sensed that Ernest's words belied his tense demeanor over the news that Alex accepted the job opportunity and will be returning with Karen. Ernest snapped at Cora for implying that he may still be in love with Karen. Pat tried valiantly to break through Lee's icy reception by commending her for including Missy in her party plans and raving about Missy graduating with high marks. Lee was taken aback when Pat asked her to be a bridesmaid and stumbled in making excuses to graciously decline the offer. Pat informed John and Lee that she won't crowd either of them or disrupt any long-standing routines in the household. Lee tried to protest Mrs. Weber staying with her while John and Pat go on their honeymoon or letting them postpone it so she wouldn't be alone. John danced with Pat as Lee studied them quietly.

Ernest: "How have you been feeling, Dad?"
Bert: "Tip-top."
Ernest: "You haven't been overdoing?"
Bert: "Of course not."
Ernest: (SITTING; TO HIS MOTHER) "That true, Mom?"
Cora: (WITH A GLANCE AT BERT) "Well, I can't keep an eye on him every minute of the day, but when he's within sight, he's behaving."
Bert: "What can I do to tire myself? I've retired from medicine, I've given up tennis -- and cigars. My life is as placid as a pond in August. And you still both buzz around me like flies."
Ernest: (SMILING) "Because we know you. Just because you're a doctor doesn't mean you're going to follow the doctor's advice."
Bert: "All these specialists! Excuse me, son -- I know you're a specialist and a fine doctor -- but the day of the general practitioner isn't dead. These doctors today all have to have fancy titles after their names: internist, orthopedist, ophthalmologist. Time was when a man was satisfied -- and proud -- to have M.D. after his name."

Pat: "The music's started again. You're not very gallant, John. Aren't you going to ask Lee to dance? I'd love to see you two dance together. I'll bet you're very good."
John: "Lee?"
Lee: "Please, you two dance. I'd rather just stay here. I think I will have some more coffee."
John: "Pat? Shall we show Lee our imitation of Ginger Rogers and Fred Astaire? If she knows who they are."
Lee: "Of course I do. I see old-time movies."
John: "Old-time! We'll discuss that after this dance."

JUNE 11, 1965 (EP. #278)
Dru sensed rightly that Lee longed for life with John prior to meeting Pat and lauded her endeavors in getting to know her. Lee told Dru that being around Pat is grueling, but doesn't want to be a troublemaker to John. Dru gave Lee sage advice on accepting her feelings and going through a profound adjustment with John and Pat. Lee flatly told Dru that she refuses to be part of the wedding and is attending for John's sake. Janet was too tired from work to debate Ken's place in her life with Ernest. Ernest told Janet that she made an excellent impression on Bert and Cora, then reflected that Bert inspired him to become a doctor due to his personable bedside manner and exceptional practice. Janet broached the subject of Alex and Karen after Ernest remarked that his family were close because Bert and Cora were warm, loving parents. Ernest tried to assure Janet that seeing Alex and Karen wouldn't affect him, then became exasperated when Janet noted that he has been uptight since learning of their plans to return. Janet listened intently as Ernest described Alex as a successful businessman who kept Karen company per Ernest's request while he was at the hospital. Ernest grew bitter as he recounted to Janet that Alex and Karen abruptly left town after getting married. Missy was wary when Lee asked whether she has any family to invite to the graduation party. Lee was incredulous towards Missy's belief that John is excited about throwing the party for them. John told Pat that he is honored and proud to be her future husband. Pat confided in John about her sterility affecting their marriage, prompting John to declare himself the richest, most blessed and fulfilled man in the world who doesn't need to have children with her.

JUNE 14, 1965 (EP. #279)
Pat told Mary that John knows everything that happened during the five days she ran away. Mary was thrilled that Pat found a confidante in John, but fretted over Lee's negative reaction to the marriage despite seeming like an easygoing, affable teenager. Pat informed Mary that she doesn't want to push Lee into being a bridesmaid or impede on her and John's relationship since they have been extremely close since Lee's mother died. Mary felt comforted by Pat's confidence in having a happy marriage with John. Bert and Cora tried to muster optimism over Ernest and Alex reconciling after eleven years without any contact between them. Cora blamed herself for Ernest and Alex's estrangement and being unable to prevent Alex and Karen from getting married. Bert tried to mollify Cora by insisting that the situation with their sons is not a reflection on them as parents. John mused over making sacrifices to appease Lee when Pat resisted going on an extended trip to Hawaii or the Caribbean. Pat asked John to tone down his displays of affection for fear that Lee would arrive home unexpectedly. John and Pat settled on Santa Isabel for their honeymoon and blissfully thought of swimming, fishing, and lying on the beach together. Mike Quinn was puzzled that Lee remained glum despite coming to "The Joint." Lee told Mike that she is upset over John getting remarried, but refrained from giving him any details. Mike was shocked over Lee's fury when he innocently pointed out that any woman who marries John will lawfully be her stepmother. John and Pat shared a slow dance at Cy's Place.

Mike: (Introduction Line, to Lee) "Well, if you don't want to dance, and you didn't want a soda, why did you want to come here?"

Notes: First appearance of Mike Quinn, a college sophomore who is Lee's boyfriend. "Debut" of the teenage hangout "The Joint."

JUNE 15, 1965 (EP. #280)
Lee angrily stared at Rusty and a group of teenagers, who became embarrassed over talking about Pat and John. Mike sympathized with Lee, but tried to diffuse her by reasoning that Pat may be much different than her portrayal in the newspapers. Lee told Mike that celebrating Missy's high school graduation is the only thing that has stopped her from cancelling the party. Missy was petrified over going to a party in her honor and squirmed when Bill guessed rightly that she had chosen Lee's plans over his. Bill told Missy that he is excited over attending her graduation and convinced Missy to save a ticket to the ceremony for Liz. Missy reminisced about getting a job at the Kopper Kettle to be near the college campus and fantasizing about being a student while listening to customers talk about classes, dances, and sports games. Bill tenderly told Missy that her parents would be proud if they were still alive. Dru jested with Lee on depriving him of toasting to her graduation and dancing together when Lee carped on Pat's presence at the party becoming a spectacle. Lee begged Dru to persuade John into cancelling the party because she expects to continue to be bombarded with reminders of the wedding. Dru tried unsuccessfully to assure Lee that she would remain the focus of the party. John and Pat selected a ring with Lee's birthstone as a graduation present. Pat confessed to John that she feels guilty that their names appearing in the newspapers will tarnish his reputation. John informed Pat that he finalized their plans for Santa Isabel with a travel agent. John and Pat piqued the interest of a saleslady as she watched them leave the jewelry store.

Notes: Newspaper read at "Kopper Kettle" with headline of, "Matthews Girl Marrying Attorney Who Defended Her in Murder Trial."

JUNE 16, 1965 (EP. #281)
Missy secretly wrote a note to Bill while waiting for him to pick her up. Bill smiled tenderly as Missy admitted that she looked at her cap and gown to convince herself that graduating from high school was a reality. Missy was amused when Bill joked about containing his excitement once she accepts her diploma, then masked relief that Liz wasn't attending the ceremony because of a previous engagement. Bill tried to persuade Missy into accepting a loan to continue her education rather than getting a job to start paying him back for the first one. John and Lee groused over it raining on the day of her graduation. Lee was reduced to tears when John confessed that he was remiss for doubting his abilities in raising her as a single father and expressed tremendous pride towards her. John felt troubled yet compassionate towards Lee, who raved about sharing quality time together after weeks of distractions. John and Lee's housekeeper, Mrs. Emma Webber beamed while admiring Lee's diploma and being introduced to Pat for the first time. Lee was stunned by her graduation present and was genuinely gracious and sincere in thanking Pat for helping John pick it out for her. Bill congratulated John on Lee's graduation and his engagement to Pat. Jim joked about the young people monopolizing the dance floor and asked John to change the music before dancing with Alice. Lee's temper flared as she overheard her friends gossiping about all the turmoil Pat had endured because of Tom and her engagement to John. John was astonished to find Lee missing while he was gathering everyone together so that Dru could make a toast to Lee and Missy.

Missy's letter to Bill: "How do you thank someone for giving you something you wanted more than anything else in the world -- and thought you could never have? That's why I'm writing this letter, Bill -- because I could never say it to you when we're together -- and there's so much I want to say to you. You'll be here in a minute so I have to stop writing, but I'd like you to know one thing: an hour or so from now, when I go up on that platform to take my high school diploma, at the moment they give it to me, inside I'm going to be saying, 'Thank you Bill -- with all my heart -- for what you've given me.' Your friend forever, Missy."

John: "I don't have a lot to say to you, Lee. It's just this. When Lee -- when your mother died, you were a very little girl. And I was worried. I wondered how I could possibly raise you without your mother. I couldn't believe that I'd be able to do a good job. I was so afraid you'd turn out badly -- and it wouldn't be your fault -- it would be mine. Well, it's not a very modest thing to say, but my worries were needless. I think you've turned out wonderfully, Lee. I'm so proud of you today, I can't even express it. I think I didn't do a bad job after all -- but most of all it was you. You just had it in you. You're very much you mother's daughter, with all the wonderful qualities Lee had -- and quite a few of your own. And when they call your name today, when they say, Lee Randolph, another Lee Randolph will hear it. I know that -- and she'll be as proud as I am."

Notes: Description of Mrs. Emma Weber: "She is a warm, round, robust woman in her fifties, very hearty and Mittel Europa (Central European), even to her accent."

JUNE 17, 1965 (EP. #282)
Lee walked aimlessly and oblivious to the rain, then stared at a wedding gown displayed in a department store window. Everyone gave John compliments on the party and comforting gestures over Lee as they left. Mrs. Weber declined John's offer to leave early and began to clean up the apartment. John and Dru were puzzled over Lee's abrupt departure despite the party going well and Lee being pleased with her present. Dru decided to go home in case Lee calls while John canvassed the neighborhood. John refused to let Pat blame herself over causing Lee to abandon the party without telling anyone. Alice raved to Jim and Mary about John and Pat making a perfect couple. Jim and Mary told Alice that Russ may be sent to private school so that he can receive some tutoring to help him graduate this summer. Alice noted the affectionate way Bill looks at Missy to Jim and Mary while they waited for news on Lee. Missy sheepishly told Bill that she wrote the note to articulate her feelings to him. Missy gushed over receiving graduation presents, but fibbed to Bill that she used to get some from her parents when she was a little girl. Bill and Missy tenderly embraced after she gladly accepted his gift of a necklace with his class ring. Dru was stunned to find Lee soaking wet and hugging her knees for warmth. Dru felt pained that Lee allowed herself to be disgusted over her friends' statements about Pat while they watched her dance with John. Lee griped to Dru that people are going to ridicule John because he and Pat are wrong for each other. Dru asked Lee to elaborate on her snide remark about John not searching for her as vigorously as Pat.

Notes: John mistakenly gives Dru's full name as Michael Dru in this episode.

JUNE 18, 1965 (EP. #283)
John and Pat were relieved to hear that Dru was bringing Lee home. Dru intervened in John interrogating Lee on her reasons for leaving the party so she could get out of her rain-soaked clothes and into a hot bath. John and Pat grew upset as Dru explained that Lee was bothered by her friends' comments about Pat and the final straw was when the boys started placing bets on asking Pat for a dance. John adamantly refused Pat's suggestion that they postpone the wedding to give Lee more time to adjust by maintaining that it would only enable Lee's defiance. Dru tried to convince Pat that Lee will eventually come to know her as the lovely person she is. Pat emphatically told a self-conscious John that she is marrying him for love and doesn't care about their age difference. John warned Pat against cancelling the wedding and their honeymoon plans to appease Lee's childish, mercurial reactions. Lee chose to sulk in her bedroom rather than face John and Pat. Mary empathized with Lee's struggles to adjust because of having John to herself for many years, but protested Pat's stance that Lee regards her as an ex-client of John's. Jim and Mary were on opposing sides over postponing the wedding with Mary echoing John's opposition and Jim advocating Pat and John solving issues with Lee first. Jim cautioned Mary against dismissing the significance of Lee causing problems for John and Pat. Lee was contrite to John over leaving the apartment without notice. John had Lee consider that she was trying to rationalize her feelings towards Pat by inventing reasons to justify disliking her. John had Lee get into bed after noticing that she was shivering.

JUNE 21, 1965 (EP. #284)
Liz didn't share Bill's enthusiasm over Pat's upcoming wedding. She reminded him that Pat's inability to have children came out in court, and that it will create problems for John. Jim confided in Janet that he may have been wrong not to tell Mary that John had tried to make love to Pat before she ran away. He said he was distrustful of John for other reasons, including that he was 17 years older than Pat. Jim wasn't angry when Janet said she'd told Pat she'd approved of her marriage plans because then Pat wouldn't be alone like Janet was. Alice sulked when Pat ignored her idea and chose Mary's idea of having the wedding in front of the fireplace in the living room. Pat joked about Alice's enthusiasm as maid of honor. Everyone was impressed when Pat described her honeymoon in Miami. Pat reassured Jim she loved John.

Headline of Newspaper: "Matthews Girl Marrying Attorney Who Defended Her In Murder Trial."

Pat: (To Jim) "I honestly believe I'm going to have as good a marriage as yours and Mom's."

JUNE 22, 1965 (EP. #285)
Dru and John reminisced on their 20-year friendship. John was touched that Dru considered Pat a daughter to replace his ward/daughter who was very far away. Lee was the only unhappy participant at the wedding rehearsal at the Matthews house, which was also attended by Jim, Mary, Pat, Alice, Russ, Missy, John, Dru, and Reverend Carlson. The night before the wedding, Lee tried to beg off attending, but John wouldn't hear of it. Alice ran to get Mary when Pat had night terrors, and Mary hummed Pat to sleep.

Dru: (To John) "I never had a son, until I met you."

Mary: (To the sleeping form of her daughter Pat) "Goodbye, my baby. Goodbye, my Pat."

Notes: Appearance by Joey Trent as Russ Matthews.

JUNE 23, 1965 (EP. #286)
After Mrs. Weber (Randolph housekeeper and "German Mother Earth") assured John she would look after Lee during his honeymoon, he told Lee he would always love her. Dru scolded Lee about ruining John's big day with her sulking. Pat assured a forlorn Alice they will always be a part of each other's lives. Mary joked to Russ, Pat, and Alice that the women are the sentimental ones in the family for abiding by the wedding tradition of the bride having something borrowed, blue, old, and new. Missy blushed when Pat told her she was going to throw the bouquet her way. John and his best man Dru waited by the fireplace while down the staircase came Mary, Missy, Alice, and finally Pat in her wedding dress escorted by Jim.

Pat: (Upon waking up) "It's my wedding day!"

Alice: "You said, 'absolutely fresh and new.' That reminded me.."
Pat: "Of what?"
Alice: "Something old, something new, something borrowed, something blue. You have to have them all, Pat. It's good luck."

Notes: Appearance by Randolph cousin Anita Corby. Appearance by Joey Trent as Russ Matthews.

Production Notes: Request of four extras for John and Pat's wedding reception. Also included, is a suggestion that the extras be cousins of the Randolph family as, "they would have cousins anyway."

JUNE 24, 1965 (EP. #287)
Reverend Carlson conducted Pat and John's emotional and lovely wedding. The wedding was attended by Jim, Mary, Janet, Ernest, Alice, Russ, Liz, Bill, Missy, Dru, and Lee. Dru then Jim toasted the bride and groom, who led the first dance. Pat and John left for their honeymoon under a hail of rice. Dru tried to comfort an unconsolable Lee, whom he calls "Rosebud" affectionately.

John: "I, John Anthony Randolph, take thee, Patricia, to be my wedded wife..."
Pat: "I, Patricia Ellen Matthews, take thee, John, to be my wedded husband..."

John: "This ring I give thee, in token and pledge, of our constant faith and abiding love."

Jim: "Take good care of her."
John: "I will."

Pat: "Through half the ceremony all I could hear was Alice sniffing in my ear."
Alice: "What!?"

Production Notes: "Count for time in prologue," and "Please Save This Tape."
John and Pat's wedding ceremony. Cast sheet indicated, "SAME AS EP. #286," which included Joey Trent as Russ Matthews and Randolph cousin, Anita Corby.

Notes: Final appearance of Joey Trent as Russ Matthews.

JUNE 25, 1965 (EP. #288)
Pat and John arrived at their private honeymoon cottage in Santa Isabella. Lee had a nightmare about the wedding. Dru rushed over when Lee phoned him that she was genuinely ill. Dru was alarmed when Dr. Henry Lewis's tentative diagnosis was for virus pneumonia, which doesn't respond to antibiotics. Feeling miserable about interrupting their honeymoon, Dru finally brought himself to telephone John.

Girl: "Why do you suppose she got engaged to him. He looks old enough to be her father...Would you want to marry someone your father's age?"
Boy: "Do you suppose I could ask her to dance later? If she went out with Tom Baxter, why wouldn't she dance with me."

JUNE 28, 1965: Pre-empted.

JUNE 29, 1965 (EP. #289)
John felt guilty when Dru phoned him about Lee's illness, and felt guiltier still when Pat suggested they return immediately to Bay City. Dru tried to calm Lee's fears of going to the hospital for tests. Bert came to see his son Ernest at his office to complain about his medical treatment and to praise Ernest's new lady love, Janet. Bert tried to reconcile Ernest with Alex and Karen, with whom he's been on bad terms for over 10 years, since both Alex and Karen recently returned home to Bay City to live. Jim and Mary's happy morning was dashed by Pat's phone call saying she was at the airport.

JUNE 30, 1965 (EP. #290)
Mary's tears flowed freely when Pat told her her honeymoon had been interrupted. Missy clammed up when Bill pressed her about the sociology books she was studying. Dr. Lewis filled Pat and John in when they arrived at the hospital. The doctor was alarmed when Nurse Conway reported Lee showed signs of cyanosis and dyspnea. He used nail polish remover on a fingernail to confirm Lee's nails were blue. An oxygen tent was set up around Lee. John was tortured by feelings of guilt despite Dru's attempts to make him feel better. John had no choice but to agree when Dr. Lewis told him it would upset Lee too much if she saw him and realized she'd ruined his honeymoon.

Missy: "I was reading."
Bill: "I'll say you were. It looks like you were reading all night. It looks like you've been reading for a week."
Notes: Among the books Missy was reading: "Principles of Sociology" and "Twentieth Century Sociology."